3 chapter 3 losing faith

I hail down a taxi and for some reason, I was expecting Mary to be the driver but she's in my damn head shouting commands and not helping me! I pull off a frowned annoyed face with a deadly stare.

A tall black male steps out and greets me with a smile but I still feel annoyed that I had to use one of my chances to save that old hag now I have to try be careful about how I use my re-do ( re do overs) I get into the taxi with a serious face and annoyed "the names Devon tavi where ya headed to?" he says with a serious tone in his voice with a raspy touch it was almost calming "im looking for an old watch repair joint in the city maybe you know of one?" I ask politely.

"ye I know one down on 5th street near the girls convent school round there I'll take you there but its gonna cost you $30 to get there" he says like its gona e a problem for me, I do admit he's rather polite ha I guess I was just on a high horse for nothing "so can we go sir?" I snap back to reality throwing that question to the back of my mind.

I nod and we make our way to the little watch shop "what seems to be the problem hun you seem to be feeling down after everything that's happened in the past few days" for once she asked the right questions and yes I was feeling down and I just needed something to drink but drinks have become so expensive.

"hey buddy you sure your OK because I know this really good chicken and pie joint just round the corner from here I , they make the best chicken waffles in the whole of east sector you'll feel better after I swear" I was happy to hear those words because if you think about it I haven't eaten in two days I could go for some chicken and waffles.

"have they got ice cream and cream?" I say with a cheerful voice, he nodes and as soon as the nod catches my eye my life seems to get better, we reach this small dinner so I get out and run catch a little jog inside but just like my life its packed to the brim so I walk out and suggest the drive through so Devon agrees so we take the car round back and get to the window and to order "what would you like sir?" he asks but the choices seem harder as I started craving some deep fried chillie fries with some ribs and a coke, I order that and I told Devon to order what ever he wants so he orders fries and a kids meal  again this brightened up my day again so much maybe a do over would've been good for him not wasted on someone as hopeless as me.

We get the food and drive off to the little watch shop I ask him for his bank details he says I don't have to pay him but I insist that I do so he gives me his details so I wire him $2k, Devon breaks down into tears with a huge smile on his face and now,  I have a smile on my face and I didn't even need to use re do to make him so happy and now I'm so happy with 11 chances and a happy soul.

Gaiya watches from a far in disgust how good this human is so he forcefully pushes a car slamming Devon between his door and the front of the car killing his instantly, I drop to my knees in pain and agony as I watched the one pure thing I couldn't think, feel or even do anything all I could do is throw up and screamed my lungs out but yet no sound came out I was in so much pain everything I thought that was pure just got ripped away by the thing we call fate.

"Mary are you there?" I ask with tears in my eyes

"yes I'm here baby" she replied

"I don't want to live any more"

"I know sugar but you could always erase what just happened by using a re do" she says in a calm voice

"the memory will still remain and I won't be able to live with myself"

A crowd of people surround the scene with their phones out taking pictures of and videos of the incident, I probably look like crap of course the one thing I sought to feel again was just killed in front of me "hunny we should probably go, the cops are on they're way and don't worry you'll be OK" she assures me but she doesn't know how much I want to kill myself.

We make a run for it but I run so Much my feet start to hurt in ways I didn't even know my soul still feels broken, to think what happened to Devon and how he's kid won't see him ever again or even his loved ones, its painful why God why did you have something like this happen?

"Gabriel you need to push forward, you said you were going to invest in a business yet you sit here in a damn rut move on baby" Mary barks orders from the back of my head and frankly its getting damn annoying, the world just lost a beautiful human being and all you can think about is making a pretty penny?

I slap myself for thinking that money would make me happy that it would make me less suicidal but you've got another thing coming God

I don't want these do overs just let me die!

A huge thunderbolt struck the ground missing Gabriel by inches sending him flying separating him and Mary, Mary stands in front of Gabriel hands on her hips but not in the human form she took on as a taxi driver but an omen form with a white tight dress and an almost transparent body with a gold head piece around her head almost like a halo, Gabriel gets back on his feet and tries to throw a punch but doesn't land one as he goes straight through Mary he keeps throwing punch after punch trying to vent out all his anger and pain but not even one blow lands, people walk past him laughing and recording him. Gaiya standing in the crowd is enjoying what he sees as Gabriel constantly fails.

And with that I fall to my hands feeling the pain and tears fall, I can't take this anymore I swear its killing me softly and swiftly.

I don't need a re do to die