Xia Xin LAN didn't want to think about the past as it would really affect her mood.
Before she reunited with Chu bingxuan in University, she could stop thinking about it. She wouldn't be sad if she stopped thinking about it.
But now, she was trying to get back together with him. Whenever she faced him, she couldn't help but think of his coldness in high school. Sometimes, she felt that she should not mix the past with the present.
But sometimes, she just couldn't help but think about it.
If memories could be forgotten, they wouldn't be called memories.
That was why she was so conflicted. She didn't know how to face Chu bingxuan.
She was also afraid that she wouldn't be able to control her emotions and hurt Chu bingxuan. She was afraid that she wouldn't be able to hold back the dark emotions in her heart.
So, she tried her best to hold back and not think about it. She only wanted to look at the present.