1 Chapter 1

♡HARRY'S POV♡

** He held me tight in his arms, not letting me go as I sobbed until there was nothing left. I could feel his soft skin against mine when he wiped the tears from my face and raised my head from my chin. "I love you angel, I always have. " he spoke those words, the ones I've waited my whole life to hear and I was finally safe. **

I was snapped awake from the dream I had almost every night, the only time i felt needed was when I dreamt of my bestfriend. "Honey you'll be late for school if you don't get up!" I heard my mom say from the bottom of the stairs in our small home. I rolled over in my queen sized bed restlessly, the only time i slept much was when he was here with me but on school nights he couldn't stay over, his mom was too strict. I picked up my phone from under my pillow to see a missed call from him followed by a text.

~ please answer the phone, I need you to pick me up today.~

I texted him back quickly letting him know id be there soon, he only lived 3 blocks away. I got dressed as fast as I could, the usual plain white tee and black skinny jeans never fail to impress, yet I was only trying to impress him, my bestfriend. I grabbed my comb and put on my shoes after brushing my teeth, deciding i would fix my curls in the car waiting for him. "I love you mom Im leaving" I shout as a run out the door, eager to see him once again. I start the engine and turn the radio to his favorite station before leaving.

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"Hazza! Good morning how are you on this wonderful day?" He said cheerfully as always when he climbed into the passenger seat of my new range rover. I couldn't help but giggle at the nickname he gave me in 2nd grade, its always made me blush. "Im good and how are you?" I could hear how deep my voice was from just waking up, but I hadn't noticed it when speaking to my mother. Not that having a deep morning voice was bad, but I had a deep voice anyways. He stared at me once he heard me speak, almost as if he was shocked. He didn't say anything for a moment and I almost was sad until he opened his perfect mouth. "Im great Harry, have you even brushed those locks today, you look a little rough" I shook my head, forgetting I hadn't had time to tame my bedhead. I quickly took out my comb and fixed it as I pulled out of his driveway to get to school.

Once we got to Homles Chapel high-school we parted ways as I went to science I couldn't stop thinking about my reaccuring dream. I've had the dream so many times before, but this time was different, it hurt more this time. I couldn't help but think my love for him was growing and I still couldn't tell him that I've been in love with him since the moment I knew what love was. "Harry Styles?" My teacher called out, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Here" I said loudly for her to hear, I sat in the back so that no one could bother me.

I have never been the type to be social and have a lot of friends, I only wanted him around me, he protected me and thats all I wanted. The teacher went on about how the semester was ending and Christmas break was starting at the end of the week and finals were Friday, I was prepared, I always have been. I didn't listen as a drifted into daydreams again. "He's so beautiful" I thought to myself, thinking of his soft hair and his sparkling eyes. "His smile is so perfect" I added to my conversation with myself. I could see his bright white, straight, amazing teeth in my head almost as perfectly as I could as if he was in front of me. God how I loved that boy, and he doesn't even know im gay. Science, Math, and English went by quickly because I was thinking of him, I always do. When I got to lunch, there he was, sitting so beautifully at our table waiting for me with our food.

He grinned the cutest smile I've ever seen when I sat directly beside him. "Harry" was all he said, was he as excited to me as I was to see him? "Hello sunshine" I whispered as I pulled my bestfriend into a hug, it felt like weeks I hadn't seen him and it was only 4 hours. He smiled once more and pushed me my usual lunch. "I think im getting tired of eating hamburgers everyday, I only eat it because you do" he nugged me with his elbow as he spoke. I never got tired of them, but I told him we could eat something different the next day, anything for him. After lunch the rest of the day was terrible, the news of finals finally hit me, although I had nothing to be worried about I knew my bestfriend was having trouble in math.

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"Harry this just really doesn't make sense, I cant make it to college if I fail this final, mom wont even let me get a tutor!" He yelled into the phone. I felt terrible, I was so good with school while he struggled. I hated seeing, or in this case hearing, him upset. He deserved to be happy and to be good in school, that boy is amazing. "Well im- im good with math maybe my mom could talk to yours about you coming over so I could help you?" I said, hoping he would agree. Sleepovers with him were amazing, we stayed up laughing and watching movies every time, as if we were still little kids. I could almost feel his face light up with my idea through the phone. "Yes oh my gosh that could totally work Haz, please please please get your mom on board." He spoke as if he were 7 years old again before he hung up the phone.

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"I cant believe she let you come over on a school night, this hasn't happened since 5th grade." I said eating my pizza while staring at the gorgeous boy sitting across the bed Im on. "Yeah this is gonna be great, we already studied for three hours and we can actually hang out before we sleep, its sad we can only see each other on the weekends." His voice is so light and adorable, I cant believe I have him in my life. How would I get so lucky to be in love with someone so amazing... but he doesn't know. I've wanted to tell him for so long but I can't find the words to say "I'm in love with you and im gay" it just isn't easy and I know he won't feel the same.

"What are you staring at?" Oh God, I was staring at him and didn even notice.

◇LOUIS' POV◇

"What are you staring at?" I asked the curly lad, he had been looking at me for the past 10 minutes, and he had been acting different all day. He usually wakes up early and is dressed perfectly, but not today. He usually talks about how he doesn't want to go to science class, but not today. He usually tells me we have to eat hamburgers for lunch when I complain... but not today. I could see his eyes dim when I asked him that question, I feel as if I had broken his heart. This boy means the world to me and nothing less, I love him so much but he'd never love me back. I can't ignore my feelings for him but I can't act like something has changed so I stay the same, I couldn't push away my bestfriend because im gay.

"I- um..i was looking at you, Lou?" Harry said, almost as if he wasn't sure if he was answering correctly. I didn't have a problem with him looking, I loved seeing his eyes on me, looking at my tan face, but knowing he was just dazed is the problem. Knowing that he wasn't checking me out is the problem. Ive been friends with him since kindergarten, and senior year was almost over and I still haven't told him how I feel, im terrified once high-school is over that I'll never see the love of my life again. "Let's skip school tomorrow" I blurted out unaware of what I was thinking, I just wanted time with Harry, I wanted every moment in the world with him. "Louis William Tomlinson, you're so insane, let's do it." And with that sentence, I knew he was on board.

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I woke up with him wrapped around me, not that it wasn't normal because he always cuddled me in his sleep.. but this morning is different. His breathing was soft and slow and I could smell his sweet breath against my neck. Ive always had a crush on Harry, but lately the feelings are getting deeper and deeper and im not sure how much longer I can go without telling him.

I sat and watched him sleep until his alarm went off for school, but of course we had other plans. He reached over and slammed the alarm into the floor and the ringing stopped, he's so cute when he's angry. His eyes were sparkling and the color green suddenly flooded my mind. "Like an Emerald" I whispered to myself as he layed his head back down. "Huh?" His morning voice was deep, just like yesterday and I almost melted. "Oh um, are you ready for today..i have an idea of what we could do!" I spoke softly but excitedly so I wouldn't make him angry. He smiled a cute toothy grin and looked at me with loving eyes, "im ready to run." He has always had a way with words, but these sounded special.

"You guys are gonna be late for school!" Anne called from the bottom of the stairs, how is it that Harry gets ready in 5 minutes before school and still looks flawless everyday I see him. I smirk after she says school, oh that poor woman believes we go to school everyday she tells us to. We get up fast and get dressed, its cold today so Harry wears a white sweater and blue jeans. Its dawned on me that i forgot clothes and I almost scream. "Come on Lou did you forget clothes again." He shook his head and handed me his green Adidas hoodie to put on with my black jeans from yesterday. We both slip on our Tom's and run out the door. "Where to Boobear?" I hate that name he gave me in 1st grade, but I cant help but giggle evertime it leaves his lips. His soft, pink, beautiful lips that I want to kiss so bad. "Remember that ice cream shop your mom used to take us to when we were little..i can't stop thinking of it and how we used to share a strawberry milkshake every Tuesday..and today is Tuesday so I thought-" Harry cuts me off "Oh we were definitely going right now put your seat belt on." I love that he always agrees with me, i love that he wants to be that close to me, and i love that I get to share a straw with him.