♬♫♪Why does it always rain on me ♪♫♬

I managed to find shelter in a hollow of a tree, I left there part of my belongings and brought with me only the necessary to treat the wounds and slaughter the 3 carcasses, 2 "rabbits" and their boss. I reached a small stream, I light a fire and start boiling the water, meanwhile I begin to make some paste with the neem leaf I harvested a bit every time I found a tree, some time I even found some plants that can help the coagulation, thanks you father for taught me, he's not an expert or something, just a "SanLao"(sort of country bumpkin) that like start brawls with his gang of friends during his youth.

Men...

Damn...I have wounds all over my body, especially my arms and legs.

I hope they get better soon, it's not the first time I'm bitten by some animal, I just hope not to catch any variant of rabies or some other disease, but the biggest problem is fractures, at least one in the ribs and one in the left arm.

I had a slight fracture at the arch of my left foot when I was 18 and I still feel the discomfort.

Once I finished with the medication, I started to work on my dinner, then I found something odd inside the And***mon ( in my eyes he's a di**mon, okay?!), there's a ... marble? ...

{{EAT IT}}

Hmmm...?...I put the round objects on my mouth...sweet...It's melting...

WAIT...What the FXXK I've just done...I'm wrong or I really heard a voice...An hallucination?

...More importantly...why have I done as it commanded ? ... It was like a whisper... ok...no panic, no panic, no panic, no...NO PANIC...

"holy shi~it" Am I going to die today?.....

...Nevermind, let's do my best...when my time comes there's not much I'll can do about it.

Now, let eat. Then return to that hole and sleep.

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{{...me...coME TO ME}}

Mmm...that voice...how melodic...I fell dizzy...I'm standing up? ... why I'm walking...where I want to go... HEY! ME! STOP! ...

{{COME}} << AAAAAAAH!! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HEAD!!>>

My body is numb, then I just keep staring at my foot, and try to regain the control of it, I'm felling like *** of Kill bįlly...wow...my my, that not the moment for that...

WHaddaHell !!! ...ooooOOOoouuu noooo...nonononono... that thing...WE MEET AGAIN...

Not too far away I can see a tree with blue leafs, I recognize it, how can I ever forget it.

THe nightmares that's still tormenting me every night ... I don't want to...I don't want to get near to that thing...Despair...despair is filling my heart ... I want to cry. BUT THAT NOT THE MOMENT!

F*CKING FEET, PLEASE...LISTEN TO ME...aaaaAAAAAH...OH! It's working!...Oh my...

I'm falling...that's gonna hurt...IT HURTS!!! BUT I'M STOPPED, SO IT'S GOOD.

While I still on the ground I started to regain control over my body, once ready I started to run as fast as I can to the direction I came from.

Today it's my win...for today...I need to leave that forest...the quicker the better.

.....

Seeing the track I've left while being controlled I somehow managed to return to my burrow. It's not that far, just more or less 15 min walking moderately fast.

My skin feel cold and I'm still trembling... that disgusting thing, it's better if I burn that thing, but just the idea to get near that abomination makes my stomach turn upside down.

These EYES and the smell of rottenness, those worms like those I found once on the meat my mum left forgotten on the table...STOP, don't think about these disgusting memories

You IDIOT !! Aaah...I'm really going to vomit...those huge pale worms ... aaaaaaaaah...

F***ing USELESS brain, why do you start to remind me these uncomfortable events NOW!!

It's always like that, remembering so well all those horrible and shamefull experiences and make me feel miserable. I now that it's a mechanism that prevents us from repeating the same mistakes...but...but...I want to cry, maybe, if I were a wiser person, my life wouldn't be a such a mess... Some time I really want to throw in the towel and close my eye for good...but life is not just about pain, right ? Right ? Guys? ... Oh! Right...I'm alone...

Can't sleep anymore...I need to get out of here...as fast as I can...