Alone

once I got home I ran into my room and started pouring my eyes out I was devastated and I had no one to talk to because my mom was out of town with my family preparing my dad's funeral so I was pretty much home alone for the next few weeks. I needed some company so I decided to call my friends from cheer to come to have a sleepover with me. they agreed and said they would come over I was thrilled but when they got here they only brought enough activities for 3 people even though there were four of us when I asked they said "oh well we didn't know you wanted to participate" my jaw dropped and I shouted why would you only bring three if I told you where we gonna have a sleepover! they looked mad at the way a spoke to them and said they would leave if I didn't start treating them better. I apologized and said I was sorry. and they replied "fine whatever" in the rudest way possible. I asked them if they could be a bit nicer because I was already in a lot of pain. they were furious after I asked them to be nicer they took their bags and slammed the door as loud as they could I felt the whole house shake then once they had reached their car I heard them shout "we hate you!". I ran to the kitchen grabbed a bunch of food and drinks then ran up to my room to cry and binge-watch my favorite Netflix series. I must have left a dozen voicemails to my friends because the next morning I woke up to thousands of rude messages, while I was scrolling thru all the awful messages I came across one of them witch was a photo i clicked on it only for it to reveal my nudes that I had only sent to one person my ex-boyfriend, all of a sudden I felt my heart shatter I knew he didn't love me but I never thought he would do something like this I looked over to the right corner of the screen only for the pictures to have millions of views and likes which meant everyone from my school had seen this. the next few days I didn't leave my room I mean how could I, I was the laughing stock of the school and the farthest I went was to my door for all the deliveries I have had and not just food but a tone of online shopping too. all I could think about his how horrible my life was, no friends, no boyfriend, no dad, and anxiety and depression. Hopefully, the next chapter will be a bit happier.