4 4: dinner

I woke up in my bed tucked in Like I was a little kid again.

I look over and see Septimus sleeping in his bed.

He turns fitfully and I see a layer of sweat on his skin.

I stand up and wobble slightly feeling dizzy.

My head hurts like I had a hangover, I walk slowly over to Septimus and sit beside him on his bed.

He's pale and his skin glistens sickly.

I grab his hand gently and feel his head. His skin is clammy and cold.

"I have a feeling your like this because you used your empathy on me." I whisper closing my eyes.

"I'm okay" Septimuses voice was strong. If I don't open my eyes I can pretend I wasn't causing him pain.

His hand brushes my cheek and I open my eyes to look at him.

Some color was returning to his face, he sat up and smiled at me.

"You look like crap too" he grins at me.

I dont reply, I dont have the energy I just look at my bed.

"How are you" Septimus asks quietly.

Im not sure what to say, so I just look up at him.

I'm feeling nothing and I'm feeling everything.

I'm tired and I'm restless.

I just dont know.

I hoped that he understood what I was thinking.

"You should know, now that Iv given you my oath your closet responds to me and mine responds to you." he says.

"why did you do that anyway" I ask, it was completely random and seemed rather important.

" well I knew that with all the knew simpatico you got all at once, it would be really hard for you to keep it together and me giving you my oath makes helping you through that much easier. it also felt like the right thing to do something inside me, told me doing this would help later " I nod and stand up, unsteadily walking into my door.

my body feels so completely tierd and sore, remembering the pool of ether I found in my closet.

Maybe water will help.

I go to the moon pool room and change quickly into my bathing suit.

I sit in the warm water trying to find energy, but I feel empty.

Like everything that happened to me took a piece of me out and l eft nothing in it's place.

So I just layed there and I watched the sky.

I don't think about anything and everything is oddly quiet.

I dont know how long I was there I dont even know what time it is, but eventually Septimus found me in the pool.

The silence is interrupted by a welcome noise.

I know he's here before he says anything, ever since he gave me his oath, I can hear the steady beat of heart when he's close.

"Willow come here" his voice was gentle but stern, his command was simple enough for me to follow.

My brain felt fuzzy and im not sure what I should be doing, So I stood up and walked over to him.

"Go take a shower and get dressed I'll wait for you in the room." He seemed to know how lost I felt.

I nodded slowly and walked to the shower.

I strip and turn on the water. I step into the shower and stand under the water. It was hot water I washed up slowly and got out of the shower numbly.

One thought came into my mind which I said out loud.

"How am I supposed to get dressed, I have wings"

I walk into the long hall of clothes.

On the door an outfit was hanging, I grab the cloths of the door and the door shimmers and turns into a mirror.

I look at my reflection I have light brown skin and dark blue Tattoos that look like water dripping down my body.

I have officially had the weirdest experience ever.

"I am now brown, my skin is brown. what's next, I better not make up with a dick" I say dryly.

My wavy hair fell like fire on my shoulders and down my back.

My lips were dark red.

One of my irises was white and the other was black.

"I don't even recognize myself anymore, im a completely different person. who am I "

in the reflection of the mirror I see a outfit hanging on the mirror.

I wonder what would happen if I picked a different outfit, would the closet get offended?

Not that I want a different outfit.

The outfit was a long sleeved black shirt that had a low back that didn't get in the way of my wings.

Right now my wings were folded against my back.

The blue Tattoos went all the way down my body.

I pulled the shirt on, the collar dipped low but not so low it was slutty.

The sleeves were off my shoulder.

I pulled on a pair of shorts and put the skirt on.

It was a red skirt that had a high waist. I tucked my shirt in and put on lacy thigh high stockings.

A pair of heels was sitting by my door, I put them on and walked to my jewelry box I put the charm bracelet on and a few rings that matched I grabbed my quill necklace and walked back into my dorm.

Septimus already had hair and makeup stuff out on his bed.

I smiled slightly and looked at him not really sure what to do.

"sit down" Septimus says gently. I sat down on the bed and he started doing my hair and makeup.

We were silent for most of the time until he said "you need to wake your brain up, we have to go to dinner and you need to put your wall back up" his voice was gentle but I knew there was no arguing about it.

I nod but dont reply.

He finishes and stands I stand to and follow him to the door he opens it for me and let's me go out first, I dont know where I'm going so I wait for Septimus to lead me.

He turns to the left and walks down the long corridor, we approach a set of doors, the doors were propped open and inside you could see 4 long tables stretched across a long dining hall, there was food spread across the table.

kids were chattering and laughing spread out across the table.

Septimus leads me to the table farthest to the right. I saw the twins and forced a smug smile on my face, I forced myself to be present and pushed down any feeling that afflicted that.

I follow Septimus to the end of the table, there are four kids sitting there.

A girl with bunny ears and long silver hair waves enthusiastically, smiling brightly.

Once we get to the table Septimus introduces me to the kids.

"This is Silvia" he points to bunny ears.

"Heeyy" she squeals gleefully.

I smile and Septimus points to a kid green hair sitting next to her.

"That's Ethan and sitting across from him is Leo."

I turn from Ethan to look at a kid with short fiery hair like mine, he also had pointy ears, that's all I saw of him though because his head was turned down. "

And next to him" continues Septimus "is marithyme" marithyme had short blue hair, that looked choppy, not in a ratty homeless way but in an edgy cute way.

Silvia sits down and gushes.

"Omg your wings are A-mazing I loooove them"

Something about her makes me smile "yes there pretty cool" I look at marithyme.

"Hey can I sit next to you?"

She smiles and nods.

"Of course."

Septimus sits across from me next to Silvia.

"I'm will-amean" I stutter slightly almost saying willy.

"That's pretty" Ethan says. His voice is low, and soothing.

Silvia is about to say something but freezes staring above my eyes with wide scared eyes.

I know why.

"Hi dumb and dumber" I say pleasantly.

"I hope your not talking to us" hisses anabelle.

I grin "no just the two girls standing behind me"

I turn to face them and stand up so that I'm an inch away from Annabelle.

"Oh wait" I pout fakly and bat my eye lashes.

"Has your mom called you yet?, I bet that will be a fun conversation, oh wait never mind, have you talked to my mom, I forgot yours wasn't Available" Anabeth snears.

I just stare at her not able to form words.

Anabelle snickers "unless she found away to call hell, that's the only place her hag of a mother could be."

Anger flares through me and my hair gets warm lifting up of my shoulder slightly.

"What did you say" I growl, my fists clench "do you know how ironic it is that your calling my mom a hag, my mom didn't give her daughter's anorexia as a legacy, unlike your mom, are you gonna stand there and tell me your hypocritical, hard ass mom is better than mine, if you do you need a reality check."

Anabelle is staring at me in shock anger and fear.

Anabeth hisses "at least my dad didn't drive my mom to suicide" in my ear.

I almost slap her but with my hand an inch from her face I realize my hand is on fire. I drop my hand.

"I swear to God if you dont get out of my face I'll burn off evry hair on your air filled head."

Anabeth shoves her cup off water at me "you need to cool down."

Then she struts away away laughing with her sister.

I sit down and plaster a convincing enough smile on my face.

Leo sits down next to me and puts his hand over my still flaming one, the fire goes out like he snuffed it out with his hand.

I look at him paying more attention to him and realize I know him.

"L-leon?" I whisper "I didn't know you were summoned, I thought you were dead, why didn't you call us, where the hell did you go, Iwasworriedsick" he looks at me guilty.

"I'm sorry"

I stand up and look at the others.

"I'm not hungry and I have to change I'll see you later"

I exuse my self quickly, and walk fast out of the dining hall.

As soon as I'm though the doors I run fast, really fast.

I'm at my dorm in less than a minute, I go straight to my closet, the door slamming behind me.

I walk into a room I cant even tell which one and slam my fist against the wall.

I'm pissed, every emotion I've ignored burst out of me vary violently, I destroy the room, by the time I'm done, im on my knees in the middle of what looks like a war zone staring numbly at my bloody hands.

Suddenly I wish desperately that Septimus was here. "I am here" I look up and see Septimus standing in front of me.

"Your related to leo?" I nodd and stand "hes here isn't he, in the dorm?"

Septimus nods and I close my eyes.

Im about to ask Septimus for a hug but he hugs me before I say anything.

"What do I do, how do I forgive him, he was gone suddenly, and then I needed him, and he wasn't there, so I lost who I was trying to protect myself, and now he's here suddenly, I-I I'm he" my words fade and I'm left staring over Septimus's shoulder at my pulled apart reflection in the broken glass on the floor.

How ironic.

After a few more minutes I pull away and stare at the floor.

"Can you tell him to leave, tell him we can talk later?" I here Septimus foot steps as he goes back to the dorm.

After a few moments I follow Septimus out.

Leo is still in my room, he's arguing with Septimus but stops when he sees me.

"Hey bro" I smile half heartedly, "how, caught up are you?" He looks at me confused.

"Shit".

I sit on the bed and he sits next to me, I hug him tightly and he pulls me into his lap like he did when we were younger.

"After you left mom and dads fighting only got worse, and dad kept making mom late for work.

Mom lost her job because of it.

Dads drinking got worse as well, and mom gave up after a while"

I take a shuddering breath and shiver.

"Mom killed herself and dad remarried like a week later, I think he was cheating on her.

The twins ard our stepsisters.

They tried to ruin my life at school but I just ended up getting everyone to hate them."

I say all if this with a flat emotionless voice, but pain still sears my heart and makes breathing hard.

"Hey i hate to cut this short but it's almost curfew, you better get going dude" Septimus interrupts.

I'm glad for the distraction, I cant look at leo, i dont want to see the pain on his face, I cant.

After he's left I'm still sitting on my bed not really sure what to do.