32 Chapter 31

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I will worship you and even defeat death if it will comes in our way because you loved me more than anyone my dear hubby. A Forced Love-Marriage (To Beast) By Nidhi.

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Nalini POV

2.5 Months later

The future after my marriage was most important thing that I worried about. Perhaps it was Jamarion's love which dissolved my worries and 2.5 months flooded through my fingers like a blink of eye. He begins to change and my life was getting beautiful with his positive change. I remember one day he took me out for dinner, while driving I saw a fragile girl selling flowers along the side of the road. Looking at her condition I was sure that she had not eaten for a long time. Seeing the tears of her eye my heart bleeds I decided to buy a bouquet from her. I turn towards my side to say that I'm coming in two minutes, I noticed that the driver's seat was empty. I opened the car door and started moving forward, and then my eye catches him he was kneeled down to her level and had bought all flowers from her. Her eyes seemed to sparkle with happiness and she kissed Jamraion's cheek. Feelings of love, caring and respect started to flourish inside him.

Many times I have asked him what happened to Rick and Vanassche? He said that wherever they are they are fine. Jamarion has boycotted them from New York so that they won't harm me. My heart was convinced that he hasn't harmed them as he doesn't want me to take tensions. Last month without my request he has given a big transportation deal to Abhi, which helped him to recover from loss, maybe he too considered them a family. Now I designed suits for my love as he was too possessive he don't want any other men to wear my designs still I find it cute.

Sooner I have to introduce Jamarion to my family I didn't have courage to tell his name to my parents or else my over protective will throw a big tantrum and will surely do something beyond my expectations. I want to make a gentleman's image of him in the eyes of my family, I do not want them to believe what they have heard. First they should know his conscience that what kind of soul he was and he is righteous person who can do anything to make me smile. Perhaps I was happy that even without talking to him him my mother was falling in love with him, she considered him as his own son. I asked her why you are sure that he was the right guy for me she said "I can hear happiness in your voice because he had that capability to make you happy little girl which I lost after what happened four years ago." I think every mother has a great sixth sense when it comes to their child, she knew that I was happy with my new life though I was hiding the fact that we are married now. Thank god everyone liked him and they were happy with my decision. Part of me knows she misses me every day but she was happy as there was someone to take care of me. My phone made a loud noise making me break out from my thoughts oh it's my second love Jan.

"Hello Nal what are you doing?"

"I just finished cooking I have prepared entire meal for dinner, I made his favorite food along with gazar ka halwa (Indian desert made with carrots)"

"It's evening time go and get ready"

"Yes" I replied with a slight blush

"Aww I know how you feel today, if you will face any problem while performing the ritual then call me" She replied with energetic voice

"Yes I will" I assured her.

"Bye little love"

"Bye, I'm not short" I mumble and hung up the phone.

Today was my first Karvachauth after marriage and I was excited for it. I always had a dream to keep this fast for my husband as it will nurture our soul-mate bond and today it was going to be true. With the help of Jan I bought all the materials and makeup items for my fast. It is a one day festival celebrated by Indian women, where we have to fast from dawn to moonrise for safety and longevity of our husband. During entire day a woman cannot eat or drink she can have meal after worshipping Goddess Gauri God Shankar along with full moon and her husband. After almost pleading I made Jamarion to leave early today or else he won't allow me for fast I know he was way too concerned when it comes to my health. But I will fast for him because he has loved me like no can love anyone in this universe I was his personal heaven a light which needs to change himself a better person. I don't want to judge people words maybe circumstances made him what he was now still he was my soul and no doubt he will choose me over anyone.

Sitting behind the dresser I surveyed my reflection. Today I will do sixteen makeup means (16 shringar) which includes all Indian accessories and makeup item for married women.

First makeup- Bindi a red dot in middle of forehead made from kumkum and turmeric or vermillion. It is considered a symbol of prosperity of husband.

Second makeup- Vermilion. I'll leave it for now as I will ask him to apply a pinch of betrothal sendur (vermillion) to the middle line of the head where the hair is parted.

Third makeup- Kada (jewellery), kind of bracelet that is widely popular in India. I wore a peacock face detailed gold kada, whose two ends are connected leaving a small space between each other.

Fourth makeup- Henna The bride's makeup is considered incomplete without henna. It is believed that the heavier form of Mehndi in the hands of the bride, her husband loves him as much as she loves. I have concealed Jamarion's name in the design of my henna on my left hand's ring finger because only that finger vein goes directly to heart and also his name will remain on my palms forever. I have adorned with patterns all over my palms, hand, forearms, legs and feet.

Fifth makeup- Suhaag ka joda(dress for wedding) Red is considered to be the most auspicious color in among Hindus but I have chosen a dark maroon shade as it resembles his eyes when he is love with me. Red and maroon both color are believed to be symbol of love. The entire dress was decorated with heavy golden embroidery on the lehenga (skirt), the blouse and the chunari (that is to be worn on top of the head).

Sixth makeup- Gajra - I have used garland of red roses in my bun, the hinges of flowers are humming in my hair making me gigle.

Seventh makeup- Mang tika (an ornament for forehead) it is made up of gold and worn in the middle of the head, together with vermilion, brings about the beauty of the bride.

Eighth makeup- Nath ( nose pin usually bigger in size) It is knit in nose in honor of Goddess Parvati after taking seven rounds around the sacred fire on the occasion of marriage. It is believed that wearing it increases husband's health and wealth.

Ninth makeup- Earrings - This jewel in the ear is made in various types of beautiful shapes such as fish, peacock, butterfly, flowers, leaves etc. This ornament tends to keep away the evil spirit on happy occasions.

Tenth makeup- The necklace of gold or beads worn in the neck is considered a symbol of the commitment of a happy woman to her husband also it symbolizes integrity.

Eleventh makeup- Baju band (armor) this jewel that is worn in the arms is like a bangle. It is believed that the wearing of armlets on women protects the family's wealth and leads to good victory over evil.

Twelfth makeup- Red bangles, these bangles made of glass, lacquer or gold, wears the bride in their own hands. This signifies that her married life would be full of love and affection. I have worn red and gold bangles so that my coming life will be full of fortune and prosperity.

Thirteenth makeup- Kajal (kohl) it is used to applied on the water line of eyes to ward off the evil eye for both husband and wives.

Fourteenth makeup- Waistband (Girdle) an ornament worn around waistline. This jewellery made of gold or silver is ringed with fine curly glamorous charm, in which a bunch of bridegroom keys hangs in her waist. The girdle symbolizes authority.

Fifteenth makeup- Toe ring or bichiya they are worn on second and third toe on both legs. They signify the post wedding life of bride that she is ready to walk with her husband and face every challenge.

Sixteenth makeup- Payal (Anklets) A beautiful sound of this jewellery worn on the feet indicates the bride's entry in husband's house.

Now I knew the importance of wedding dress, this whole makeup and dress gave me new look and new identity. I belong to someone and someone is mine for next seven births. I do not even need a blush because my face is glowing with his love. I look ethereal everything indicates a significant change in my upcoming life. Looking at the clock I hurried my steps towards the kitchen as it was time for moonrise.

Taking all the things for pooja (worshipping)I dashed up the stairs and reached the terrace panting, as I was holding my skirt and other items carefully so that I won't fall. Taking deep breathe I started making a square which is called Chauk in hindi using rice floor on terrace and placed a wooden seat on top of it. The statue of Mother Gauri with God Ganesh in her lap was placed on the wooden seat then I ornamented Goddesses Gauri statue with all sixteenth makeup. I placed copper vessel full with holy water near statue. I filled the Karva (vessel made with soil) with wheat and lid with sugar. I made swastika on Karva with vermillion. I decorated a silver thali (plate) with a diya, flower petals, sweets and swastika for performing the aarti ( a hand movement done in manner that it creates Om while worshipping a deity).

"Love what are doing?" A deep seductive voice called me I turn around to look. He came to stand beside me.

My moon and the moon of the sky both vision on same time. My breathing for a moment stops I believe heaven and hell, demons and angels had joins hands to make this flawless Greek God. He was dressed in white shirt showing his defined abs with black pants. God he will kill me with his looks only. Taking some kajal from my eye I put a dot behind his right ear so that my love should be away from every evil eye. He was shocked what I was doing today.

"I love you hubby" I said softly.

"You look breathtaking love" I smile shyly. His eyes assessing every part and every jewelry I have worn today, my jewelry was reflecting in his deep maroon eyes I gasped at them how beautiful his eyes were comparing to my black eyes with touch of violet flare in it. A small shiver runs as I was nervous again to avoid his stares I speak. His pupil dilates glancing down at my nervous from.

"I'm fasting for you today, stand here and do as I say" I answered keeping my gaze lower as a bright shade of red blush was covering my cheeks.

"Y.. you are fasting for me, I.. I can't believe I'm a heartless monster who deserves everyone hatred not love. I'm the mo..." I put my hand softly on his mouth a tear escaped from his dark maroon eyes while staring at me like I was the most different and beautiful girl he has ever seen. I embraced him in warm hug inhaling his intoxicating aroma to comfort him and make him realize that he was my world now.

Pulling apart Jamarion standing beside me I adjusted my skirt and started doing ritual. During entire time his gaze was drilling hole in my head I ignored him and with shaky hands I worshipped Gauri-Ganesh and painted Karva traditionally and viewed the moon through sieve and offered water (arka) from copper vessel to the moon to secure his blessings to my love and lit the flame of diya to performed aarti. I prayed mentally for happy healthy life of him and ask god to punish me instead of him for whatever he has done wrong. Then I turned towards Jamarion and viewed him through sieve, then I did aarti and joined my hands and worshipped him and I bend down to touch his feet. I placed his hand on my head asking him "Bless me hubby that I should die before you." He leaned down to my level and cupped my face gently.

"We will die together love you owed my heart so it will beat as long as yours" He said looking straight in my eyes. I opened the lid of small red box.

"Please apply a pinch of vermillion it signifies our unionband completes my attire." He took a pinch of it and placed it on my head, only a pinch but still it made me feels whole and alive. Keeping all the things aside I cupped his face looking straight in his eyes. I asked him to feed me water and sweet and he did now my fast was complete.

"We will take seven rounds as by considering the flame of this diya as a fire witness and moon our love witness of our bond. These seven rounds reflects the seven days of the week that together makeup a month and from month a year. Taking these seven rounds I will make seven vows which I will full fill at every cost, with whom you will be mine and I will be yours for eternity." I intertwined my small hands in big rough hands and started moving in a circle.

First round- "My heart, my body, my soul, my every breathe is yours forever"

Second round- "My every morning will start with your name and nights will end in your arms".

Third round- "You are my sky and I'm your moon. Without you my existence is waste".

Fourth round- "At every phase of life I will be with you".

Fifth round- "My name begins at the end of your name. I know God has made me just to fit inside your hollow soul, so it doesn't matter to me that you are a human or a monster I'm yours".

Sixth round- "With this round today Nalini Jamrion Night will give her heart and promise to you, that you will never walk alone in this path of life. I will be your strength your best friend and soul-mate for life time".

Seventh round- "It's a 100% relationship whatever is mine is yours my family is your family and now you are no more alone you have parents and a loving sister. You will never face loneliness anymore and if death will come I'll be the first one to face it." He squeezed my hands I turn to face him and cupped his face I know he was on the verge of crying as I don't want to spoil our beautiful night I sealed his tears with my kiss. The kiss was slowest and passionate sending tingles all over my skin his hand was touching the bare skin of my stomach he gently detached the waistband from there allowing him more skin to touch. Heat was rising on my skin every time he touché I feel different. He holds me tightly burying myself completely into him I wrapped my arms around him to give him a security that I will never leave him. My hunger for food was diminished as his lips utter what he was feeling today. No words will ever describe this feeling. The kiss comes to an end when we both need air to breathe a slight smile was lying on our lips. He looked at me as if he was struggling to say something.

"I need to tell you truth which no one knows" He said in a cracked voice which broke my heart I once again pecked his lips to shut his mouth. His sad dark eyes were glowing with love and adoration. The sad clouds were vanished after our passionate kiss.

"Today is special night let's love each other completely I want to dissolve in you totally" I said placing my face in his chest while playing with his buttons. He carried me bridal style pecking my lips again and again. My eyes darted towards the full moon which was illuminating the whole sky with its silvery moonlight as if he was witnessing our love silently.

"Hey find your name in my hand" I showed him my henna design and he found it in less than 5 seconds I pout and he pecked my lips.

"You don't know how I feel today, you have given me more than I deserve" He said almost in a whisper.

"I love you my hubby" I whisper slightly giggling.

"I love you more than anything" He whispers huskily biting my lower lip.

"First I'll calm down your hunger for food then mine for love" he took me downstairs and we cherished this beautiful never ending night by love of our souls.

A/N

I hope you guys like the new cover.

For international readers here is a small detail about this festival Called KARWACHAUTH. It's festival for married women who fast for their husband and the sixteenth makeup refers to the ornaments and dress which is required for married women to wear to show her love and responsibility for her married life.

The term 'Karva' means earthen pot, which symbolises peace and prosperity and 'Chauth' refers to 'fourth day' of the month kartik (Indian name for months). Many historical stories of devoted wives are related to this festival who fought for safety of her husband. It is believed that a women can fight Yama ( The God of death) for long life of her husband.The Karva Chauth is a celebration of the beautiful bond between a husband and wife celebrating love and togetherness. Today Karva Chauth has become an occasion rather than a prayer. So our sweetheart Nalini fasted for Jamarion so that his life can be full of prosperity and nurture their bond.

Nalini has incorporated his beloved hubby name on her ring finger you can see the image above.

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