1 Chapter 1

'I fucked up.'

That's the first thought that came to my mind when I found myself floating around in nothingness.

'I fucked up big time.'

The concequences of my action hadn't even sunk in when I heard a scoff, "Aye, you did fuck it all up. How dare you waste away the gift I had given you?! The price of life, you can't even imagine it!"

'To think I'd kill myself... Well, that's the second in the family. Damn! I hate this feeling.'

Sorrow, guilt, shame and hatred overwhelmed me. I wanted to scream and curse at myself for taking such a step but when I tried to open my mouth, I couldn't feel anything.

I tried to move but there were no limbs or a body for my brain to command.

The void spoke again, "Sometimes, I feel that I made a mistake when I gave those apes self-consciousness. Spitting on the blessings I gave them, I should smite them all for their transgressions!"

The venom in the voice was quite apparent. But I couldn't bother to concern myself with it as I was trying to vent my feelings and failing.

The void sighed, "If I give you your voice back as well as your body, and after you are done accepting your situation, would you be willing to 'listen'?!"

Imagining myself grate my teeth, I thought, '... Yes.'

And then, like a tsunami, tears rushed out of my eyes and curses sprayed from my mouth as I punched and slapped myself ferociously.

I had thrown everything away in that moment of weakness, spat on the love of my parents, my sister and everyone else close to me. I wailed as I thought of their reaction when they'd find me, dead on my bed.

I don't know how much time passed while I punished myself. But as I calmed down, the void spoke once again, "It is rare for a soul to react so strongly towards them killing themselves. Mostly they just cry and some even smile in relief. It is good that you valued your life, somewhat."

My throat was sore from all the screaming. I cleared it and asked hoarsely, "What do you want...?"

The void said instead of replying, "You are by far the most reasonable one among those who took their lives recently. Tell me, what do think happened to them when they came here?"

I replied without hesitation, "They were punished."

"Yes!! Taking one's own life is one of the greatest sins. Each one of them are being punished in hell as we speak."

I tilted my head and asked, "So why this... special treatment for me?"

The void chuckled, "Because you understand and have clarity that others lacked. It's rare to see souls like you. But almost all of them live their lives fully, as were you meant to. Yet something happened that changed what was written in your fate. A mistake I am willing to correct and give your life back if you agree to go through the trials before you."

I didn't even need to think and readily agreed.

"I cannot simply send you back. You will have to live through an uncertain number of lives before your soul is strong enough to be sent back into your body right at the moment it left."

As I thought about the possible trials, uncertainty and doubt at my ability to pass them invaded my mind.

Sensing my distress, the void chucked and said, "These trials will be a form of punishment for you as even thought your death was an error, you still chose to kill yourself. Do not worry though. You won't be completely helpless. The worlds you will be living in are more dangerous than yours. To aid you in your trials, I shall allow you to choose a gift, a power."

I frowned as I thought about it. I was allowed to choose any power I wanted. But it couldn't be that easy.

'I can't choose a physical power. The void said that I'll be living a number of lives. Means that I won't be jumping worlds. I'll live full lives in the worlds I'd be born in. Only my soul will travel from one life to another. It has to be a power that I can take with me to other worlds.'

The void laughed, "Hah! Despite what you think of yourself, you are smart enough to realise that!"

'Ugh! it's reading my mind.'

I sighed and continued thinking, 'Anyway, the worlds will be tougher to live in than my own. I couldn't survive the normal one, how will I survive through all the trials? I'm not strong enough... I got it!'

I made my decision and said, "I want the powers and experience of Midoriya Izuku from the fanfiction I had been writing."

The void chucked and then laughed uproariously. Then it said, "Aaah... how clever of you to choose such a power. A will so strong that it bends reality itself. Truely, a power with infinite potential. Your imagination is the limit."

I agreed, "Yeah, and even though I hadn't finished it I know how it was going to end and all the abilities Midoriya would have by then."

The void whispered after me, "Plus it'll make readers of this story intrigued and make them want to read My Hero Academia: A Hero's Will, the name of the fanfiction you were writing."

I yelled at the void, "Don't break the fourth wall damn it!! Ugh, now I'm embarrassed."

But the void ignored me and continued, "Alright, I've decided to let you retain your memories throughout all your lives. They'll be your driving force to complete all the trials. I wish you luck, child, and I hope you will recover from your insecurities as you live on."

I didn't even get to thank the void as I felt myself getting sucked out of my body and shoved into a body so weak that I wanted to curse at myself once again for deciding to kill myself.

My last thoughts before I fainted from fatigue were, 'I just hope I'm a dude.'

(AWU.....)

A/N: Sup guys. I always wanted to write a self-insert story and perhaps it'll help me get over my writer's block. Well, it's more of unwillingness than a block as I have the plot clear in my head.

Anyway, My power in this fanfiction is Haki from One Piece. But it is so powerful that if I focus enough, it physically manifests in the form of aura which I can use in numerous ways. Really, the possibilities are endless. A will strong enough to bend reality. Willpower.