I Miss You So Much

We had lots of fun in the second as well as third day of the trip exploring different types of cultivation, breeding and plant species. All the students were very sad to leave that amazing place in the earth. But we have to!

We headed back to our school, junior conducted farewell party for us. We danced and enjoyed very much but I had a sad feeling inside my heart coz I didn't want to leave Salang. I wanted to be with her forever.

The last day of the school was very emotional. I thought "It was great decision by my parents to send me here, because this school changed me. The past Jack was so mean and heartless but now I have changed so much, now I care first for others rather than myself, I had come to know that my heart is not only for pumping blood but it is also for loving and caring someone special (that is you Salang). Today I'll propose you. Be ready."

Everyone was busy in packing, I packed my things yesterday so I haven't much left to packed at the last day. I went to see Salang, I stay at the gate of girls dorm. With the wind, my heart was also dancing. I was too excited and was very scared too. But I decided to say her today itself. I waited for about half an hour but she doesn't showed her face. I asked other junior girls to call Salang for me. Few minutes later, the junior came and said that she was busy in packing things so she won't be able to meet you. I was very sad but I stayed there.

I saw one of my house maid came to pick me, he loaded my things in the car and I told him to wait for me in the car. I waited for so long I was very tired. (Please Salang, come fast. I want to tell you that I love you). After few hours, I saw Salang coming out of the gate.

"Salang...!" I stopped. I was about to say but I saw her father coming out too. So I went near her, I shake hands and said "Have a great all day, Good bye."

She smiled and said "You too, good bye."'

(The way she smiled makes me feel more sadder, coz now I feel like she doesn't want me. So I decided not to propose her. Good bye are meant as see you someday. And we will surely meet someday, somewhere in. Take care Salang.)

In my house, my parents and the maid of my house see me in a different way.

I said "What happened? Why are looking at me as if I am an alien?"

Dad said "Yes son, you are an alien."

I made a confused face and asked "How?"

Dad said "Because you are at kitchen, I never saw you in kitchen."

One of our maid said "You hated to go there, young master."

I said "It's not a big deal. I wanted to drink some water so I'm here."

"Young master you could have ordered me."

"It's okay, its just a glass of water."

They all looked at each other and was very shocked.

Dad and others said "You have changed!"

As the days passed, I used to missed her alot. The missing emotion was directly proportional to the day. As days increases emotion of missing her also increase. Someday I want to die coz I missed her and someday I won't eat anything. (I wanted to talk to you but I don't have your contact number)

According to members of my house, I was a totally different person, now I do my own works like I was my clothes by hands, I clean my room myself, I smile to other, now I doesn't order but I help others, when it rained, windy or cloudy I always sit outside to feel you, I see the stars and miss you so much.

They says to me "The school change him alot, now I see a different phase of him."

One day my maid called me and said "Young master, there is someone called Salang in the line."

(Salang) I jumped off the chairs where I was sitting, hit my butts on the floor, it was painful but I ran to attend the phone call.

"Hello, Salang. How are you? Where you got my number?"

"I got it from other classmates."

"Oh wait Salang. This is our home telephone number. Write down my cell number I'll tell you now. Its 44........ Got it. Please call me at that number."

"Okay!"

I ran towards my room, I hold my cell in hands, few seconds later it vibrates and I was very happy I said "Hello, who is there.?" with a grumpy sound.

"Is this Jack's number?" She said respectfully.

"Jack? Who is Jack? Sorry it might be wrong number." I replied.

"Sorry for disturbing you sir. I'll cut it."

"Salang wait it me."

"I knew it, what you think, I can't even know your voice."

We laughed.

"I'm sorry." I said

"It's okay I'm not angry. I'm really very happy to hear your voice."

"Same here."

(I wanted to say I love you but why don't my mouth open up and say it, my voice, its annoying.)

We chatted for about an hour. We share about each day spent outside the school. She said that she missed me and at time, from my back, wings came out and I began to fly up in the sky. (It's just an emotion). We decided to join the same high school.

Everyday we used talk, we share what we eat, where we go everything. We were best of the best buddy in the earth.

My elder sister once asked me "Who was at that phone you always talk with?"

I replied "She is my friend."

She asked "Girlfriend? Love?"

I smiled and said "I really don't know sis."

She said "Your smile is the answer."

"No, sis I really don't know what I feel for her is it love or just a crush."

"For how long do you think about her?"

"For about 10 months."

"Then it's love, they says if you have crush in someone for more than four months it's love."

"Sis really?" I smiled, a big smile.

"She asked to tell her everything."

I told her each and every moment. I used to smile telling my sister's story and she smiled too. She said that she wanted to see her personally. We promised to meet her.

She said "My little brother, you are so cute. Always love her okay! If she also love you, don't ever hurt her's feeling or anyone's emotion, alright!"

I asked her "Yes sis, does she feels the same?"

She replied "I don't know, but I know that my brother is very nice, kind-hearted, handsome and every girls want to be with you."

"I don't need any other girls, I just need her."

"Is she is the reason you have changed so much?"

"May be, I said" I was blushing.

"Hmm.. blushing!"

"We decided to join the same high school."

"It's great, but don't let your dad know about this okay."

"Why?"

"He will be very angry with you, he wants you to be a successful person with a suitable job, he'll say that love would be a distraction, so don't let him know, alright!"

"Yes sis!"

"But I'm with you."

"Thank you, sis."

As the days passed, we came closer than before. Chatting, messaging, talking with her was the favourite or the best time I had in a day.