10 Chapter 10 Trying to hide the pain
"Nagisa...where is my little girl..."
Cold loud footsteps echoed through the halls, I hid in the closet in my room. It was dark and cold, I could feel my heart beating against my chest loudly.
The footsteps became louder,
"Nagisa..." the voice echoed...I knew that voice...the voice of my mother..."Where is my little girl..." the words repeated.
I saw those dark blue eyes glowing fierce, deadly...cold...empty...they weren't the eyes of my loving mother...no...they where the eyes of a desperate woman trying to get her treasure back.
"Nagisa..." I shrunk down in the closet trying to hide more, "Where's my little girl..." the footsteps came
Closer…
Closer…
Closer…
The door flew open and her dark presence towered over me. My attention was caught by a sharp...shiny item in her right hand. A knife…
"Nagisa..." She glared down at me, "Where's my little girl.." the words seemed to have dug into me. She leaned closer the knife coming closer to my face...closer...closer…
Thump
Thump
Thump
Thump
"WHERE IS SHE!"
"Ah!" I blinked,
looking around...oh...it was a just...just...a nightmare...I realized I was in Nakamura's living room sleeping on the couch.
Karma, Maehara, and Sugino where sleeping somewhere on the floor although I couldn't tell where. The only light came from the permanent crescent moon outside.
My breaths where heavy my heart was beating fast my hands were sweaty...that nightmare had really scared me. I was already sitting up, my body must've jerked up from the shock of my nightmare.
I didn't want to go back to sleep...I didn't want to return to that dream...I should get a drink of water...I threw the covers off me stepping carefully on to the carpet. I didn't want to step on anybody...man if only I had my phone…
...I managed to find my way to the kitchen mostly by feeling the floors and walls, I ran my hand along the rough walls of the kitchen until I felt a light switch. I switched it on, the dark kitchen lit up.
I walked along the icy white tiles of the kitchen floor over to the cabinets trying to be as quiet as possible. The wooden cabinet door seemed to squeak as I opened it. I froze worried I had woken someone, after a moment of nothing happening and me standing there like an idiot.
I grabbed a glass quickly closing the cabinet...it still squeaked.
I filled the glass with water from the sink and starting drinking it, after the glass was half full I set it down on the counter. I leaned my arms on the counter sighing replaying the events that occurred earlier today…
...Once we went through the two horror movies Nakamura decided it would be a good idea to play truth or dare before everyone went to bed.
I chose to stay out of the game, I didn't want to be dared to do anything weird and to be honest I wasn't feeling up to playing a game.
Okuda sitting next to Karma during both movies sometimes grabbing his arm from fear and seeing he didn't push her away made me mad enough. Then knowing that they would be hanging out tomorrow ( or today since it's midnight right now ) was enough to make me cry.
Thankfully Karma wasn't dared to kiss Okuda, vise versa for her. I couldn't ignore it anymore...I couldn't say I didn't...I couldn't deny it…
I LIKED Karma…
at this point, it felt like I loved him.
Knowing that he would be with Okuda tomorrow made me wanna scream. Maybe I shouldn't talk to Karma anymore...maybe we should go back to being just classmates...yea...that would...that would be best for both of us...I wouldn't be in the middle of them and...I wouldn't have to suffer seeing them together…
Maybe I could leave right now...nobody would notice...everyone was asleep...I could move and live with my dad...and start a new life there...and...nobody would care if I was gone…
"Nagisa"
AH! I jumped nearly out of my skin, why am I always getting jump scared?
I turned around seeing the redhead looking at me confused.
"Why are you up? It's like 1 am." He said in a yawn.
"O-oh I uh...was just...getting some water..."
"At this hour?"
"Y-yea..." I stood there quiet for a moment not saying anything. He shrugged, "Okay." He began to turn around...I felt a small choking feeling in my throat,
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... WHY!
Why did he pay so much attention to her...why was he always looking at her! I thought the whole reason he came here was to hang out with me! He's barely been giving me any attention! He's been looking at her all evening!
"...N-Nagisa...what's wrong?"
I didn't notice at first until I felt the wet tears running down my face. I quickly turned my head trying to hide the pained look on my face, I wiped away the tears quickly but they came down my face faster. Karma was in front of me in an instant,
"Nagisa what's wrong." He said it more sternly this time as if he demanded me to explain the reason for my crying.
"N-nothing...I'm fine..." I choked through my tears.
"Nagisa tell me." He looked at me although I was avoiding his gaze.
"I-I'm fine...r-really." The tears came faster than before I began to sniffle the urge to sob grew.
Suddenly I felt warm arms engulf me, they held me tightly as if they feared to let me go.I tried to push them away but they only held me tighter.
"Nagisa, it's okay...to cry." Karma's soft voice was the last thing I heard before I broke out into an uncontrollable sob. I cried into his red T-shirt gripping it as if it were the only thing left on the earth. Karma patted my head gently running his fingers through my blue hair that was no longer in its pigtails.
"It's okay...it's okay Nagisa..."
His voice was soft and calm...his head lied on top of mine still running his fingers through my blue locks of hair. Suddenly I felt myself grow tired...my eyes heavy from lack of sleep and the many tears that poured out of them…
"I think it's time you get back to bed..." Karma's voice echoed…
I must have drifted off for a minute, I felt a soft hand brush against my face, I opened my eyes quickly seeing Karma leaning over me. He smiled slowly, my face grew red.
"Are you okay Nagisa?" He whispered softly. I quietly nodded, "Good...get some sleep...you to need it after today."
Suddenly he drew closer, my heart beat faster...what..what was he…
I felt the softness of his lips against my forehead. My face grew red from the contact, he drew away looking at me for a moment with a small smile across his lips...Was...was I dreaming? That must be it...I...I must be asleep right now...this must be a dream…
after that, I fell asleep...not sure of it being a dream or not...
