2 Repercussions..

I stood in front of The Brooklyn Hospital Center,flowers held tightly in my hand. I took a deep breath and walked inside,my hands were shaking as I told the receptionist who I was seeing. "I'm here to see Rebecca Barnes.." I spoke softly.

"She's in room 3112." The receptionist said,not taking her focus off of the computer screen in front of her.

"Thank you." I said before walking down the halls. 3109. 3110. 3111. And finally...3112. I stood in front of the door,my hand shaking as I reached for the door knob. Maybe this wasn't a good idea. What if she knew I was the Winter Soldier? What if she doesn't recognize me? What if she hates me? She probably doesn't even remember me. Just like I don't remember her. But if she did remember me..that would be like torture. I stepped back. I can't do this. A few minutes passed, and people began staring as they passed by,one nurse asked if I was going to go inside and I nodded saying I would but I still hesitated. I placed my hand on the door knob and opened the door,walking inside.

There was an old woman laying on the bed,her eyes opening slightly upon hearing the door open. She looked at me,confused but after a moment her eye's widened.

"James?" She whispered,looking at me as if she saw a ghost.

I walked up towards her slowly,unsure of what to say,I placed the flowers on the counter by her bed and gave a small sigh. "I'm sorry.." I mumbled,avoiding making eye contact. "I'm sorry I never came back..."

The old woman sat up,studying me,as if she was trying to make sure I was real or not. "But your here now."

"I wasn't strong enough.." I finally looked at her,she had the same bright blue eyes as me,her gray hair was long,going down to her back.

"Steve came in earlier this week." She said, smiling. "He told me everything that happened to you. Come here." She scooted over so I could sit down.

I sat on the edge of her bed,keeping a safe distance. "Your not afraid of me?" I blurted out.

"No. Your my brother. You would never hurt me." She smiled. "How have you been keeping up with everything?"

I ignored the question at first,thinking of her response. If only she knew everything I did. What exactly did Steve tell her? I stayed quiet for a moment before responding. "Alright I guess. What did Steve say?"

"He told me about what H.Y.D.R.A. did. How you got taken and was controlled to hurt people. But it's not your fault." She rested her hand on mine. "I forgive you."

I shuddered at her touch and pulled my hand away, I didn't want to hurt her. "It is my fault. I could've fought back I could've done something, but I was weak.." I stared at my metal hand. H.Y.D.R.A. could be looking for me. They might already know I'm here. "I shouldn't be here." I mumbled as I stood up.

"James wait." She got out of the bed and walked in front of me. She held out her hand which held a dog tag with my name on it. "Here." She placed it in my hand. "You can come back whenever you like. I'm here for you."

I gave a small nod. "I'm sorry but it's dangerous for me to be here."

"I know." She nodded in understanding. "Be careful..please."

"I will." I assured her.

"I love you." She held her face in my hands and kissed my forehead. "Remember that for me." She smiled.

I smiled,feeling something I hadn't in a long time. Then,I saw myself...back then, with a little girl. The girl was sitting on my lap, a sad look on her face.

**"Hey..don't worry." I said,turning her face towards mine. "I'll be back. I promise."

The girl huffed,crossing her arms. "You better. I need someone to annoy."

I laughed. "You have the others and mom and dad. You'll be fine without me."

She shook her head and looked around,making sure no one was near. "But your my favorite brother." She whispered into my ear. "Shh. Don't tell."

I wrapped my arms around her tighter. "I won't." I smiled. "I'm gonna miss you, you little rat." I said playfully as I messed up her hair, making her frown.

"I don't get why you have to leave." She avoided making eye contact. "It's stupid."

"I know Rebecca, but I have to go. I have to protect you and mom and dad and everyone else." I sighed, upon hearing my mom yelling Rebecca's name. Rebecca stood up and ran off.**

I looked around and I was back in the hospital, Rebecca now looking at me confused. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah..yeah I'm fine." I stepped back. "I'll see you soon."

And then just like that, I heard a 'bang!'

Rebecca fell to the ground,blood dripping from her side. I stood there in shock, and quickly knelt by her. "No no. No..please don't go. Please.." This couldn't be happening. It was a nightmare. It was a nightmare, my mind kept telling me.

Rebecca held her hand to my face, caressing my cheek. "It's okay..it's okay.." she whispered before her hand fell, and her eyes became lifeless as she took her last breath.

I closed her eyes and held her hand for a long time. I looked at her wound,it was a bullet wound. I knew that for a fact. I looked at the window, it was completely shattered. Maybe I could find whoever did this. I stood up,walking to the window, looking outside there was no one there. I jumped out of the window,landing on the ground. I looked around the alley way, hearing fast footsteps to my right. I ran towards them,finding a figure in all black clothes, their face was covered by a mask so I couldn't see their face. They ran across the street. I took a detour and found myself in front of them. I grabbed them by the throat,slamming them against the wall in anger.

The figure struggled in my grasp,but eventually gave in.

I let go, letting them fall to the ground. I grabbed their arm and took the mask off their face. My eyes widened as I saw their face.

It was a woman,she had fiery, red hair that went up to her shoulders, her eyes were a light green color.

I stared at her for a while,but then spoke. "Why...why did you do that?"

"She was a H.Y.D.R.A agent..." she said still out of breath. "She was going to...to kill you.."

I froze. My sister? An agent of the organization that turned me into a monster. A killer. No. It couldn't be. "Y-your lying.." I muttered. "She was a good person and you killed her!" I snapped.

"She wasn't your sister. Your sister is being kept with people to keep her safe. I was just doing my job." She sighed.

I shook my head and let go of her arm. "Just go away before I do something I regret." I mumbled.

She stepped back and turned around but then stopped. "Steve's been looking for you."

I looked at her. Steve? Looking for me? Why? "I don't want him to find me." I muttered.

"You want to be alone. Figure things out for yourself. I get it. But you can't stay alone forever." She turned around and looked at me. "He misses you."

"Well I'm not the guy he once knew. I never will be. I can't be someone I'm not. He's going to expect me to be that." I sighed. "If you see him tell him I don't want anything to do with him. At least not now."

She nodded. "Do you remember the accident?" She asked, changing the subject.

At first I didn't know which accident she mean't. Since I had been responsible for so many, but of course she had mean't the one where I almost killed her and a friend of hers. "Yeah..I'm sorry.."

She shrugged. "There was nothing you could do after all. You can't blame yourself forever Barnes."

"I remember the Red Room. Where I trained you. Still can't beat me it seems." I laughed to myself, wanting to change the subject.

"Oh please...I was going easy on you." She rolled her eyes. "I need to get going..I'll see you around."

"Wait. Is there a way I can see my sister? Does she know what happened to me? I questioned, walking towards her.

She nodded. "I can get you to see her. She knows what happened. She wants to see you. If I bring her to you however, I need you to not tell anyone what happened here."

"I have no one to tell." I took a deep breath,studying her, she's grown so much since then, when she was a teenager, learning how to fight. She looked so...beautiful,it was scary actually that I was feeling this way. Dangerous even.

"Bye Barnes." She waved before walking away.

"Bye Natasha.." I said loud enough for her to hear, waiting for some sort of response.

She looked back at me and smiled before running off.

I turned around and made my way back to my apartment,taking in everything that had happened.

It was crazy really,I go to visit my sister who hasn't seen me in 70 years,I finally feel like I have some sort of family. Then she gets shot and killed by none other than the girl I had trained so long ago who happens to be a good friend of Steve. And to put the cherry on top I find out my "sister" was actually a H.Y.D.R.A. agent trying to kill me. Or capture me. But now I know...

H.Y.D.R.A.'s looking for me and they won't rest until they find me.