1 Am I Too Late. . . ?

I do not know ow how you do it... is it because you are my only happiness? will you talk back? Are not you gonna answer me? I just sighed and chuckled at myself. I miss you alot... sometimes.

When you hide under those clouds, as if you were wearing a black hoodie, except you were covered by the night skies. Sometimes when I talk to you, you shine really bright. As if you were smiling back at me.

I must be crazy, I was staring at the sky, but I did not mind.

I talk to the stars because, they remind me of someone close to my heart. The one that was always covered in a black hoodie. Someone that always smiles when he sees me. Someone that will always ask me to play hide and seek, just to cheer me up.

We would always hang out, smile, laugh, cry (but for good reasons)... we always had fun, you made me smile, and I did the same.

But you left...

"I promise I'll never leave you, just look up." you said.

I don't get it. You never break your promises, so why did you break your most wonderful promise? I guess that is why I always look up.

I look up and i would always see stars. Was that what you meant? Did you really not leave me? But how and why didn't you tell me?

I may look happy by talking to stars but... Namjoon...I miss you alot. So please come back, let's laugh again, and hang out, and be happy.

I am walking to school now, what about you?

I suddenly bumped into someone.

"oh, I'm sorry... are you okay?" said a deep and husky voice.

That voice...it can't be...

I looked up at the man and saw him...

"N-Namjoon...?" I asked a little scared.

I just teared up and hugged him... after all these years...

"I told you, I will never leave you right?" he said calmly in his deep voice.

"...how...?" I asked with tears in my eyes.

"I did not die, I survived." he answered while wiping my tears with his thumb.

"then why did you say you will die soon in that letter?!" I said clearly mad at him.

"If I did not survive, then the letter I gave you would be right, but I did and..." tears fell instantly, I hugged him crying on his shoulder. I did not know, I would be in tears if I saw him again.

"please tell me this is not a dream..." I whimpered.

"do you want me to pinch you?" as he said that, I felt him pinch me in my cheeks without me noticing.

"ow!" I frowned.

"sorry, I thought you said yes..." he said while laughing.

"yah!!" I shouted at him, annoyed.

"I missed you..." he said.

"I talked to the stars, for you."

"really?" he asked happily.

I nodded . "I never break my promises, you thought I was actually dead?" he whispered in my ear.

"I thought you broke this one." I whispered back.

"still single?" he asked randomly.

"yah!" I shouted. "again with that question!" I continued.

"so, are you really still single?" he asked once more.

"why?" I asked confused as he became really serious all of a sudden.

"I love you..." he said quietly.

"w-what?" ... what...?

"I love you." he said a little bit louder, thinking I did not hear it clearly.

"How could you?!" I shouted at him.

"what? please say it clearly, if you don't want me to then..."

"how could you realize it now?!" I cut him off.

"huh?" he asked confused.

"didn't you know I cried, when you left? I cried because I missed you, I cried because I needed you, I cried because I love you... why now? when I already have a boyfriend? why did you tell me now? when I know I will just hurt you when I tell you?" I said crying once more.

"you are just joking right?" he said with teary eyes.

"Namjoon, I'm not. He was the one who comforted me when you were gone. He was..."

"stop...p-please...." he said while crying, realizing it was too late.