28 Twenty-eight

The door closing softly was all I needed to jump up out of my sleep. I was on high alert due to the physical trauma that Asher's warrior put me through. Not only did it mess with my head, but it affected my wolf heavily. She used majority of her strength to keep us alive. And there's only so much a broken wolf can take before it shuts down.

I felt weak. I was merely a human without her. I couldn't help but imagine if there's a possibility that she'll never return to me.

I sighed as I looked at Asher, who had one of his eyebrows perked up with a curious and concerned look on his face. I rubbed the palms of my hands against my eyes and sat up, "Asher?" I questioned. I couldn't see much, the room was only brightened by a single lamp that didn't do much to help me see.

"I wanted to speak to you." He said, his body stiff.

I attempted to sit up straighter, wincing in pain. The worse thing about my wolf being in a deep slumber was that I didn't heal as fast. He growled and made his way toward me in a flash, "sit still, your body is still healing, Madison."

I frowned, I hated the way he spoke to me as if I was some lowly pack members. As if I was like the others.

"About what?" I replied and held my breath, hoping it would be about our mating bond.

He sat down at the edge of the bed, his face being hit with the light from the lamp just perfectly enough for me to get a good view of him.

"About the yearly alpha meeting." He said. I exhaled and bit my lip, trying to prevent myself from tearing up, "what about it?"

"It's coming up and I need a luna to go with me," he sighed, "and considering your state right now, I don't think it would be a good idea for you to go."

I forced my body up from its laying position, not caring about the excruciating pain and had my mouth agape, "you can't actually mean that!"

"Keep your voice down, people are sleeping." He replied with his deep voice. I had almost forgotten that he had actually allowed his pack members to sleep in the pack house now.

"Asher, this is my only chance to get in contact with Levi so I can figure out where my brother might be, this is important to me. Please." I begged him. I was just about ready to get on my knees and start begging.

"Who told you about all that?" He asked, was it supposed to be a secret?

"Well… Isabel told me, then the nurse informed me on it more… but that's not the point. You know that it'd be a better idea to have a luna attend this meeting with you, who would go with you if I didn't?" I commented, trying to convince him.

"I have options." He replied.

A pang was sent to my heart, "oh." Was all I said.

I sat back down against my pillow and definitely felt tears welling up in my eyes now. I hope he couldn't notice. We sat in silence for a couple seconds before he got up and walked toward the door.

"Get some sleep, we'll talk more about this in the morning." He left the room and silent tears made their way down my face. I was now aware of this heartless, cold, rude alpha that Carter had described Asher as.

I sat in that bed crying for an hour or two before the sun started to rise. I wanted to see a view other than my window so I began to make my way around the dark, quiet pack house. I heard a view small voices down in the kitchen, which I assumed were the chefs cooking.

I eventually stumbled across a porch that was guarded by its glass doors, I slowly slid it open and walked out, closing it behind me. My bare feet coming in contact with the chilly floor making me shiver. I continued to walk across the cold wood until i made it to the railing.

I looked down at the ground to see grass and flowers planted in the ground. I smiled and looked back up to the rising sun, I let the vitamin D sink into my skin and hope that it brought me some type of healing.

I heard the glass door slide open again slowly and I sighed. I know I wanted to speak with Asher, to make things fight some how but, I couldn't stand another heart break today.

"Luna?" A small voice said behind me, I flipped around to see a little girl with a wolf onesie on. She rubbed her eyes and yawned. She walked toward me and hugged my leg, staring up at the sunset along with me. "Roxy?"

Roxy sent me a grin and spoke, "good morning Luna, it's so early!" She tiredly said. I laughed at her response and rubbed her back.

"Do your parents know you're out here?" I gave her a knowing look which in return her smile faded, "my mom works a lot so.. she usually sleeps in the day time."

"Oh.." I sadly said, "and your father?" All she did in response was shake her head and that's all I needed to know. Roxy reminded me of myself in a way.

"I know how that feels. To lose your parents. If you want to talk to me, Roxy, please don't hesitate." I looked down at her and gave her a small smile. In return she gripped my leg tighter and gave me a long hug.

"Luna, where have you been these past days? Alpha missed you and the pack was really sad for a very long time." She frowned. I had been so selfish recently, always thinking of myself. I didn't think of Asher, nor this pack. I jumped to conclusions and put myself and others through pain.

"I was having issues. But, I'm back now and i'm going to stay. Forever," I gulped, "that is if Asher wants me to."

She scoffed and threw her hands up, "are you serious Luna? All he does is speak about you! He tells us stories about you and tells us you're the strongest Luna in the galaxy!" She says in awe.

I almost cried on the spot. No wonder these kids looked up to me so much, Asher has been filling their heads with all these stories.

I suddenly felt something awaken in my. It felt like a rush of power and I gripped the railing in my hands, making it spilt and causing Roxy to jump in shock.

My wolf has finally awoken.