5 The exodus;

I was on the floor thinking how we could get out of this situation but all we needed was a miracle. ~Sometimes in life you need to prove something, sometimes you need to be strong and don't give up~ In this situation all I needed was a diversion to do something, so I told bleau to say that "she would give them whatever she had that she would do anything to let us go" then I told one of the other people in the restaurant to throw his shoe to the other side of the room to make the robbers think that someone else was there and we had to make this credible, sharp and on point, so this was the moment we either are saved or we are dead so I needed to be very sharp but I didn't tell anyone is that when they have done what they needed to do, I was keep an object in my pockets, it's not exactly to kill but to knock someone out... you can say it's like a razer. Now this was the moment so as I instructed the guy to do, he threw his shoe then like four of the robbers looked back so I quickly shocked one of them and took their gun then shoot the three other robbers then I told everyone including bleau to run as far as they could because more of the robbers were coming in and this were not looking good for me but I thought if I died at least it would be for a good purpose and just in a nick of time the police arrived so I was safe, I quickly ran out of there and I was relieved. I called bleau to ask were she was and her voice was stammering out of fear that maybe something had happened to me but I told I was alright then she told me were she was so I said okay then I went home. We haven't talked to each other since that day so about a week later I texted her again if we could hang out at my place instead of a restaurant because of what happened the last time and she said alright that she would be there in an hour so I got everything ready for her.... an hour later she arrived, I welcomed her in and we had a little calm talk then I wanted to take it to the next level but the news she gave me broke my heart into pieces.... she said she was with "someone" ~it was like as if my heart busted out of my body~ I didn't know what to say but react and say "oh, ok... well no problem, we can just be friends"(in my head I felt like a complete fool) so she said great that we can just be friends. We hung out, she left and I felt sad and had to sigh "wow" after all that has happened but I didn't try anything drastic, I kept it cool and had to accept that we were just friends. It got me thinking if I would ever find love but that was my major thought right now because I kept thinking why I was hearing louis voice again, I thought I or rid of his voice a long time ago but it seems like his back or something because I don't get why his just trying to make me think am going crazy! now mum's voice to? I don't know what is going on! I'm not the only that has lost someone, so why is it me that is hearing their voices? It's just like I'm alone and I just don't know how to coup with it.... It's not like I don't have a good life, I have a good cat, a big house lots of money, good friends but something is still holding me back and I just can't put my finger on it! It's like I feel there something up with louis I feel like his trying to haunt me or something. I needed to find a way to get and answer of why I was hearing his voice. Maybe im just overthinking things, maybe it's all in my head, I need a break! I think I need to see a psychiatrist, cause I think I'm starting to loose it. A few days later I booked an appointment with a psychiatrist and I went there so it was my turn and the psychiatrist told me to take a sit and relax, so I did as she said and she started asking me random questions like how I was feeling and if it was a calm area I was in and I said yes to all the questions then it got down to the major question... "who am I" the question got me confused because I thought maybe she meant like my work or something but when I gave her an answer she kept asking the same question "who was I" I was so lost then about a minute later I got the question then broke down in tears saying how it all happened then she heard everything and said if I felt if everything was my fault but all i said was "I don't know" she said maybe I think a reincarnation of louis can happen that's when I thought that she was crazy because reincarnations aren't real but she said maybe I think that if he was alive again I would be more happy! all she kept saying to me was like gibrish in my ears but I then I started thinking if all she was saying was there because I have never thought of it that way but now everything was looking different to me when I thought of it from another perspective, so I left there and went to louis grave.... I dropped of some flowers there and talked to the grave abit and felt sad then left there and starting thinking if I could bring louis back to life, I know it sounding crazy but what if it was possible I keto saying to myself.... I contacted a scientist from tokyo japan and told him to fly over to Los Angeles and we had a talk, he said he wasn't sure himself ghat it could be a long shot but if I was ready to proceed he could think of something. We had a long talk and he said there would have to be alot of sorcery involved and science and I said that I was ready that any price it was, I was ready to pay but he said this wasn't about money anymore, this was changing humanity as we see it, that this was about defining the laws of time, voids and death.