1 Things we used to share -Thomas Sanders (Tamaki-Senpais sad story)

You can have the toaster and the P.C

It had been years after the host club had ended. It became lonely when slowly, one by one everyone left Tamaki.

Or even my Timothy Green DVD. I'll let you have the couch and the TV.

First Mori and Honey-Senpai. Then Kyoya. The twins. Finally Haruhi. 'Not even a goodbye.' He thought and chuckled to himself, trying hard to hold back the tears.

Hang on to the jacket that you bought for me.

His father was shutting down the host club room to make a music room. To its original state before it came along. Tamaki was told to take all of his *junk* out of it.

I don't really care you can keep the things we used to share.

He reminisced all of the fun times they had in the Host club. But.. they were all gone. Soon after everyone left, he was ignored. Honey went back into Taekwondo as did Mori. Kyoya became a great accountant of his fathers company. Who knows what happened to those twins. They just disappeared after they left the school.

'Silly twins.'

But what did you do with my heart~?What did you do with my heart?

Haruhi, his sweetheart till the day she graduated. Left him to pursue her degree, and never spoke to him again. It was like she never even was there.

No more fireworks, no more compass. You didn't leave a single butterfly in my stomach.

Tears came rushing down his cheeks when he picked up on all the cosplays they used to do. Or the tea cups they had. Even the vase Haruhi broke.

'I can't believe we still have the pieces of this old thing.' He dryly laughed to himself.

You took my spy glass, not knowin' what lies ahead. 'Took my warmth at night, but left a dent in my bed.

This room was a lot to him. It was the only piece of happiness he had left in his life. Since they graduated things have gone down hill.

I don't really care you keep the things we used to share. But what did you do with my heart~?

He tried to make plans with everyone but they would come up with and excuse. 'I have practice.' 'I have a text today.' 'Work is keeping me away.' Tamaki thought he was annoying so he just eventually gave up.

What did you do with my heart?

Did he deserve this kind of attitude? No. Did he feel like it? Most certainly. He was emotionally and mentally dejected. He stopped trying. He became depressed and suicidal over the years and hid it well.

You've stripped me of my pride. That's for the best, but you've also deprived me of a full nights rest.

Sleep became a hard thing and the cutting began. Tiny slits in his skin ran up his arms and thighs. So he just wore big clothes like sweaters and long pants, even in summer.

So no more dreams were we pull though. And I can't collect my thoughts cause there still with you.

In long nights his mind ran wild with different emotions and negative things. 'Maybe it is my fault.'

'Did she really love me?'

'How come he didn't want to be friends with me after he left?'

'What if I just.. vanish.?'

I don't really care, you can keep the things we used to share. But what did you do with my heart.

He texted Haruhi one last message.

2am New Message

Me:.. Hello Haruhi. I know I it's been a long time. I miss you. Tell the others that too. I can't go on anymore, since you guys left my happiness went too. I just can't. I give up. Nothing is worth living if I can't even see you guys. My fathers an asshole, the club is shutting down, everyone is leaving me. It's just to much to take ya' know? I'm sorry. If this doesn't make any sense I get it. But if you see this message please, see the others and read this to them. Hey everyone I hope Haruhi did as I asked. I love you guys, I miss you guys. The host club was fun till it ended. You silly twins. I wish we got along better. Kyoya, you were the bestest friend I could ever ask for. Honey, eat some cake for me will ya? My favorite is red velvet. Mori, talk more often, your voice needs to be heard. And finally Haruhi. My sweet little girl. I loved you so much. I understood when you said we needed a break. School is important. But I wish we could have been together longer. I wanted to marry you and have kids together, you know that? Even if I called you my daughter. I loved you with all of my heart. No one blame your selves. This was my fault. Have a good life everyone. Goodbye. Host club forever.

What did you do with my heart?

Tamaki sent the message and sat up from his bed. He tied the knot and grabbed the chair. Put his head through and kicked the chair. He tries to gasp for air and get free but it was too late. The deed was done.

I wouldn't take it back even though I feel sore, I meant in when I said what's mine is yours.

Soon the sun arose and he was still there. Pale and emotionless. Soon a maid found the body and called 911. But it was long over due. When an ambulance got there he was pronounced dead.

But I need to know now that we're apart. What did you do?

Soon the bunch of friends met up and read the message. They all cried tears of sadness hearing about the blonds deaths.

I need to know now that were apart, What did you go with my heart~?

They had a proper burial for the boy. He was so cold laying in the casket. Then he was put into the ground. With dozens of people crying they watched as the it lowered and dirt was shoveled atop.

What did you do with my HEART~?

Soon group's offer people left till it was only the 7. Or may I say 6 of the host members left.

What did you do with MY HEART?

They were still in shock on why he would do this. but.. he will be forever in their memories.

What did you do with my heart~?

And yours too.

What did you do with my heart.

Tamaki Souh

Age 26

Cause of death; Suicide

'He will always be remembered. Great Friend, Amazing best friend, boyfriend and host club prince.'

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