13 Tongue-tied

Hey! I know its a bit sudden to chat you this time of the night

There's something I want to tell you

But I won't end it with a simple 'goodnight'

I don't know if this will be the last

But my heart, my heart doesn't want you to be my past

It started with just a look,

A glance

The first time I saw you

My heart felt the hint of trance

Remember when you absentmindedly smiled at me with such warmth?

It is then I saw your heart

Dugged deeper into your heart,

You know what I saw?

What I saw was an art

I was afraid that maybe someone might have accompanied you

It didn't matter actually,

It's as if they were thoughts that came out of the blue

All those things I've done to you,

Accompanying you that maybe I'll be part of your life

But it seems he occupied the whole part

I want to tell you 'I love you'

Loved you this long that it felt like a curse

Those words died quickly as I thought

It's as if it is in a hearse

Maybe it's kinda weird messaging you like this, telling you this

I have one regret

I might have loved you that much

Maybe it's time to stop,

Stop watering the flower that is already dead

Maybe it's time to get up,

Unstuck myself in the mud

The mud that is so dense

That I can't even lift a hand

Also, it's my fault for thinking such things

Things such as you might love me back

But hey you got more attach to him

I'm still figuring out why all this time,

I can't even let go of the things about you, what I feel about you

I think this poem is coming to an end

But remember that my love for you is endless

Once I believe that every dying flower blooms another leaf

Maybe there's still hope?

But my mind keeps telling me no