Entry 1.2: The Worst of It

Alina was pissed.

And when I say pissed, I mean PISSED.

She started cursing under her breath and kept going over what Nick said like she hadn't just heard about it a couple minutes ago.

Then I hung up to calm down and checked to see if G had any updates.

Nothing.

I wasn't super worried. We'd technically ended the conversation, but from my understanding, they were still prying at Nick.

So I went back into the online group call.

This time, both S and L were there.

And S knew what was going on behind the scenes.

L asked what happened and I explained it to her. Then I asked where G was and, as G's older sister, S jumped in.

She told us the G was quite upset because of the situation and no one should contact them right now as they were trying to distance themselves from the drama.

"I think it's completely disgusting that your friends are talking about the Loi situation like this. None of this is your fault Vee, and it sucks that your friends are acting this way," She said.

Wait a second.

Friends, plural?

I answered with my heart pounding in my ears. "What do you mean friends?"

"I don't think I have the right to say anything," She replied indifferently. "You need to ask Nick."

Now that made me cringe.

I had already told Nick off for the Loi thing while I was on the call with Alina, and of course, he tried to apologize and I refused. So going back into the conversation would be weird.

But I had to.

I clicked on the discord app, went into our dms, and started typing.

"G's sister told me the rest of the group is talking about it like this too."

"Explain."

Typing.

Typing..

Typing…

Message.

"Most of the group made a server and they talk a lot of shit about, Like, you and Cyrus :/"

What?

no

No

NO

What? What is this feeling? Why would they do that? What did I do?

Was this my fault?

Am I to blame for my own downfall? Like Icarus?

Did I fly to close to the sun, or did I just get too attached?

"Your kidding." I wrote.

Message.

"I wish I was."

No you don't, asshole.

"They also made the cocksucker666 account."

Not just they, you too.

Now, you're probably wondering what the "cocksucker666" account is. While I could spare no detail, I don't have the time or patience for that, so here's the rundown.

A person who spammed my account on Wattpad in October 2021, insulted me, so I blocked it. Then they made multiple other accounts to keep insulting me, told me to kms, called me slurs, etc.

You get it.

But the fact that they were the ones who did that made me even more upset.

So I gasped loudly and started to sob.

Of course, my friends on the phone started asking what was wrong, and I told them what Nick had just confessed and then I left.

Now, you may judge me for my next move, but mind you, I was basically hysterical, and you would do something stupid too.

So, I went to my parents. And I Told them everything.

They gave me some Mormon advice as parents do because I'm supposed to be Mormon (a story for a different time)

So My mom took me for pity ice cream. And it was good. For a moment, at least. Because I knew Monday was going to be a shitstorm.

Especially since I was going to file a cyberbullying report.