When did I change? [1/2]

Sex was one of the greatest pleasures and one of the worst vices. Lust was even considered a mortal sin. Reapers as a whole were pitiful. 

Not only did they have to fight, but the longer they fought, the crazier they got, and they even killed each other when they fucked. If I didn't know any better, even eating and sleeping would have hidden dangers or something.

I grabbed Joshua's shoulder as I spoke.

"This stays with us, understood?"

"I will take the secret to my grave, Commander."

"Okay, finally, tomorrow I will let you register as a Death Seeker. You can take over and lead the 2nd Amendment even after I am gone. When the others get more experience, let them lead the other squads of the LLG."

"Understood. Commander, can I make a request?"

"What is it?"

"Everyone knows that you are preparing for your death. I beg you, can I please aid you in the Seeker War?"

"Denied. What will happen to Angela if you die?"

"That..."