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I look him in the eye "thank you for trusting me with this, i know its hard to tell something which is a private matter"

"Thank you for letting me trust you and not giving me a reason not to, you became very special to me Olivia, and it scares me"

I nod "i know what you mean, i feel the same, but i have that with all of you, you start to feel like brothers, the feeling i have with Charlie" but with you i feel a diffrent connection "I think Dylan sees you diffrently" he huffs.

I furrow my eyebrows "what do you mean?" he fiddles with the hem of his shirt. "i know my friends. Dylan is almost drooling when you pass by. he tells the others how much he likes you, but they don't know i feel the same. he's good at hiding it for you i see, you say you haven't noticed yet " I nod.

Of course Dylan was a bit more cheeky every now and then, or stroked his hand on mine. but I thought it was just kindness ... not so "i thought it was just politeness" i tell him honestly, feeling bad he can't express himself to the others. "It's okay, I have to let you go to him. My feelings are important, but my friendship too" he looks anywhere but me.

I lift his chin with my index finger "who says I have feelings for him? something more then friendship? i mean i must admit he's nice, but so are you and it seems like i can't choose. I don't want to give you false hope" he bites his lip "I get that and i could say he's nothing and a bad person, but that's not the truth and besides that, that wouldn't be fair. just follow your heart, and think about what you want. If you close your eyes, with who do you see a future?" a good question, something to think about.

There is so much I need to think about right now he gets up and I follow "thanks Axel, it makes me feel better that despite all this Dylan is a big priority for you" he smiles and shows his dimples "anything for you, I have to think carefully because this feeling is new to me"

"what feeling?"

"I want to be sure that we're on the same topic, the feeling of falling in love, Liv.

The feeling that you want to be with someone all the time and that you worry if they don't answer the phone. that you want to protect them at all costs. it scares me up the same time it makes me feel good"

yes we are on the same topic my cheeks shades of pink "I have to think, Ax, but I can tell you that when I hold your hand or when I talk to you, you make me feel safe" He again gives me a small smile "lets go home, its getting late" i nod and follow him to the car.

When we arrive at the flat i see he's looking out of the window "what are you thinking about?" I ask, being curious as always. "Hm? Oh yea, i was thinking about how we went from laughing and smalltalk to sensitive topics" he sadly sighs. "You don't regret telling me it, do you?"

I place my hand on his shoulder and feel him tense. "Not at all, it just gave me more thoughts, but im sure that the same goes for you" he chuckles. We walk to the front door and i notice the lights are all out, meaning the others are sleeping already. He twist the door handle when i whisper "hey Axel?" He hums and looks at me, his eyes lit by the moonlight.

"Whatever happens, even when the night changes, it will never change me and you" i whisper, barely audible but im sure he heard it cause he walks over to me and pecks my cheek "goodnight Olivia" he walks into his room and I can feel on my cheek where there is still a tingling from the kiss.

I touch my cheek...

Shit, what am i going to do?

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