12 ARE WE LIVING OR ACTING

I woke up at 3 AM, why are you killing me every day? I am seeing you for 5 years straight till now (In dreams/vision). You never showed your face yet why I'm feeling like I knew you very well the way you took her hands and the pain of losing her and the way she looked at you that unknown pain, not spoken words, afraid of losing you in that battle was too obvious in her face more than that someone else has the same pain in that vision. the only question is why I'm feeling all those pains? why everything felt so real and I already experienced it all?

while I'm in college I started to get some type of dream at first it felt so weird later on I felt everything so real. After completing college for few months I didn't get any dreams nor visions so I guessed that's it but I was wrong.

I wanna clear my mind. after an hour of thinking I decided to say yes to the film which JOON asked me on that day already without wasting any time I just called him.

Hello *sleepy voice*

Joon this is shristi sorry for calling you at this time and also sorry for waking you up this early.

Shristi!?! hey are you okay? did anything happen? your voice-*I cut him off* yeah Joon I'm fine nothing happened can I ask you something? Hmm, tell me. I don't know how to tell him 'cause of my behavior previous days *thinking hard* Joon that I-I w-want. he chuckled on another side Shristi tell me what is it hmm whatever it is you can okay now tell me, dear. Ah, Joon you asked me about acting in film naa. he just hummed in response I'm ready to act in that *, at last, I said* WELCOME SHRISTI this is the first thing he said HAPPY MORNING DEAR I smiled at his response and wished him back then we talked for while about other stuff and planned to give surprise for others then we hang up our calls.

*Joon thought* I never thought she will agree on her own yet there is something which she is hiding. anyways for now everything falling in the right place. then he slept well

NEXT DAY

I went office to complete other projects which I left last night, Yup I am working till 8 PM every day nowadays to ease my situations to be frankly to avoid other things I love my work

suddenly one thought floated in my head so quickly I wrote it down in my diary.

That is

"HAVING A LOT OF DESIRES AND THOUGHTS ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS

YET STARTED TO HIDE IT FROM EVERYONE/ SOCIETY

WE BECAME MATURED IN THIS WAY

OR

WE BECOMING WEAK AND DEPRESSED IN THIS WAY"

" ARE WE LIVING THE LIFE WHICH WE PROMISED TO OURSELF AND FOR OUR FAMILY

ARE WE FEELING HAPPINESS WHERE WE ARE?

WE ARE LIVING OR ACTING LIKE LIVING?"

When I completed the last word someone took my diary and started to read I unable to see who it is because he is hiding his face with the help of my diary when he lowered it I saw Joon with a sad smile and I smiled back.

he called me and I hummed in response your thoughts are too deep like the ocean, I just smiled at his compliment what about you Joon what type of life you are living. he simply said acting *which I knew from first* then you should try to live a life Joon. You too shristi by the way I came here to tell you tomorrow we are arranging a party do you have to come without fail no buts okay. I think there is no other way, That's good I let you know the timings and place later on okay I just nodded he patted my head, and waved bye to each other. later on, I started to complete works and today I log out at 7 pm and took a bus after an hour I got off the bus then started to walk but don't wanna go to the room so decided to spend some time in the park which is nearby my room. I went and sat on a regular bench simply staring at the moon speaking with the moon *my habit* out of nowhere someone spoke Moon won't reply to all of your questions uh! this voice is so familiar so I just turned and saw Hyun-V and Park-J who has a small smile on there face then they both hugged me. Missed you so much Lucky, Yeah my Cutie I missed you more than this tiger mixed bear I just laughed at their silly fights Guys I missed you both and all of you the last part I said moreover like whispering. yeah, pabo come here Hyun-v hugged me tightly and said we will never leave your side got it "I shakes my head as yes I knew" after that, we talked about random stuff Park-j said how V got himself into trouble and V started to say How J got scold by an old lady they kept on talking more than complaining about each other or I should say revealing each other secretly and I burst out laughing because of them between my laughing I said you both are the best duo No one can take you guys place. not duo but trio J corrected me suddenly V got a call from Joon so they said their byes and left.

I am still staring at the sky but within a minute I felt a pair of harms hugging my waist when I struggle to get out of the grip he spoke don't move "LOVE" My eyes pop out YOU

who are you? show me your face but he refused.

LOVE I WANT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING LISTEN TO THAT CAREFULLY OKAY AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT ALSO SLOVE IT OKAY.

SHE IS LIGHT

HE IS PATH

SHE IS BRAVE

HE IS STRONG

SHE LOVED HIM AND HE LOVED HER TOO

BUT

ONE DAY SHE LOST IN THAT DUST PARTICLE (LIGHT)

YET

HE FOUND THE PATH WHICH SHE TOLD HIM AND LIVING IN IT FOR SO MANY YEAR WHILE WAITING FOR HER ALONG WITH OTHERS.

what happened? did she came back? he just chuckled and said

INDEED SHE CAME BACK then

* SAD SMILE* HER HEART STILL WANTING HIM AND LOVING HIM WITHOUT KNOWING HERSELF AND HE STILL LOVING HER

BUT SHE BECOMES A PUZZLE TO EVERYONE AND ONLY SHE CAN SOLVE ALL THE OTHER PUZZLES OVER HERE.

do you know why love... I just said "no"

SHE IS NOT ONLY LIGHT, BRAVE, BRILLIANT BUT ALSO QUEEN DEAR. WHO KNOWS ALL THE WAY TO KNOCK DOWN HER ENEMIES AND AT THE SAME TIME TO LOVE HER PEOPLE.

SHE IS UNIQUE *LOVE*

who is she? is she still alive?

yes, she is alive love but only you can find her. so try to do it, love.

Who are you?

*chuckled softly* you will know very soon love. Trust me even tho I am not showing myself in your light trust me one day I will show up until taking care to eat well, sleep well love.

after saying that he just vanished like air for a moment I can't process whatever happened right now but I felt his voice is so familiar.