12 Confusion

"What am I doing here?" I asked myself as I started approaching the building where I heard the screams from. It must've been someone doing the same thing as me, but with far less luck. I knew that this building was free of him since the screams come from another place. So right now I can peacefully scout those grounds and see what's actually happening to people…

"I hope nothing weird will be on there…" As this thought approached my mind, I slowly realized how bad my situation was. "Why am I here? What's the point of me being here? What are we doing? We? Me? I don't know anymore. Nothing!" How stupid am I? But it's now too late. I'm going to proceed.

I went up and what I saw was... Completely disgusting. A body, more like... Pieces of it. Cut off hand there, torso with freshly gushing blood out of the neck on the right. Legs were shattered to scrap, not even bones were whole on the left. The insides were flowing out of the stomach and with a strong stench of fecal, I puked. Screams again appeared right behind my head getting louder and louder with each second of motionlessness.

And with eyes of terror, I started running away as fast as my legs allowed me. As far away from the sounds of the screams behind me as possible... But each time I ran by a building, blood started flowing down from the roof with parts of bodies falling down with impudent speed, crashing into the floor making a hole in the stone. A great wall of dark red substance was slowly manifesting at the end of the arena. It then started like a tsunami literally eating each building it flowed through.

Corpses were alive in the ocean. Me trying to get away from it, but that was impossible. "What is this..." I thought to myself, but there was no time to think I had to run… Run as fast as I can. Even faster than that.

The water started accelerating. This wave almost became full of corpses... This abomination of a catastrophe was about to touch me, and then.

A light? Redemption? Something yellow...

Each time I get thoughts like this I feel even worse, why am I here? How am I alive? The cold shroud surrounding me in the dark each time I close my eyes becomes even denser and greater. But I knew that winter is coming and that made me call for help in my mind as I knew nobody would ever come... My body slowly started collapsing in that cape.

I also don't know when, but some sort of sun, white like snow and cold like ice started manifesting in that realm of curse and sorrow, dark... I need to do something with this silencing cold. It slowly becomes really hard to move. It's time to stand up Hayden. You need to move on... You can't just give up here.

But why does it matter, I never wanted to accomplish anything... It was always my brothers the only thing that is making me go on is… Nothingness, only Flora wished for me.

It's just clear adrenaline that's been pushing me forward… Rage? Revenge? I know the feeling, but what can I do now? Look where I am. You pitiful meaningless soul trying to come up the top. What am I even talking about? Hayden, Don't lose yourself here! Wake up. You aren't someone who would do something like this. Don't Lose!

It's time to go...

As I wanted to look up, the very slow motion felt like an eternity almost. I was completely terrified at this moment, I had a feeling that something is up... But not sure what.

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