1 Liu Shifu
CHINATOWN, NEW YORK
A boy stood in the shadows, leaning against the brick wall, listening to the night. The distant clack of diesel engines from the Essex train yards filled the sky over the Sixteenth Street projects. Tugboats on the Hudson sounded their horns as they pushed garbage scows downriver, heading out to sea.
The rumble of the incinerator on the other side of the brick wall vibrated the boy's back. It seemed like they burned garbage all the time around here. He looked up at the stars shining dully through the drifting smoke from the incinerator. For the 14 year-old Liu Shifu, life was all garbage, and he just couldn't take any more. He'd had it.
The warm bricks heated his back as his breath turned to vapor on the cold air. Down by his side, he held the wooden closet pole. His hand was sweaty as his eyes darted into the darkness and he listened for the footsteps, for that voice. Jing Ke's voice.
He glanced up at the projects, the lights in the windows. His apartment was up there somewhere, but he wasn't sure which window was his. It didn't matter really. The apartments were all the same here, and they all stunk. The heavy wooden pole came from the hallway closet, the only closet in the whole apartment. It was stupid having a closet pole up there, the way he figured. There were hardly any clothes to move when he took it down.
Just about the only clothes he and his little brother and sister owned were the ones they wore. Whenever something wore out and his mother could afford it, they'd just go downtown and replace it and wear it home stiff, sometimes with the tags still on. He felt his frayed shirtfront, ashamed of the way he had to go around. The other kids in the projects teased him all the time, but the most stinging remarks always came from Jing Ke. ''Shifu the rag boy." "Hobo Shifu." ''Ghost bones."
His mother never listened to him. She always bought his clothes big so he wouldn't outgrow them too fast, she said. But he was a skinny kid, and he never grew into them. They just flapped around him as if he were some kind of....hobo.
Might as well be a hobo, he thought. He spent all his time wandering the streets as it was, staying to himself. He didn't hang out in gangs the way other kids did. He didn't get along with those kids. He preferred his own company, walking around, seeing what there was to see, watching the sailors getting drunk and picking up whores over in Hoboken, watching the tired factory workers dragging themselves in and out of the Kenmare House factory just to make a buck, watching people arguing with shopkeepers up in Journal Square, going crazy to save a few pennies on a bag of rice.
It was all garbage. People going nuts just so they could grab a little piece of something for themselves. But it was all garbage. Couldn't they see that.
One time he was over on Spring Street, just walking around, when he spotted this truck parked in front of the Manischewitz factory. The back of the truck was open, and it was stacked high with wooden crates.
As he got closer, he could see that there were bottles in the crates, bottles of wine. There was writing stenciled on the crates, but it was all in that Jewish writing, just like in the window of that butcher shop over on Grand Avenue. There was only one word in English: ''Kosher." Shifu didn't know what that meant, but he'd heard that Jewish folks used a lot of wine in their religious ceremonies and they had money. They probably didn't drink cheap stuff because they didn't have to, so he figured this wine had to be worth something.
He walked around to the front of the truck. The cab was empty. No one was around. His heart started to pound. It was right there for the taking. If he waited, the driver would come back, and then it would be too late. He looked all around as he went to the back of the truck. He let a couple of cars pass, then looked over at the loading docks at the Manischewitz factory. Nobody was there.
Suddenly all he could hear was his heart beating. He reached up to haul down a crate from the top of a stack, but it was heavy, heavier than he'd expected. His hand was on the crate, but the whole stack was teetering, and he was afraid to step up onto the tailgate to get it down. If someone spotted him in the truck, it would look like he was stealing. But he wanted the wine. He'd never even tasted wine, but he knew he wanted it because it was worth something.
With sweat beading on his forehead, Shifu put his foot up on the tailgate, hoisted himself up just long enough to get the crate down without toppling the whole stack, and bounced back down to the pavement. The crate was heavy, very heavy.
But he had it, and he was standing there at the curb with it, guilty as sin. He lifted it onto his shoulder and started to run with it, his back aching and his heart going crazy, thinking about the Paramount Theater downtown and the cowboy movies he'd seen there on Saturday afternoons, how the good guys always talked about catching the bad guys red-handed. That's what he was now. Red-handed with red wine.
He ran all the way back to the projects, straight to the incinerators, slamming the heavy metal door behind him. A window the size of an envelope on the face of the furnace sent a fiery glow into the dark room. Shifu set down the crate and closed the door. Staring at the fire, he remembered the bullshit the nuns always told him in school about burning in hell. He didn't believe it. It was just something they tried to scare you with to keep you in line. He pulled out a bottle from the crate and examined it.
The wine was so dark even the light of the fiery blast couldn't penetrate it. He took out the penknife he carried and tried to figure out how to get the cork out. His heart was still pounding, and the heat of the furnace flushed his face. He picked at the cork with the blade of the knife, hoping he could pry it out, but that didn't work, so he sliced the cork while it was still in the bottle and broke it into pieces. He dug out part of the cork, then jammed the rest into the bottle. His hand was shaking as he lifted it to his lips. The taste wasn't what he expected. It was thick and sweet, but not a good sweet.
But maybe this was what his well-off Uncle Guang had meant when he said something was an "acquired taste." That meant it was really worth something even if it didn't seem that way. Shifu spat out the cork crumbs and took another swig. He wasn't sure whether he liked it or not. It must take time to acquire a taste, he figured. He drank as much as he could stand, then hid the rest of the crate under some old newspapers in a corner of the incinerator room.
That night he was sick, and he threw up purple. He didn't get drunk; at least he didn't think so. He was just sick— worried sick that the police would come to the door and take him away, worried that they knew it was him who took the wine.
His stomach bothered him for a week, but he didn't say a word to his mother. He couldn't eat, and he was afraid to go out, afraid that the police would snatch him off the street if he did. But nothing happened. It was two weeks before he finally convinced himself that he'd gotten away with it, and the wine was really his.
But when he went back to the incinerator room to check his stash, the crate was gone. Someone had found it and taken his wine. He figured it was probably Jing Ke trying to screw with him again.
A train clattered in the distance, crossing the concrete trestle on Newark Avenue, either heading for or coming from the Hoboken yards. Shifu's father worked for the railroad. He thought his father was a brakeman, but he wasn't sure.
The last time he'd seen his old man was when his little sister was born three years ago. The old man had run off when Shifu was just a little kid, but he'd show up out of the blue every now and then like a sailor home from the sea. It was no treat when he came around. He had a bad temper, and he liked to beat his oldest son just for the hell of it. He'd come storming into the kids' room, stinking drunk, yelling and screaming about something, already pulling the belt out of his pants.
It wasn't so bad when his mother was home. She'd tried to stop it, yelling and screaming herself, and the beating usually wouldn't last too long. Shifu had figured out that his old man was like anyone else. All he really wanted was a little attention. That's why Shifu knew that whenever his mother was at work, the old man would take off that belt and do his worst, and there was nothing Shifu could do or say that would change his father's mind because the guy was just looking for attention. All Shifu could do was take it and try to think about something else while it was happening.
Of course, his mother beat him, too, with the broom handle, but she never seemed to have as much energy, so it didn't hurt half as bad as the belt. She put in so many hours at the Armour meat plant she hardly had the time to beat her kids.
She had other ways of making you feel bad, though. Better ways. She did it with words and attitude, comments that stung and cut and left you feeling like shit, feeling that her disappointment with life was all your fault, that you should do something to fix it. But whatever you did just made her more miserable. Yeah, she could be much worse than the old man.
But taking crap from your parents was one thing; taking it from another kid was something else. You couldn't do anything about your parents, but someone else giving you grief you were supposed to do something about, the way the cowboys did in the movies. And now, standing under the smoky night sky with his back to the warm bricks, the closet pole in his hand, he was ready to do something about it. He was ready to go to war.
Jing Ke didn't just taunt Shifu. The bully liked to beat him up, too. He lived downstairs from Shifu, and he had his own gang, six other kids who lived in the Sixteenth Street projects. Jing Ke always smacked Shifu around when his gang was there.
It made him look like a big man. It made him the leader. In the beginning Shifu had tried to fight back, but whenever he raised a hand to Jing Ke, the other kids would gang up on him and get their hits in, punching and kicking.
After a split lip and a dull pain in his side that took a month to go away, Shifu learned that it was better just to take it and get it over with, the same way he took his father's beatings. But it was hard to take it from Jing Ke. The boy's incredible arrogance just got to him, and the humiliation of hearing the gang laughing at him gnawed at his gut.
Shifu shuddered with pent-up hate just thinking about Jing Ke and his stupid gang. He tapped the end of the pole on the asphalt pavement, nervously waiting. No. He'd really had it now. He wasn't going to take any more.
Footsteps came into the dark courtyard, and Shifu's heart stopped. Someone was coming this way. Shifu gripped the closet pole and started to raise it over his head. His arms were shaking. His legs were like lead.
The footsteps came closer.
Shifu wished he could stop shaking. He wanted to run, but he didn't want to run, not anymore. He wanted to teach Jing Ke a lesson, show him that he couldn't pick on him anymore. Shifu just wanted to get Jing Ke off his back so he could live in peace. Shifu just wanted to be left alone.
The footsteps were within reach when he saw a face squinting out of the gloom.
