10 Obsession

“—You don't know me, don't talk to me like that—the girl countered, without any patience.

—We've all been there, ok? It was painful for everyone, so if you can simplify our work so that we can get home soon, we would be very grateful.—Dinah said, starting to change, she seemed to get more and more stressed .

—Guys, it doesn't have to be this way, let's go home, we just need to rest.— Jimmy said.

Alyra then saw them again, several at once, with several differences, some more frightening, some more nourishing, but she was beginning to feel trapped.

When Ma'am Madeleine tried to get closer, Alyra had not travelled, since she was too busy, looking at them and trying to get away. When the woman touched her shoulder, the girl pushed her, making the woman fall.

When the girl realized, the girl even more scared, she tried to help her, but received a push from Celine.

—I'm sorry, Ma'am, I didn't mean to!

—Shut up now.—Jimmy shouted, making the girl cringe.

They helped the woman, and took her home, while Alyra walked slowly behind, trying not to look at them.”

Is that what Alyra was thinking about all of the time, maybe if she hadn't done that, would they be different? It turns out that she didn't want to be like that, it was more like an impulse, she never would have acted that way if she had total control over herself. But she did, and even though she apologized for a week, they never listened to her, never heard any of her excuses.

She didn't know if they could be better, but they were extremely rude and rigid, and she didn't even know why, it was getting worse and worse.

The day had just dawned, and Alyra was already awake, she felt like she had only been asleep for 2 hours.

Everyone was seated in front of her, she wiped her hands on the old sweater that Mrs. Hugs gave her, and kept looking at the wooden table all the time, while everyone looked at her hard, Ma'am Madeleine, just had a face with a fake pity.

—Now tell us, how can you hear one spirit at a time?— Celine asked, arms crossed.

Celine never taught her the theoretical part, just said that she needed to be quiet and listen. Although confused, the girl tried to avoid the subject, giving an excuse that, in a way, was not a lie.

—Sorry, but I don't feel well today, I …—Alyra said, but it was soon interrupted.

—That's not what I asked you, I asked you how to listen one at a time.—Celine countered.

—Mrs. Celine, I can't answer that, I …

—Stop acting like a spoiled little girl.—Celine said, completely impatient.—You know what? You do not deserve the gift you have, anyone in this place would do much better than you, anyone here should have been born with the gift, I should have it, I would use it much better than you.

—I…

—We have to agree, Alyra, it is already our third test, you never answer any question correctly. You know what, I don't know why we still waste our time with you, a girl who doesn't even try.—Jimmy said, with a cold expression.—You are too young, Alyra.

Sometimes he didn't even look like the same person she had met the first time, the girl knew the reality was that they would never give her another chance, they just judged her as wrong, without even trying to understand how she felt.

—I'm sorry, I don't want to disappoint anyone, but I can't understand anything you teach me, maybe if we change the method …— the girl tried to find a solution

—So now the problem is not you, is it us? —Dinah said in a stereotypical way.—Listen girl, we've been at this for longer than you, the problem is, you still haven't accepted them.

—Unfortunately we will have to punish you dear, you disrespected us. —Ma'am Madeleine said.

—But lady, I just …— she was interrupted again, leaving her frustrated.

—Don't answer, you'll spend the day locked in your room, we'll take your lunch at the door, now go.—The woman reinforced.

Alyra knew she had no other option, so she just bowed her head, and went to the bedroom, when she was already inside, heard the noise of the lock, and breathed heavily.

The next day, the girl returned to training and spent the day outside, when it was already night, she decided to take one of the potions before dinner

As she found none, went down the stairs, knocked on the woman's office door, where she was sure they would be.

—Come in.—a voice said from inside.

The girl was already feeling anxious, little by little, the spirits were appearing, not only the calm ones, but all kinds, that was making her completely scared.

—Where are them?—Alyra asked.

—What?—Ma'am Madeleine asked back.

—Don’t act like that, where are my potions?—began to exalt herself.

—Don't talk to me like that! —she said seriously.—I thought it would help you, if I threw them away.

All the girl wanted now was to rip that smile off with her nails.

—You thought you would help me.— she said without expression.—Can I at least know who allowed you? Who said you could touch my stuff?

—She made the best decision, you won't get rid of them.—Celine said.

—You need to accept them!—Dinah said.

—It will do you good.— Jimmy added.

Alyra watched them, it was possible to see from their expressions, that this was not just a kind of certainty, at all times, they tried to convince her that it was the best thing to do, they didn’t just seem like people who dealt with it, they were completely obsessed. With tears in her eyes, Alyra looked at them and said.

—You guys are completely crazy.—She shook her head.

She felt a sharp pain in her left cheek, Dinah had slapped her, without saying anything else, Alyra just left with her hand on her face, and went to the bedroom.

Before, it was like she was going to die, and now she even wanted to.