5 In the Coffee Shop

CHAIZER'S POV

I am here in the coffee shop with Eli. He asked me to have some coffee so I just joined him.

"You've never change. You still love coffee," he said while tasting his coffee.

Me? Owoohhh! Who asked me to have some? It's you! So you're the one who still love coffee then and not me.

"I am not addicted to coffee since then. Actually, this is the first time I drink again," I said and he was suddenly surprised by what I said

"Do you still remember? Before we go to school, we always passed by here just to have some coffee," he said and suddenly smile.

This was the coffee shop we always passed by before we went to school. Even before we went home, we stopped here. In front of this is the restaurant where I used to work before.

"I still remember how you were shocked from little things that got crashed and even got nervous."

Wow! Are you really that happy? It looks like there's nothing wrong happen before, huh? Is this bring back the memories? I may look like a bitter person but that what I really feel towards to him. Tsk!

"And it was the same as the time I saw you kissing someone," I said and his face slowly changes into something serious and sad.

"Is that the reason why you don't then want to drink coffee?" he asked.

"I have no one to share then," I said while forcing my tears not to fall.

"Aiz!"

"It was a tough time for me before but look at me?" I said while forcing myself to smile as if this day become a throwback thursday. "I can stand on my own. Even though how I am so down that time, life must go on." I added.

"Why did you cut all my connections to you?" he asked and I suddenly stop.

This is the day I was wishing and waiting for almost 6 years of my life. This was the day where I prepared myself to face him. And this is the day I want to hear all his excuses to all my the questions that are running in my head from that night until now.

"Why didn't you gave me a chance before to explain everything?" he added while I still thinking what to answer.

You have lot of questions. Can't you wait? I'm still thinking.

"Aiz, I just wanted to know the answers to all the questions in my head," he said again.

How about me? I want also to know your excuses.

"Why did I cut it off?" I asked to myself and I slowly face him. "You must know the answer of that question. If you were me, would you like to talk to me even though you knew that you were no longer the person whom I love then?"

"No,"

"Why would I pushed myself if I knew, wait no! If I saw you with my two eyes that I am no longer the girl you loved then?"

"But we have an agreement that we were free what we wanted to do before we agree to be in the relationship,"

"But I am not aware that cheating is one of that "free" to what you were referring to." I said. "I thought you've change,"

"I've changed,"

"You changed but you still done it. And wait, you were asking why I didn't gave you a chance to explain?" and he nodded then sip on his coffee. "Does it need any explanation? I didn't asked you to change because it's your life. Before you came into my arms on that day, I had no any thoughts of changing you. But you changed yourself for yourself. But you can't change who really you were. Yes, we've been together in 3 years and maybe you felt bored and unhappy with me or maybe you realized that you were no longer in love to me. Wait! I am just the only one who loved you. And yes, I understand why you do it. And of course! I knew you already before we entered into that relationship." I said.

I feel great after saying that words to him. I never resent him for my whole life because in the first place, I'm the one who fell for him at ruined his life. That's why I do not have the right to resent him. The difference is I'm the one who left behind and suffered.

"Why didn't you even hurt, choke or slapped me on that night?" he asked jokingly.

Sorry? You really want to be hurt? Just be thankful that I never punched, slapped or killed you. Is that really necessary? Hahaha cheap.

"I am not like the other girls you - - - - "

"Sorry," he suddenly said. This was the word I really want to here.

"Oh! Now you know how to say that word? Before, even how many times that I stressed out that it was your sin, you still denied it. You can't even spelled it out by your own tongue.

"It was just right to say that 5 letters to a girl like you. Being with you in 3 years, I've never felt being in a toxic relationship. You always made me felt being loved. You never left me in the air because you were always there to comfort me even how tired you were from your part time jobs." he said with a tearing eyes which he tried to stop earlier from falling.

"What is this time?" I said while wiping my tears.

"Instead of shouting or hurting me, you rather kept it to yourself just to make me felt better and not to hurt my feelings. It because we both know that you can't endure watching me being in pain. In that past 3 years of relationship, I've never experienced to cry but in that 3 years I never knew that it would be the first and last time I'll be seeing you crying.

"But we both know that it was 6 years ago and would be a story to tell then,"

"Maybe I was a fool! I found the right girl for me but I just make her in pain and left her behind. What the worst is, I cheated." he said and tears fall down from his eyes.

"It was also a good thing being with you on those years but like what I always said, we can't change what happened in the past," I said and we both quietly staring to each other.

"But I can change the future," he suddenly speak. I don't know what he mean about except for one thing." I want you back, Aiz!" and I suddenly stop then.

"Eli,"