5 Dilemma (Part 3)

I'm not a guy who's irresponsible. I wanted to take responsibility for Naomi.

That morning while looking around for her, my concerns for her magnified and I realised how much more she means to me than I imagined.

Just then I noticed her coming out of his car again, her boyfriend Ankush I mean. Ankush has been good to her. As far as I can remember, I've always heard Naomi praising Ankush for how good he has been towards her. That was the reason why I was hesitant to make my move towards her despite my feelings for her. But, it was her who came to me first.

This is what I can't let her go because she came to me. Now, I can't stand to see her hanging around with him. I must ask her what this is about. Now, doubts are sprouting in my mind regarding Ankush. Is he blackmail her or something! Or, maybe Naomi is yet to break the news to him. I am confused but at the same the determined to get this sorted today.

I wait for her to come upstairs. She is here, getting ready for college. I get different vibes from her, as of nothing happened last night! I stand there, observing her when she says, 'Hurry up and leave, don't you have to attend college?'

'Naomi, listen! I love you! I need you to know I'm here for you no matter what, you can share your worries with me. Are you getting my point?' I asked her.

In this tense moment, all she came up with was, 'Yeah, I know! That's what friends are for.'

'Is she playing dumb or something?' I thought to myself. But, it can't be! We made out not once but twice. How can she still refer to me as her friend?

Am I her friend-with-benefits? This is outrageous! I'm at loss for words. I stand still there, unable to come up with something, I make my way out of the building after a couple of minutes.

I don't know what's going on inside her head anymore. Neither do I have courage to face her right now. I just leave.

A week passed by since we had any form of conversation. I decided not to go to the Friday Night Party. Nobody will notice my absence anyway.

Another week went by, we saw each other but like strangers we passed each other in the hallway without even greeting one another.

Went by another missed Friday Night Party. Saturday morning I receive a text from here, 'Hey!'

I was still fidgeting whether to reply to her when another text came, '7 p.m., my place?'

I hope we are going to clear our misunderstanding. Her text was enough to send me into a good mood. I replied with a simple, 'Okay.' but I was excited. My heart was fluttering.

At 7 p.m. I reached her place, this time empty handed. I didn't wanted to misunderstand her and wanted to not be prejudiced.

She opened the door and grabbed me by my waist to pull me inside. After which she planted a kiss on my lips, 'I love you!' came right after that.

I was grinning. Full of ear to ear smile, I kissed her back. It was one passionate kiss.

She wore a sheer one piece dress under which her sexy black lingerie could be seen. I could feel her bare soft skin when I held her close to kiss her back.

I was on fire after that, I kissed her lips, her cheeks when she sneaked her hands under my t-shirt, she nails digging my skin and her fierce movements feeling my stern back. My body went numb when she took off my t-shirt and kissed me on my bare chest.

I don't know what unleash me that moment that I picked her up in my arms and consequently she wrapped her legs around my waist and we made our way to the bedroom.

It was pretty heated. We passed out after a while. After I woke up, she was still in my arms, hugging me like a baby. I couldn't help but play with her soft curly hair.

She sighed and opened one eye to look me and smile. It was one mischievous sight. After that she leaned in to plant a kiss on my neck.

'I need you and you need me. We both are in need.' she says. 'I hope things can work out between us because I know you are in love with me.'

I stayed quiet.

'I don't ask for more, but can't you go on to love me like this?' she continued, ' You don't come to the Friday Night parties anymore. Do you know how much I craved for these lips?'

'What are you saying? You missed me in my absence?' I wasn't paying attention to the meaning but to the words.

'Isn't it obvious? Ankush has never kissed me even once nor would he let me kiss him. He believes that making love is something you do after marriage.' she said all of it so plainly as if she was hurt. 'How can I wait for that long?'

This was when I realised what was happening all this while. She needed somebody to feed her with her physical needs. It's not bad though, but you should be more respectful towards others and not use them according to your needs.

I loved her but I wasn't blinded!