7 Awake or not awake?

You went in the hospital with multiple monitors beeping and many things were attached to your body. All of the boys were waiting outside until they could hear more news.

Jungkook and Taehyung were holding back tears, Yoongi and Jin were regretting not coming home earlier, Namjoon, J-hope and Jimin were only looking at the time.

They were all so scared for your life. They weren't like others, they tried to help you.

~meanwhile with you~

Your body was tired, you were sleeping, but actually you were awake inside. Your head was filled with thoughts. What happened, who did it and who came to rescue. You remembered that your so called family came to kill you but they didn't succeed. Someone had to stop them.

You tried to remember, but you couldn't. You were constantly getting flashbacks of times when you were younger. You remembered that time when your brother and you needed to walk the dog. He picked up a stick and threw it to the dog. He repeated this few times, but got bored later so he decided to hit you with it.

He then enjoyed things he was doing and started hitting you every day. That was the time he started being abusive.

Your brother changed a lot. But that was not the only thing bugging your mind.

Why did BTS help you with everything. You were nothing special, you were getting bullied and abused, you self-harmed, you even attempted suicide. Yet they still chose to help you.

Why? Why would they help someone like you? You decided that if you ever wake up you will go back to your house. Even if your mother and brother are there. You will run away if that's what it takes.

You were a burden to them. No, not to them but to the whole world.

Why did I even show them my scars? Why did I tell them about me getting abused? Why did I ever talk to them? Why didn't I ignore them?

I just want to open my eyes and go. Run somewhere where no one can find me. Where I am free and alone. I want to be alone forever.

BTS helped me cure myself a bit. And I respect them even more for that. I am very thankful for everything they did.

But it's time for me to move on. I just can't live like this. My whole life is a lie.

My thoughts were interrupted by people walking into my room. I heard some voices and soon recognized them as BTS.

"Y/n you need to wake up. You must know that you did nothing wrong and your so called family is in jail. Please, we miss you a lot and you became part of our life. You need to stay strong" I heard Jin speak in the name of them all. Someone then put his hand on mine and I almost started crying. I wanted to open my eyes, but couldn't.

My mind started thinking of staying with them, but I would still be a burden. And god knows for how long I will be able to hide the fact that I'm starving myself.

They were all surrounding you with worried faces. Jungkook and Taehyung were touching your hands.

Your mind kept wondering off to dark secrets you have until suddenly your eyes open. You took deep breaths and looked around you with shock. J-hope was the first one to hug you and that made you come to your senses.

"Y/n you're awake!!" He shouted and hugged you tightly.

After a few minutes everyone did what they wanted and soon a nurse came in and told you that you will be ready to leave in 15 minutes. You were happy until she said that you have to remove your bandage on your right thigh.

"U-uum guys, c-can you please leave?" You asked them politely. "Sure" Namjoon spoke and they left the room.

The nurse turned to you and asked you "is everything okay?" You hesitated to reply as she slowly started taking off the bandage. "Please don't tell anyone" you said quickly before she put the bandage fully away from your thigh. She looked at your bloody marks and cuts. "So you do self-harm?" She asked surprisingly nicely.

"I did, but please just leave me. Do what you need but don't tell anyone I beg you" you almost cried and she nicely replied again "I won't if you want so"

She slowly put another dose of medicine into your thigh and it hurt, but you kept silent. After she was done she put the bandage back on and told you that you can get dressed and leave. You did so and after 10 minutes you came out of the room. BTS thanked everyone and took you with them to their house.

When you arrived Jin started cooking lunch meanwhile you were in bathroom cutting your thighs, just because it felt good.

When you came out you quickly went to J-hope's room to find another pair of black jeans. You put them on, they didn't fit perfectly, but it was okay.

You met Yoongi on the hallway standing in front of you with a bloody razor in his hands.

"Y/n, can you explain?"