1 fairy fail

Trinity... Flip.. it's your Dad. I'm not there, but no matter the changes. My heart is not only here it's also there. Wonder how you are. how you've grown, what you've learned, what's in your hands is it enough for if is I thank God for the grace cos I'm fazed away never close nor intertwined with you...I'm just gone, astray in a maze of my mind, questioning my previous actions unable to create present actions my own mind stuck in Genesis never running for the Exodus, daughter they have gotten me. Captured and jailed me out of your life. They can smile with you, I can't, have great moments with you, I can't. I blame myself, I had so much respect that I lost my disrespect. The consequence that emerged was my true loss of you. Now I'm embroiled with anger a tempest that's unseizing, I'm laying waiting in my den a bone gnawing wolf though howling like a deserted mongrel.

They were times when everything was full circle, never seeing a crack in eternity adorned with smiles of Eros Finesse. Everything was so intoxicating, love fixated that everything never mattered no matter the conclusion, until the time of confusion aroused complacency on two love birds who flocked with those of no same feathers. Then came the drift, further and further we parted and everything seemed to matter, love never enough everything I got became nothing but a sham.

When I first met your mom I was wooed by her beauty, her striking features on that beaming seating room made my eyes so teary, it was like I had seen a fairy. At that time I was a full fledged member of a theatre missionary group called The Covenant. We had returned from a 6 months mission of evangelism through theatre, soldiers of the cross heading for a break and a three week training period before another 6 month mission. In those days we would have new recruits ready to serve the Gospel. It was my last year of service, readying myself to a change of lifestyle heading back to the wild jungle with a different doctrine.

Your father a fledging to touches of manhood, incapable inexperienced in an unvailing of a naked woman, though never innocent in such desires. Hardened in certain beliefs,guided in principles sowed in him by his elders, when he befriended your mother he was to unshakable those chains.

In awe I was, for at that very moment I knew I had met my beloved. Your mom never knew, I had already envisioned my life with hers, it took her almost 2 years for her eyes to sparkle to mine, her heart to resonate to mine, some months of long lasting hugs I am not talking about seconds nor minutes I'm speaking about hours everlasting. It took sleeping in each others arms, a touch of the tips of our muzzles, breaths meddling and enveloping gasps for a magical touching, intertwining of lips to transpire.

Awh, after then moments that were so seemingly unending joy, chuckles of intrigue, interests of what's next that would topple what we had and make it stronger. Though I had the foresight that life was never a straight line, along the way twists and turns may threaten and test our durability and question the credibility of what we had. I didn't push that aside nor was I that naive. I shared this with soon to be mother of my babe I will forever cherish, she bowed with reverence as if my words were heard and long lasting. It was never so.

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