2 Sudden realization

I realize that my time keeps on decreasing as the days go by, and my crush seems to be only growing stronger . Of course, I wouldn't be so eager to talk to him if he were staying in school for the next year at least, but he'll be graduating quite soon, and unless I manage to stay in contact with him, there is no way I can ever see him again after he graduates.

Another problem is that I suffer from very severe anxiety which makes it incredibly difficult talking to new people, so you can probably guess how difficult it would be talking to a crush, my heart already explodes every time I look at him.

I am a little relaxed because I still have a year so I'm not in a lot of hurry, but I still keep in mind that I have limited time. My initial plan is to catch the perfect timing and strike up a conversation, so at least it could give a kick for the next time I try to talk to him.

So the challenge here is to find the perfect moment.

"The perfect moment...sounds easy?" oh no, I was so wrong.

Sakuro always seems so busy and in such hurry. How can I strike up a conversation? I think I will only annoy him with my clingyness, and my heart...how can I talk to him when my heart is doing this?

"Sam! I think I like someone. I think I like him a lot"

I said to my best friend, I tell her everything, there is nothing she doesn't know...not after what we went through together.

"Really? tell me about him, how does he look? Do I know him? What's his name? Tell me everything"

"His name is Sakuro, Sakuro Tarushi"

"SAKURO TARUSHI?! NO WAY, SARA IS IT REALLY HIM?" "Isn't that Mayaki's ex boyfriend?"

"WHAT? how could I forget? oh my God, this can't be happening, why him out of everyone??"

Could this be the reason I felt such a strong connection with him? Could it be...he went through that too, could he be, him?...no, it can't be, how, how on Earth? That's not possible.

Realizing that Sakuro is Mayaki's ex made me think about what happened two years ago...