1 Eclipse of Time:Fulfill my Hopes and wishes

You might not believe , but it sometimes becomes believable

I had lost everything

I wish to suicide

a bad student from a good student, an irresponsible girl. I always feel so hopeless, i can't fulfill my parents wishes,

they used to believe that, i will outshine themselves, by hard study, become a model student, just like them

but it didn't become true.

Many people might think, why a teen should worry this much?

But my only wish to do a good result in the exam, and be selected for that subject.Becoming a girl who can be responsible for being her family the elder daughter.

But it didn't happens, because of my less study, failed on that subject

I can' make my parents to see that result

i felt like the world is becoming so dark, now i can't become doctors like my parents, or fulfill the wish of my family . There was only one think that i can do ,

That is suicide.

But i don' want to lose the hope of my family

And i don' t want to die

what should i do?

It's all happening because of my laziness, i wasted time to time

I want to go back to past

but i can't

can anyone help me

when i was feeling deepressed , nobody came to me,