1 Prologue

Nobody knows when they are going to die.

 Nobody! 

Not a single person on this knows that. No psychic can foresee your death. No matter how much they try. It's not something you can calculate or see while looking through a crystal ball or by taking one of those tests that tell you who your soulmate will be or what your personality says about you. But there's a twist to knowing when your going to die.

 Knowing when you're going to die gives you a new perspective on life. You start to appreciate things even more than you did before you found out your death-date.

Life has its own cruel and tangled way of forcing you to make drastic changes to your life. You've become so accustomed to the everyday routine,only to have it change in a matter of hours. Changed to the point where, you don't even know what's real anymore. Changed to the point where, you're basically inside a stranger's body. 

Changed to the point where, you're entire world is flipped around like a pancake, and you have no idea how to turn it right side up again.

That's what happened to me. Senior student at Hidden Valley High.I had to put everything on hold when I received the news, my plans to graduate high school, to marry the love of my life, have kids someday and to watch them grow and become successful in their lives, but because of my incurable disease, I won't be able to do that anymore. This indelible factor of my life has restricted me from accomplishing my future dreams.

I stopped going to school,because what was the point anyway? 

I was going to die! Like a driverless car down a steep hill, that is how fast my life came plummeting down.Brain diseases are not something to be messed around with,and I knew first hand, how much energy and mental health it takes to endure the severity of the pain and the constant reminder of it.

 It's best you have a positive mindset rather than keep thinking about your impending death, otherwise it will start consuming you from the inside, and then you can basically assume your already dead, all you need to do next is stop breathing.

The only people who knew about my brain cancer, was Jace, my boyfriend, and my parents, but I couldn't bring myself to tell my best friend, Stephanie. She hasn't been herself lately.

 She's more remote than she's ever been and as much as I would have wanted to help her or at least try to figure out what was bothering her, I was too caught up on focusing completing my bucket list. I devised it when I first found out about the cancer, I was not expecting to have that bomb drop on me so suddenly and everything was so unforeseen, that I thought I just had to live a more pastime life, before I die.

I was granted 2 years to live, and I have 100 things on my list. I am so fortunate to have Jace by my side, to help me execute everything, but as the cancer grew, so did every emotion inside of me. I was even more agitated than before and I snapped at every little thing, and the more I apologised,the more Jace and I grew apart.

It's not easy maintaining a relationship when one partner is going to die and the other is going to live their life after their death, they'll live on to find new love, get a job, marry, have kids, grandkids etc.

My death... it's inevitable. Soon I will just cease to exist. I'll only be a distant memory once I'm gone. Remembered by my good grades,my terrible fashion sense,and hopefully for my good nature.

 I've had my time on this earth. 

I've accepted that. 

I relished all of my 18 years and I'm grateful for it.

 Although the last few months has been very melancholic, there has been some incredible moments that I've shared with Jace,discovered some shocking secrets, and had some very valuable things ripped away from me in the process, but with all things considered I'm content with how things have turned out. This was my fate, my destiny, and I had to live with it.

I'm Melissa Stewart and this my story.

This is A Dying Girl's List.

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