1 heart breaking love

a man that works and doesn't give attention to his girlfriend he cheated on her with sexual contact with other women. to keep it far I did the unforgivable thing that I regret I didn't want to hurt him with a sexual intercourse with a another man we did good for five months the man I love is Scott heckert no one can be like him we got together on July 3th of 2019 everything whent good lived together for two months and he got a job stayed in contact with me and then he got a car and in two weeks he didn't contact me I felt unwanted unloved and feeling down on that Sunday night Scott came over and wanted me to explain why when I started to explain he smothered me with a kiss and nothing else came out of my mouth that night the clock hit 11:00 pm at night he had to go left the key on the table and he didn't know he put it down he came back in asked for the key and he left. Tuesday 24th I messaged someone else and we messaged and messaged and we met up that night we had a great time and i whant home we messaged each other after words and whent to sleep it became Christmas morning and i fell in love we messaged each other all that morning and afternoon then it became night time we talked for a bit and whent to sleep it came Thursday morning and we talked this morning as well taking things slow and be with someone that is willing to be with someone without being used for sex.