229 229. I will definitely go to hell

Song Beibei sat alone in the city square for an entire night.

As she watched the people in the square flow like water, they gradually became sparse.

However, the lights were still as bright as ever, as if they were trying to disperse all the darkness in the city.

It was early September, and even at night, it was still very hot.

However, Song Beibei sat there, as if her entire body was submerged in the ice-cold seawater. One wave after another came crashing over, covering her head. She was unable to breathe, unable to think, and her heart was constantly sinking. She didn't know where she was going to sink to.. From the initial disbelief, to the struggle, to the gradual numbness, Song Beibei only felt that she was about to turn into a stone.

Perhaps it would be good if she really could turn into a stone, and then she would not have to face the cruel reality.

Early in the morning, Song Beibei appeared at the door of Lu Yisheng's office.

She had to make sure, even if she had a premonition that Su Liangxiao was not lying to her.

However, she still had to make sure.

Lu Yisheng saw her dejected appearance and strode over, asking with concern, "Beibei, what happened to you? What happened? "

Song Beibei raised her head and looked at Lu Yisheng.

So strange.

Yes, they were originally strangers, but after seeing him the last time and knowing that he was the uncle Yisheng from back then, Song Beibei was very surprised and happy.

But now, it had only been a day.

It had changed, everything had changed.

Song Beibei no longer had the strength to disguise herself. She didn't even have the strength to speak.

Her eyes were red, and she looked like a battered and exhausted patient.

Song Beibei took out the calfskin diary from her bag.

She slowly handed it to Lu Yisheng, feeling a little numb. "Is this yours? "

When Lu Yisheng saw the thing that she handed him, he was stunned at first. Then, as if he had been cursed, he unconsciously took a step back.

His eyes instantly became turbulent. His originally calm face was like an iceberg that had ruptured and collapsed.

However, he was, after all, a surgeon.

Those strong emotions lasted for a few seconds before he slowly calmed down.

Lu Yisheng took the diary.

His expression had also unconsciously changed. "You haven't eaten breakfast yet, right? I'll bring you to eat something. "

Lu Yisheng walked in front while Song Beibei followed closely behind. She did not know where Lu Yisheng would bring her.

Finally, Lu Yisheng brought her to the hospital's cafeteria.

He brought her breakfast.

It was very sumptuous.

The two of them sitting there were very eye-catching.

After all, Lu Yisheng was too famous in the hospital and was very eye-catching. As for him, he was famous for not getting close to women.

Now, there was actually a little girl sitting with her, eating breakfast face to face.

It always made people's imaginations run wild.

During this time, there were a few young nurses who took turns to come over and greet her as if they were testing her.

Lu Yisheng even smiled and explained, "this is my sister. "

SISTER... ... ?

Song Beibei wanted to laugh out loud!

Wasn't it too ironic?

However, she didn't even have the strength to pull the corners of her mouth.

She didn't look at Lu Yisheng either.

She kept stirring the porridge in the bowl with a spoon. She only felt that her situation was like this bowl of sticky porridge. It was so chaotic that she couldn't distinguish right from wrong.

There were still some people coming and going in the cafeteria.

Lu Yisheng said to Song Beibei, "you should eat something first. You look a little anemic. "

Was He caring for her?

Song Beibei couldn't take it anymore. She put down the spoon, raised her head, and looked at the person opposite her. "Isn't the concern of the person who killed my father too hypocritical? "

Song Beibei actually hoped that the person in front of her would have a shocked expression on his face and then deny it.

However, she didn't.

Lu Yisheng's eyes only changed color, and there was sadness in his eyes. He said, "you don't have to joke about your body. You should eat something. "

Song Beibei said, "is the diary yours? Is What you wrote true? Tell me? You killed my father. Gu Yanqing knows everything, right? "

Lu Yisheng gradually calmed down, as calm as a lake that would never have waves.

He said, "I think you already know, and I don't want to explain anything. This diary is mine, and very few people know about these things. Since I was young, I have always had hatred in my heart. I have no way to tell others, and I don't dare to say it, but I am in pain, and I need to vent and vent, so I have the habit of writing a diary. "

The diary was placed in front of Lu Yisheng.

His fingers slowly caressed the cover of the exquisite calfskin He smiled, "Do you know This diary was the most extravagant gift I had ever received. He was like my best friend, always accompanying me and listening to me. All my secrets were inside. I knew that as long as it was there, my secrets and everything I did could be discovered. However, I could not bear to destroy it. Later, he lost it. I was once afraid that everything would be exposed. However, more than ten years had passed. It was as if it had sunk into the sea. There was not a single bit of information. My only hope was that this notebook could not be seen by you. I thought that the probability was too small, but... "... "..."

Lu Yisheng smiled slowly. He rubbed his fingers and gently opened the diary He flipped through it. "This is life. Those who can't escape can't escape. The sins I've committed can't be made up for. "This diary is there. It was given to you by AH Liang, right? He couldn't let go of his peaceful death. I've already guessed that he was the one who stole my diary back then. "

Lu Yisheng handed the diary to Song Beibei. "This can be used as evidence against me. No matter what you do to me, I'll accept it all. I only hope that you can walk away from this enmity. I don't want you to bear the pain of my mistakes. Also, everything has nothing to do with Yanqing. Your father's death was also planned by me. I don't want you to vent your anger on him. "Just let me bear everything by myself. "

Song Beibei laughed. "But gu Yanqing knew about it, didn't he "When you were my family's private doctor, he knew everything you wanted to do, didn't he "Moreover, he came to the song family because of your conspiracy. If that evil aunt of yours hadn't appeared, would he have followed your plan and destroyed the Pearl Group? "

Lu Yisheng was speechless.

Song Beibei said, "I know what's right and what's wrong. I don't need you to say it, and I won't believe the words of the person who killed my father. "

Lu Yisheng's eyes were filled with a trace of pain.

Song Beibei knew that he was really in pain. The kind of pain that was filled with guilt and suffering.

Lu Yisheng said, "after so many years, I have always wanted to make up for it, but I know that I will never be able to make up for it. I will eventually go to hell. I am looking forward to that day. If I had surrendered back then, if I was still in prison, perhaps I would have been better off. All these years, whenever I had free time, I would feel tormented. I would always think of your father and the way he called my name. To me, this was a form of torture. Back then, he trusted me so much that even when his condition continued to worsen, he still did not go to any other hospital. He had seen other doctors, but he had never complained to me. As long as I closed my eyes, I would be able to see the way he looked at me with a smile. I remember the last thing he said to me before he passed away. He held my hand and said, "Yisheng, I know that you have done your best. Thank you. ". He actually thanked me. To me, this was like a nightmare. Your father was the kindest person in the world, and in front of his kindness, I became the devil. I saw my own evil and darkness. I didn't deserve to live in this world... "... "..."

Lu Yisheng actually choked up as he spoke He said, "for so many years, I have never slept peacefully. From the moment I tampered with your father's inspection report, I fell into hell and could never be reincarnated. I've also had enough of this kind of life. Beibei, send me to prison and let me be judged. It's also like me suffering in this hell day after day. "

Song Beibei tried her best to calm herself down.

In fact, she believed every word that Lu Yisheng said.

Because she saw the deepest kind of exhaustion and despair in his eyes.

It was like a person who was exhausted from walking in the desert. He fell into the sand and looked at the scorching sun in the sky and the yellow sand. Leopards with fangs were surrounding him. He didn't even have the strength to escape.. It would have been fine if his neck had been bitten off by a wild beast, but his skin and flesh had been torn apart piece by piece. He could only watch as his skin and flesh were bitten off, revealing his ghastly white bones. He didn't even have the strength to commit suicide. She could only wait in despair, waiting for that moment to slowly come.

She pushed the diary back She said, "I won't sue you, I won't sue you, I won't put you in jail. You want to be put on trial. You want to make your heart feel better, but I won't. The real trial is not the law, but your own heart. Lu Yisheng, I want you to feel guilty for the rest of your life. I won't forgive you, but I won't become a devil like you. "