3 Light of Healing

The people in the room started to disperse one by one. You can see from their eyes the worry they had for little Max. Robert my husband was one of them, he wanted to kidnap the doctor and tie him up to check on Max's condition no matter what. It was only through persistent persuasion that we were able to calm him down.

As I look at my son who was just filled with a tear-stained face I started to worry about his well-being, when he was just born he did not cry and utter a sound while when he woke up he was looking left and right with his inquisitive eye. It was as if he was trying to figure out the people around him and when he found himself not to his liking he started to tear up without stopping. Looking at him like that without uttering a single sound I began to wonder if something was wrong with him. Maybe his voice has a disability. Bertha has called for the doctor but the earliest he can arrive is by tomorrow morning.

I promised myself that no matter what disability or how different my son would be from other children that I will love him no differently. I vow to protect him from whatever difficulties that he might face in this world.

Anna had these thoughts in her head as she continually comforts her and her baby. She kissed his still sleeping face gently and started to sing him a lullaby. Her singing voice was solemn and mesmerizing. It was as if angels were singing their hymns in praise. While she was singing flickering lights started to descend around Max. It started as a drizzle like rain but converge into a strong blinding light in the end. The light particles were absorbed in Max's body. It was as if he was a sponge trying to nourish his body with the light particles surrounding him.

In the depths of my consciousness, I started to drift in my sea of thoughts. It was the same darkness filled place when I had no body. I was not as scared as the last time but I can still feel the loneliness in this empty space which was void of anything. While I was lost in my own thoughts I started to feel warmth surrounding me. It felt like the warm embrace of my mother when I was young. It was full of love and concern. This motherly love that started to surround me comforted my soul. I was able to find peace for the first time arriving in this new world. I also noticed that small twinkling lights started to converge in this never-ending darkness. They started to dance around me as if little fireflies attracted to a light. It looked beautiful and I was startled by this sudden change in this space. More and more fireflies arrived as they started to twinkle like stars around me and with one last dance they started to go up as if they were fireworks trying to paint a night sky in this total darkness. How wondrous was the sight when the little fireflies beside suddenly flew up high and became stars. The sight unfolding made me think of a world was starting to form in this space.

I looked up into this new night sky that formed. It brought me warmth and comfort. It made me realize that I was not alone anymore. The vast world that I live in might be big and it can be scary but I am no longer alone. As I saw a big star twinkling in the sky I made a wish. A wish that might not be fulfilled but as my final wish for my past self I prayed solemnly for the lives if my past mother and sister hoping for their bright futures and happy lives.

I looked beyond the distance accepting the fact that this different world will be a start to a new life. After accepting everything my soul became calm as still water. I might not be that naïve and kind-hearted boy in my past life as I know better now but I will still live my new life with the same values but with a better understanding with human's nature. I know now what to do with new life. With unyielding determination and clenched fist, I started to plan for whatever that will come. This time I will strengthen myself so that people will not be able to trample on the things I cherish. Power and strength to do what I want and to protect what I want.

As I was thinking these thoughts I felt my consciousness being called by someone. It was like a lullaby trying to reach me sending me thoughts of encouragement and love. I slowly closed my eyes and let my consciousness follow that pleasing voice.

Opening my eyes the first thing is saw was my mothers' smiling face. Her eyes were shaped like crescent moons as she looked at me lovingly. As I saw this my hearts burden had been lifted. I was able to appreciate now that I was alive again and in a place with a loving family. I could not help myself from forming a smile with my lips while I stretch out my pudgy arms trying to touch my mothers' smiling face. As I did that my mother eyes started to well up with tears. It might have been happiness from seeing his baby boy smile.

"Max you smiled at me for the first time, I'm glad." While Anna said these words she caressed her sons face lovingly and kissed his cheeks gently letting Max touch her face too. The tears that formed were of happiness although her son has not yet spoken a single word his reaction this time was miles better compared to before. He might have the look of inquisitiveness but overall there was a feeling of indifference as well. This made her feel that she was not looking at her son but a stranger.

Max did not know why he still can't utter a single sound but he thought to himself that maybe he needed more time to figure out what was also wrong with his body. The feeling of the flickering lights dancing around his body while he was in his consciousness also reminded him that there are a lot of things that he could discover in this new world. He wanted to research the wonders here and became hopeful that what he felt was magic. Although there were a lot of things that he wanted to do in a baby's body has a lot of limitation. Learning the language was the first thing that he should do.

While Anna embraced Max giving him another lullaby Max was also comfortable in his mother's embrace finally finding a sense of belonging.