10 Chapter 9

I feel really guilty about what I did to Ace when he was just being nice as a friend and I got too scared and panicked at his affectionate actions. I was just scared and confused about everything that's happening to me ever since we moved here.

"Luna, are you okay?" Matt asked me while holding up a Batman poster.

"Huh? Uh, yes, why?" I asked though I know that I seemed very distant.

"You look like you have a lot in your mind and I was talking to you but you didn't hear me." He said and I instantly felt guilty that I wasn't listening to him and I even volunteered to help him decorate his bedroom.

"I'm sorry, what were you saying?" I asked him with an apologetic smile and he just laughs.

"I'm asking you where do you think I should put this?"

"Oh, uh, anywhere really, it's your choice. I'll help you." I walk towards him and started to help him decorate his room.

Afterward, I stared at the wall inside my room while thinking about what happened, and to be honest, I really like the excitement of what's happening in my life right now but what I hate is the thrill and the weirdness of it all. Even Ace is weird and he said some strange things so I think I have every right to be like that to him because he doesn't really know what's in my head and what's going on, why I'm acting like an odd bitch.

Even so, I couldn't help but be guilty and felt sorry for him because he was just being nice and helpful but I turned him down, as always. Why he gotta act so angry? I mean, I get it, I'm rude as fuck but I think he overreacted too.

Do I wanna text him and ask him to hang out? Yeah, but I'm embarrassed and felt like a dumbass so I'm not sure how I'll text him, what will I say to him.

I stopped staring at the wall and stared at my phone instead while thinking about how will I text him and what right words shall I use to not insult him again.

I typed in. 'Hi, I was just wondering if you want to hang out with me later?'

But I quickly deleted it and shook my head. Too formal and awkward.

I typed in again. "Ace, hi. I'm sorry, do you wanna maybe hang out? I didn't mean to hurt your feelings.'

I deleted it again and shook my head. Too sympathetic and pathetic.

I groaned and typed again a new text to send. 'Ace...look, I am really confused and annoyed about everything that's happening in my current life, and to be honest, I don't like it when someone is touching me or pitying me or even comforting me for reasons why I don't even know why. You know that already right? I didn't mean to let out my anger at you when you're just being your usual self. I wanna make it up to you, maybe you wanna hang out? If you're not too busy or something? Today? Later? Fuck it...just someday? If you want to hang out someday and maybe you can tell me about those weird things you said?'

I shook my head again and I was supposed to delete it but I accidentally sent the message. "My gosh, Luna, why you gotta be stupid?"

I tried deleting it but it kept erroring for some reason and I just slumped on my bed and groaned while I bury my face into my hands and rolling on the bed like a fool.

Within a few minutes of acting like a miserable bitch, my phone rings and I hesitated to answer it so I just stared at it again and saw his number. I just let it ring, not answering and praying to the Gods to make it stop. It stopped but it dings and popped out a new message. I bit my lip and my legs starting bouncing rapidly while I swiped the phone to read it.

My eyes scan the words slowly with widening eyes. "Right now, you're probably nervous and embarrassed about sending that message so you won't answer my call. From what I can remember from you when you're nervous your legs start to bounce, up and down, rapidly, you sweat cold In your neck and forehead, you call yourself something that can bring you down but at the same time you don't even get affected by the way you call yourself, and when you're embarrassed to hide your face into your hands or something, you always pray for whatever's making you feel like that to go away. That's how close we were and how I really really know you so yeah I think I overreacted a little bit because I knew that you were gonna do that still I got mad at you. I'm sorry, I know you're confused about everything right now but I can't tell you yet. Meet me later. 4."

I read the message over and over again with furrowed brows and I put the phone down on my lap and checked my forehead. I didn't even realize how sweaty I was. I looked down at my legs and quickly stop bouncing it while glaring at them. How can he know me better than myself? It's not like we were friends from middle school till high school...we've only been friends for a few years and we have other different friends. Is he that observant? I didn't know that he's like that, that's weird.

My head tilted in confusion, wondering how my life changed ever since my family moved here, a lot. Everything is weird even Ace. What the fuck is happening?

I looked at my phone and decided to just wait and don't reply back to him. I rolled on my bed and put a pillow on my face, trapping it completely while I remind myself over and over again that I need to calm down even with the current situation of my life. From the porcelain girl to Ace, everything's chaotic but I feel like I'm missing something. Like I am supposed to know now what the happenings are trying to tell me but the problem is everything's confusing and every time I think about it all my head starts spinning and my stomach turns into knots while it sends chills down my spine for some odd reason.

I still don't know what happened to the girl. I don't know if her life's in danger and she's asking for help. I don't know what to do.

I didn't realize that I doze off and took a nap with the pillow still on my face until I heard some murmuring next to my ear and I immediately jolted up and got up from my bed. I grabbed a hanger on my desk and I faced whoever bothered me while I held the hanger to protect me.

Matt giggled and my eyes soften as I saw him sitting on my bed while wearing thick clothes. I put down the hanger and I scooted beside him while dipping my fingers into his brown locks.

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to see your reaction." Matt says, innocently and I just nodded.

"It's fine. Did Kai told you to do this?" I asked, ready to fight that scumbag for teaching the kid things that immature freaks like him do.

Matt looks up at me and looked down. "Well...kinda...we was just playing and I said I wanted to wake you up to eat with you and he said that you would only wake up if I whisper in your ear. To be honest, I found it kinda funny so I didn't believe him but I did that to you anyway since you were saying something about something and you looked scared in your dream so I whispered that I'm here whenever you need me and I'll fight the bad guys for you." Matt explained.

"Mmm, really? Thank you for waking me up then. Did you really not...understand anything that I said?" I looked at him with tired eyes while smiling.

He shakes his head. "No, not really. I just heard something about smiley people."

Smiley people? Really? Why am I so afraid of smiley people? It's not a crime to be happy.

"Why are you wearing thick clothes anyway? It's the middle of summer. Aren't you feeling hot?" I asked while I patted his head and cheek.

"I like this neck turtle! I look like a genius!"

"You look like a small cuter and more adorable Steve Jobs." I muttered while my eyelids kept getting heavier again. "Can I sleep again? I'm tired."

"But I woke you up to eat with me. Can't you just sleep later? You didn't even do anything at all!" Matt whined and I chuckled while looking at him and laying down on my bed.

"I did do a lot. I helped you decorate your room, didn't I? I did the dishes, the laundry, the sweeping, the babysitting. C'mere let's sleep."

I pulled him down gently and he obliged. "Oh, I remember now. You did do a lot today, sorry."

"It's okay, sapphire. Let me just sleep for a few then we'll do whatever you want to do to later, yeah?" I caressed his cheek and he nodded while smiling.

"Sleep nice, Luna." Darkness consumed both of us, sleeping while hugging each other. I need up dreaming about nothing, finally, my nightmares let me sleep peacefully even if it's just for today. Matt's leg is on my legs while he snores and nuzzles closer to me while I wrap my arm around his small body, protecting him and keeping him close like a kind mother would do to their child.