3 The change of everything

It's been ten years, I haven't received any scary feelings from Louis, people forgot about MUM which I never did, Infact I would say I have done pretty well for myself over the years I promised to make my mum proud and I did it hopefully but now I miss them more than ever (sigh) as I was sitting down taking some whiskey I heard my mum's voice saying *Alan am very sorry, very very sorry* mum - mum, where are you?

(sigh) this must be some sort of dream, I really wish Mum was here.

*Beep

(ergn)it was morning and I had to get ready for my press conference!

That's when I got trapped and I was in a dark but light place, could this be heaven or hell, or a time loop experience?

It was a thought of a lifetime, nobody has never seen the other side of life and come back to earth, so could I be dead? It got me thinking if this was all a dream or some sort of time loop experience. I said to myself "well if I die, I might get to see mum and louis but if I'm still alive and experienced this, there is something definitely wrong", so I decided to walk more on the middle part of dark and light because I didn't want to be stuck in one and can't get out, so as I proceeded to walk forwards I saw memories of when I was little, like it was a television I was looking at, it was the memories of day that I lost my family. it was as if I was relieving the whole thing all over again then suddenly I was back in my mansion, I couldn't understand what just happened it was like a revelation or something. I took my mind of it and got ready for my press conference, I got there with my guards, it was like 2 minutes before I needed to say my speech so I started practicing the speech and it was time so I got on the stage, and looked at the crowd and press and started my speech. But, this wasn't just any speech, this speech was about the reality and the black void that blocks us from the truth that is hidden within us. You see that experience that I had earlierwas just a wake up call for me to do something great so the speech I wrote the previous day, I tore it apart and wrote a new one. I said the speech and everyone started applaud the truth of that speech. so as I was leaving the stage, a guy came to and asked what lead me into creating this speech and I said "love everyone close to you, cause you don't know when you would lose them". The man became speechless, and I gave a smerk and walked away. As I was walking into my car alot of press came my way, they were asking me so much questions but my guards blocked them from me so I proceeded into entering my car then we drove off. Suddenly it was as if my whole life flashed through my eyes! I couldn't explain the brief pain I felt not knowing that my car crashed into a trailer and my car was crushed with me inside, but at the time I couldn't process anythung, the only thing I could think of is that is this the end? is this why that happened to me this morning? so many things were running through my mind. You know sometimes you can never really be sure of something if you don't see it or experience it, I think am finally seeing what death is like, I'm I seeing the light? should I move towards the light or should I fight my way out my trance... "alan, alan, alan, come back to us, come back...." mum? "yes it's me" no it can't be you. It must have been a trick to Pull into the light, but am not ready for the light! I must fight my way out of this trance

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.... As I slowly fought myself out of the trance, I was back to real life and I was in pains and I was in a pool of "my own blood" it was screaming in pains and agony it was as if my whole body was about to explode, the pain was unbearable. My body guards were dead from the car crash and it was only me alive but a few minutes later I started hearing different noises, noises of people cars, and thank God it was an ambulance, so they took me to the hospital, everything was a blur but when they put me on those beds that can wheel me into the ambulance, I passed out! I woke up and felt pretty ok and I was in a hospital stitches were on my body and there was a bandage on my head and some injected fluids in me but I felt alright. A few hours later the nurse came to check on me and asked how I was doing and I said "I feel alright but if I may ask, what day are we in?" when she announced the news I couldn't believe it, I was unconscious for a whole month, I have missed soo much. I struggled with the nurse to get out of the bed but for some reason I felt tired again, it seemed I hadn't fully recovered. They admitted fully recovered a few days later, I was free to go. My P.A (a.k.a personal assistant) came to pick me up and as I stepped my foot out of the hospital, I felt like a new man... the sun shining on my face... the smell of life, I felt "alive". We got into the car then he drove me back home, my P.A got me something to eat because I was kind of hungry, so he finished making me eggs and bacon with milk to start my day because it was like 9:00am. I started eating then I started thinking where to start from!

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