14 A nightmare

I went back to my room and slept and before I knew it, it was already Sunday, my last day before I went to school. *knock knock* someone knocked on my door, I got up and went down the stairs and opened the door to see two smiling faces. "your up" Psycho chuckled "mmmm" I replied "how's your legs" psycho laughed "what do you want" I spoke "OOF did we wake you" Jax smiled. "yes actually you did" I said bitterly "We have to get you to come out with us" Jax smiled "I don't need to go out" I aid as I closed the door and went back up the stairs. I went into the closet and pulled out black underwear and black skinny jeans and a white top that you would were to a business meeting. i went into the bathroom and filled the bath and found a razor I took the dress off and started to shave my legs and my snail trail and everywhere else and hour had passed and I emptied the bath and ran the shower and washed. I got ourt and got changed, I went down the stairs and opened my room door and went down the hall where I saw 4 people sitting and eating food. "eeeewww that smells" I yell as I felt its smell go up my nose and burn my lungs, at first I thought it was my brother and psycho with farther and killer. But I shortly realised after I said what I had said that it was not my farther and killer it was Tyler and Blade. I kept walking when I got to jax I hit him "get the rodents out" I mumbled as I went into the kitchen and opened the fridge to see so much food. "What is this" I yell as psycho comes up behind me "you hungry" she said "I'm not" I spat as I went to the cupboard to see if there was any drinks but only food. "get this shit out of my house or I'm a kill you all" I scream as I walk out of the kitchen "what's wrong with you" Tyler asked I just looked at jax who was smiling. "you are not doing this to me" I spat "what you ate when we were at dinner I thought you would like some food" jax smiled. "I hate you I wish you were never born" I yell as his smile disappeared "you gonna tell me why you don't like your present" jax said. I just looked at him and smiled "you know what" I smiled "what" jax replied "I'm a go out and I'm a have some fun" I laugh as I walk down another set of stairs and see a motorbike I instantly jumped on. the garage door opened "jade where are you" jax said "out" I interrupted as I started the engine "Mama likey" I smiled. "you aren't leaving" psycho said as she blocked the day out "why not" I spat "admit it" jax said "Yes I slept with Tyler oh well what you gonna do about it" I said as the engine roared as it came to life. "We know that where talking about the eating" jax yelled "I'm not hungry" I spat out "you never are" psycho said. I knew what they meant but I didn't want to admit to them what was wrong with me I didn't even know what was wrong with me until the doctor told me I was anorexic a few years back. But it wasn't that bad at first I was told I had a food intolerance than food tasted funny and it made me feel sick so I just stopped eating. "your not healthy, your starving yourself" Tyler said "it's not what you think" I laughed "tell us what it is" Blade said "Ask the doctor" I spat "what" they all said in confusion. "The doctor will tell you what you want to know" I said as I got off the bike "no you will tell us" Jax yelled "Im anorexic" I yelled as I pulled up my top and they could see my ribs. There faces looked at me in disbelief "what, how, since when" psycho asked I was silent for a while and took a deep breath and let out a sigh. I walked up the stairs and sat on the couch knowing they would follow as they all looked at me and sat on the other couch. "when I was 10 I slowly stopped eating as much the doctor than told me I had a food intolerance" I said coldly not looking at there eye. "when I was in the hospital they found out I had been starving myself for a few months, I slowly started to eat a bit but after 3 months they sent me home" I said as I looked up at the ceiling. "A few months later the doctor told me I was anorexic and I went back to the hospital to try and help me" I said as I stared down at my lap and played with my ring. "they told me to try and eat more so I did they told me to stay above 35kg or I'd go back to the hospital" I smiled "farther knows about it he doesn't like it but as long as I'm above 35kg I'm ok" I sighed as I looked up at there gazes. "Is that the reason you are always seeing the doctor and councillors?" psycho said "yes and no" I replied "what do you mean yes and no" Tyler said "it's to talk about my anorexiaand depression" I sighed as I looked up at there eyes. "Why didn't tell us" jax said "I didn't want to tell you there was something wrong with me and I didn't want to admit to myself" I said after a while. "Are you dying?" psycho asked "...." it was silent for a few minutes "yes I am" I mumbled "when will you die" jax asked with sadness "the doctor says I mightn't see my 25th birthday" I smiled. "No you won't die" Jax yelled "you cant" psycho yelled "I won't allow it" Tyler screamed "you will live" Blade yelled. They yelled those words over and over again I heard them say those words for an hour I couldn't say anything I couldn't reply I couldn't. Cause the words they wanted to hear I wasn't sure if they were true and I couldn't tell them a lie so I sat there until I had enough "stop it I'm sick of you saying those words we have school tomorrow so let's just act normal and pretend I'm not dying cause I don't want to be reminded of it constantly" I yelled as I got up.