1 My Strange Fetish

Hello WebNovel readers. My name is Chunhua, and I have been suffering from a very strange fetish - Fetish for Billionaires. A fetish is not a disorder by definition, but if it reaches beyond a certain level it causes intense, lasting distress. And to make it worse, there is very little you can do to get away from it.

People can "fetishize" almost anything. According to a study, the most common fetishes involve body parts, such as feet, or body features, such as obesity, piercings, or tattoos. The feet are by far the most common. Body fluid, body size, and hair fetishes aren't far behind.

After body parts comes things you wear. The same study put clothes worn on the hips and legs, such as stockings and skirts, at the top of the list. Footwear, then underwear, ranked closely behind.

Fetishes that involve the feel of a certain material, often leather or rubber, are also common. Some people like dressing themselves and their partner in furry animal costumes.

Where Do Fetishes Come From? Sexual behavior experts don't agree on the causes. Some people can trace their attraction back to early childhood, before they were aware of their sexuality. A fetish can also come from seeing inappropriate sexual behavior during childhood or from sexual abuse.

As far as I can remember, nothing happened in my early age that could be the reason behind my strange fetish. While "fetish for billionaires" might sound very normal to some, this fetish has made me too desperate, compulsive, and sometimes so distressed by my behavior that suicide becomes a consideration.

Mine is a case of serious mental disorder. I feel out of control. I completely understand why someone with some sort of fetish might disappear from work or home to practice their fetish in secret. This fascination could also keep them from doing their job.

People with fetish disorders might also steal to get the object of their desire. Often, they can't have meaningful sexual relationships with other people. They might prefer to have time alone with their object, even when they're in a relationship with another person.

If your partner said, "Wear a pair of sexy shoes tonight," you'd probably say, 'Why not?' But if your partner said, '"You can sleep in the other room, just leave me your shoes," now that would be a problem.

Standard treatment includes medication and talk therapy with a psychiatrist or counselor. But, my situation does not allow me take up any.

Some fetishes can be harmless. A recent study on "adult diaper lovers" found that among nearly 1,800 men and 140 women who report having this fetish, most said they were "comfortable" with their fetish and that it wasn't a problem.

The same can be said of people who enjoy bondage, discipline or domination, sadism, and masochism, commonly known as BDSM. As long as everyone agrees, then chances are no one's getting hurt in a way that is extreme or permanent, and everyone's happy with what's happening. I wish that could have been the case with me.

But, it was not...

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