1 Eternity

We live in a society of differences a variety of spells lingering through out our bodies as we aimlessly awaken and fall every day. Countered acts pointed towards another though curses don't exist to wreak our souls.

There are four dimensions and the universos bestowed me upon the first dimension of humans, human gene of no power, no intellect granted by birth. Anger stiff in our bound to bound lives. We are aware of other dimensions granted to us by science.

Second dimension known as Mana a place filled with magic and beings unearthly to fathom. Gods home to birth other gods as their own and mythological beings we've only seen as unreal. I've always wondered what presence they held as much powered they welded in there being. Are they as powerful as the movies? Or were they lies. I've dreamed of creating portals and falling into this reality only privileged by the rich.

The third dimension Erstwhile which held the old English meaning 'in another time' as Erstwhile is a place stuck in the fifteenth century though time moves forward the economy stays the same as kings and queens rule the world and women and colored people are seen as beneath.

Our fourth and last dimension known to mankind would be  Fae a world where fairies have separated themselves from rest of any other known being and created a paradise. We know little to nothing of the place as humans have no access.

It's boring the world we live in as every night I hear the cars wheels rushing along the road and the honks of there horns as they get fed up with the wait of traffic. Every day I restlessly tap my pencil along the edge of my desk as I stare at a bored teacher who hates the life they live.

I wonder each second how life would be living in any other world, how different my life would be to even dip my foot in the ocean if there was one. I wondered how the sky looked if not like the one I see every morning.

My family thinks I'm insane as I trail my finger through history books and books of mythology and magic. I thrived to feel the feelings it made me feel to even ready of the enchantment these books hold. It's only been two years since these worlds have been discovered so people don't believe it and think it's only...fantasy.

Though, I've always yearned for these world. I've always fallen into these worlds of adventure? Magic? Fantasy... as though I belonged there.

Yet, I've always wondered why does the shapes of the popcorn on the ceiling start to change shape the longer I stare. The off white coloring seemingly falling into my eyes as I endlessly stare off into nothing. Aimlessly waiting?

Suddenly loud foot steps crash into my subconsciousness rushing against the hardwood flooring outside my door as loud giggles and my mother yelling at my brothers to stop playing while my uncle plays along with them. The continuously 'tag your it's' playing on repeat like a song you don't want to forget.

I hate these nights, I hate this house as I snuggle closely in my warm blankets on my comfy bed with a roof over my head but my heart so heavy. My chest feeling as though a boulder as big as a tree sat right on my chest trying to trap all air inside.

"Mai, come eat."

Rina, stood in my door way as her dazzling blue eyes scoffed at me as though she isn't the only one in this household capable of understanding my existence. Her skin as dark as night with black coils down to the floor mother never dared to cut. Her beauty was of a goddess only deepening my love for mythology as I lived among a God i wouldn't put it past her as she's the angel to which always saves me from the hell I dig.

"I'm coming."

I said as I lazily sat on the edge of my bed, my head beginning to throb from the sudden movement. As she closed my door and I heard the door close and in repeat that click rung in my ear. Those moments my heart ached. I hated doors, they should either stay open or stay closed. The fact we open and close them frequently without the slightest clue of the power they hold.

Steadily, I opened the door once more to appear bright lights flashing in my eyes and wide smiles on everyone's faces except my own.

Rina was sixteen, she was there when it all happened. She witnessed the torment that haunts me every night. Atlas and Zyair are both only five, there lives given luxury of never knowing the trauma me and Rina had faced.

Aina or in other rightful words my beautiful mother who has steadily tried acting as though I don't exist. Not for any other reason besides having to find her husband assaulting her child and turning a blind eye for eyes... so she knows if our eyes met..guilt would be the biggest thing in her big brown eyes.

Unagi Don we are eating for dinner as everyone else kneeled around the table to eat where I wasn't welcomed so Ill always take my dishes to my room and eat where Rina would have to come later and bring them back to the kitchen.

After eating, I escaped my room of silence to the bathroom only a two doors down from my room to only stare into my reflection where as the ceiling would change my face would too.

My skin only light enough and dark enough to view as cinnamon, eyes glazed over and dazed as the black orbs in my eyes stared back at me empty to my plea, and useless curly hair only meeting past my breast while wearing a dull black color. Boring. From the stupid red lined near my lash line which has always made me look either sick or tired and no matter how much I scrubbed it stayed there.

Staring at my complexion only made me angrier because how boring I looked...I had no confidence. Dropping my head my chest felt tight as I felt myself unable to breathe sufficiently sooner than later I found myself on the floor gasping for air like a fish out of water. All I could think is how dumb I looked right now and wishing this could be over.

My own emotions attacking me so strongly I couldn't physically catch a grasp. The amount of out of body experiences I have are unhealthy for our world.

Physically after every meal I find myself throwing it up causing me to lose weight drastically I went from a hundred and twenty pounds down to ninety five both my brothers weighed more than me by a hair. I know, I have a problem but I won't stop. I can't when-

Coming too, I realized Rina was hugging me from behind as I leaned over the toilet. Her hug was tight as the back of my shirt was damp I couldn't tell if it was from sweat or her tears. Her palm lightly resting on my back as I felt the warmth of what felt being healed from the inside.

"What's wrong, darlin?"

I squeezed out as I quickly gained composure and wiped the side of my mouth.

"Please don't die!"

She said through muffles and tears, I turned around and held her shoulders in my hands.

"I just felt a little sick, there's no need to worry about me! I promise, I'll always be with you! Understand?"

Four years ago, I was fourteen years old. I thought I knew the world but in my own little mind the world I knew was a world I loved. Every fantasy book I could find, I'd fall into and embody the character as my own which was my childhood of happiness. I remember smiling a lot. Laughing a lot. Joking a lot. Teasing and playing with friends. Having a cute little sister.

Even in our fucked up world, I still somehow had it printed in my mind that everything was going to be okay.

It was the night I turned fifteen I was so happy and contempt with the family I had. Mother pregnant with twins and father amused with the thought of mother having twins after not wanting children after Rina.

I haven't the clue how long it lasted after that night, or what could've sparked the change but since life slowly turned dull and gray as every night I'd weld up a sweat and try every way to lock the door...until the lock dissipated and clothes and toys where left.

I was sixteen when Rina big smiley face came rushing into my room only to find father doing things she's never seen before. A chilling scream echoed throughout the house as uncle had visited that night and mother had tried to stop him but if it weren't for Hisao my uncle, I'd still be in the same position I was every night before then.

After Hisao found my father in that inappropriate position he found himself in court as a pedophile rapist and wasn't allowed more then five hundred feet of me. Mother wasn't a bad mom, she just didn't have a back bone. She had no girth and she was everything I never wanted to be.

Rina helped me to my feet as our short posture meet us eye to eye of five feet and three inches.

"I know what your trying to do Mai, and I'm not going to let you do it. Do you understand me? I can't live without you."

"Don't be dramatic, I'm not doing anything. I could never leave you on purpose. I just haven't been feeling well."

She looked at me with sad eyes as I could only look into hers with a smile on my face shrugging over the fact she's had to pick me up off the bathroom floor every day for the last year and a half.

"Come on, you need to go to soccer practice and I have- I need to rest. I'll drive you to school in the morning, yes ?"

"Come to soccer practice with me! It'll only be a hour and you can still get plenty of sleep. It's only six forty."

As her earnest eyes looked at me I couldn't help but fall in them. They mimicked both a galaxy and ocean whirled all into her eyes a blessing from the Gods as only her in this whole universe possessed the utmost enchanting eyes.

No one could ever seemingly figure out how a half black, half Japanese baby could possess such blue eyes when no one in our family holds the gene and yet even if we had the amount of other worldly they were it was a fantasy right in her eyes as though magic could spill out.

"Mai? I get my eyes are pretty but must you look so deeply every-time?!"

She laughed at me as I just threw my hand around her neck and walked out the door.

"I'll driver her to soccer practice mom, you don't need to worry about it."

Mothers quick small heels stopped against the hardwood flooring near the door soon to turn around taking her shoes off and walking to her room without a following gaze or goodbye.

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I'd been out here in this beating resting sun as I watched Rina play and how miraculous she was. Her inhumanly abilities as though dancing around the field it became clear she was a natural and no where near the same level as everyone else out there.

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"Hey! Mai, how's it been, you here with your sister right ? Uh, Rina!"

Out of everyone's existence to meet in this town. It was her...Sidney her long luminous light brown hair and clear green eyes against her pale skin was indeed what made her the most beautiful girl in school. Though nothing could have except her crude and evil personality.

"Ha...yeah. I'm ok-"

It was then I wished I had just walked away because the soda she once held in her hand was poured all over my head, though it felt good because of the hot sun a chill still ran in my stomach.

"Sorry, you looked a little hot."

She started to laugh as the two nameless girls behind her laughed as well. She continued to just pushed me and walk away.

She's always been like that with me, you'd think I'd done something terrible or evil towards her but I hadn't even known her until junior high when she somehow became my friend and then I was so happy a beautiful person like her would befriend me.

It only lasted a two years and in that time I never noticed how manipulative she was always making me do things for her and lying about me to her other friends but still I somehow believed because behind closed door she was nice that she was a good person.

I haven't changed at all since that time, now as the sticky soda was dripping down my curls I had spent a hour detangling is now ruined in only a second. In that moment my eyes grew heavy and closed as I brushed the ice from off my head and made my way towards the bathroom which I this facility there were two sets of boy bathrooms and two sets of girl bathrooms.

"So you decided to follow us, you little fag."