5 My ups and downs as a baby.

After a short while, we returned into our house. I didn't notice it on the way out, but this house is really only big enough to fit in the 3 of us. It was sparkly clean and scent of fresh field flowers was tickling my nose. The house had two rooms, well at least that's what I think ( haven't seen any other rooms). The big one near the entrance was probably a kitchen and had a small table in the middle of the room. Next to it, I saw small, cute cushions and on the table was a knitting and embroidery kit. So my mom can do those kind of things. Well as expected from the Angel.

The other room was а bedroom. It had two big beds and a small cruddle. Mom put me inside the cradle and started to sing a beautiful song. No, I don't want to fall asleep! I want to listen to her pure voice! But the more I struggle to stay awake , the heavier my eyelids became. In the end I gave in an fall into deep slumber. I hate this weak body.

I woke up, since my stomach demanded food. I tried "calling" my mom and found her sleeping soundly on one of the beds. Well I guess she does need some rest. She gave birth to me just yesterday. I attempted to suppress my hunger and failed miserably. My belly was growling loudly and felt really empty. In the end I cried and woke up my sleeping mother. Mom, I'm sorry about waking you up, but my belly is really empty and needs to be filled.

"What is it? Did you get hungry?"

She lifted me up and started to feed me.

"Its okay. Take your time, he~he, no one's going to take it away from you."

The second I started to eat, I realised just how hungry I was. Well I didn't eat a thing since coming into this world. After my stomach finally felt full, so I let go of Mother. She smiled, laid me on her shoulder and patted my back. Is she trying to make me burp? Well she succeeded. I did burp, but I also accidentally puked some of the milk out. Sorry ,mom. I'll try harder next time.

After my hunger was satisfied, I felt really drowsy. Mother put me back in the cradle and I dozed of almost immediately.

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It's been around 4-5 days since my birth and I discovered that being a baby is not all that bad. I get to sleep and eat much as I want and my loving parents are always there to help me. But than again, nothing can be all good. Right now, I found a few things displeasing

1. I can not stay awake for long duration. Every time I wake up, it would only last from few minutes to half-an-hour and than I would fall asleep.

2. I can not tolerate my hunger. Even if I'm just a little hungry, it turns into torture and I start to cry. In those 5 days , I woke up almost every night. Mom, I'd like to let you rest, but my tummy won't.

3. Even if I Want to see or go somewhere, I can't convey it to my parents. All that comes out of my mouth is a meaningless sounds that make my parents smile. I had conflicted feelings about that. I was glad to see them happy; on the other hand, I felt sad because I could not get my message through.

4. My daily needs are really uncontrollable. I pooped and peed my sheets time and time again, and my mother had to clean it up afterwards.

But, I noticed that I don't feel all that embarrassed. When I ate or made my sheets durty, I would feel guilty, a little, but not embarrassed. Could it be that my mentality started to slowly adapt to my body? I don't know, but I definitely know that I'm thankful for this.