All Eyes on Me

"Mom... Look! I drew something"

I raised the colorful paper at my mother.

"....Sorry, mom's a little bit exhausted"

Mom sat on the chair while massaging her forehead. "Maybe later..." She says with an exhausted tone. I nod then go to my room.

As I open the door, I picked up my crayon then start to draw on the paper while laying on the floor, and humming a song.

"the most precious treasure is family, the most beautiful castle is family~" I hummed the 'fir family' song. 

A few minutes later, the drawing is done! I look at the paper, satisfying. To be honest, maybe this is better than the last one. I look at the previous drawing then threw it in the trash.

"Mom, must see this..." I grab the doorknob and pull it, looking around to search for my mom. I ran trough the room then found her sitting on the sofa while scrolling on her phone, with that exhausted look again. of course.

"...."

I look at the paper before crumpling it then threw to the garbage near the kitchen. I go back to my room and locked it.

That drawing is worse than before, how silly of me to think that I could show it to mom...

I roll my eyes then go back to my desk. Father said I better study other than drawing some 'trash'.

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"Chirp-chirp"

"Huh?" I mess my hair then looks at the window. The bird's chirps like a lullaby, I almost drive to sleep but then knock my head.

"Dang it- It's morning already?" The light from the sun hits my eyes, make me immediately close the curtain.

I look above my room, at the clock, 6 AM

Nice myself, you did a good, great job. Now time to sleep. 

I get up from my chair then laying on my bed, my eyes feel so heavy because not sleep all night.

I always thought. If I can study harder, if I can achieve an achievements, if I win a competition... Will they look at me?