1 Prolouge
Its been 6 months,4 days and 47 hours since I've been together with Brian my high school best friend/Boyfriend.
I knew so many things about him that i've never knew when we were in high school but nowadays I almost spent a whole day with him since we go to the same medical school
I don't know I loved him in the first place but maybe ,I knew how he smiled everytime i tell him how embarrasing my highschool life back then. I've memorized that shy smile that he gives me when he did something bad.
I never knew how much i love him until those highschool memories flash-blacked in my head and i realized how pathetic i am when i didn't notice those little efforts he made for me. That expensive cologne he only wears when I'm with him, I remembered that he wasn't that rich when we were in highschool but he still buys that cologne everytime he runs out of it.I remembered those little surprise gifts that he makes just to make my birthday special.
He was the only one who I run into when my ex boyfriends broke up with me since i have no girl bestfriends.
Today's our 6th Monthsary and I dreamed about a guy that really got me interested but I'm really sure that it wasn't brian because of his really eye catching smile It wasn't that same smile.
That bothered me for like a whole day but i don't want brian to noticed that's somethings wrong with me so i just acted normal.
When we were having our movie night brian's phone vibrated and I've seen a girl named Vanessa but i didn't bother to ask brian about it since i noticed he's having a really good time so we just continued watching until the movie ended and i looked at brian and seen him sleeping by my side with his arm around me but i felt something was wrong,It wasn't the same feeling in his arms i think somethings missing his arms weren't warm enough,his arms were so cold like ice there's no love i felt.
The text was bothering me so i went to check on his phone and found a really heart breaking conversation between brian and that girl vanessa, I've seen those sweet messages he used to reply to me. My heart felt so much pain that it could explode and i could feel those warm tears dripping on my cheeks, My cheeks were red i didn't notice i was crying so loud that brian even woke up from his really deep sleep.
I quickly placed his phone where it used,As i wipe my tears vigorously.
"Babe why are you crying?" he asked.
"I just remembered the movie we watched" I said convincingly.
Then he just hugged my tightly as he say the word "I Love You".
I loved him so much that i couldn't bear i day without him, so in my fear of losing him i just didn't say it to him i just acted like everything was in the right place.
I cry everynight for the past few months until I couldn't resist the pain anymore i went and text him to meet me at our usual place at 4 pm.
The next morning
I couldn't sleep well last night same as the past few nights.
It was only 8:00 am I cried in commitment to break up with him.
After I completely convince myself for the second time it was already 2:00 pm in the afternoon so i quickly gathered myself together.
I took the train to go there and when i got there he was sitting in the swing when we had our first kiss. That place was so historical and magical for me that i even cried before facing him.
After I gathered some energy i walk by the swing and see him smiling at me.
"Did you wait long?" I said with my face facing the floor.
"No, its been just 5 minutes"He said happily.
"Uhm, I thought about this for thousands of times now and i think its time".I said with my eyes being teary.
"Is something wrong?"He asked and his smile turned into a frown.
"Let's break up"I said while crying with pain and anger.
"What?!"He furiously asked.
"I love you and Goodbye" I said and I runaway.
He was so Confused that i didn't even say the reason, because the pride and anger in my heart overflown that i couldn't bear to let him know what i found out.
Two days past and i didn't even hear a single news about him i think he's happy, now because there's no barrier between him and vanessa.
