Chapter 87: "Sirin dream, and lights"

"Hum~ Hum~ Hum~"

Returning to het house humming a cheerful song. Cecilia who was holding many limited edition Homu adventure books in her arms, walked step by step towards Sirin's room, and she opened her room door.

"My dear! Look what mama brought you!"

Sirin: "KYAAA!?!"

Realizing that Cecilia went straight into her room without knocking on the door. Sirin's hands and feet suddenly seemed to have a brain, and the two of them immediately turned off the desktop screen and her computer in one go.

"Mama!?! Why did you come in not knocking on the door!" Sirin's face reddened, and she breathed heavily from too much shock.

Cecilia covered her mouth: "Oh, my bad. Did mama come at the wrong time?"

Smiling playfully when she saw the panicked expression on Sirin's face. Cecilia came to her, and she showed her what she had been carrying.

"Tada! Mama brought you lots of Homu adventure books! Plus, there are some limited edition books here! Sirin, are you happy?"

Looking at the dozens of comic books Cecilia currently has in her hands. Sirin tilted her head in confusion.

".... Why did mom suddenly bring me this book?"

Cecilia was suddenly confused: "Ah? Don't you have a job as a comic artist? Mama brought all these books hoping you could find some inspiration!"

Stunned by what she just heard. Sirin who was in a daze, suddenly opened her eyes wide, and her face started to slowly become more and more red.

"(She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows! She knows...!!!)"

Having a short-circuited brain, could not accept the fact that Cecilia knew about her secret work. Sirin immediately hid in her bed, and she buried her face into the pillow.

She screaming.

"Aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!"

Cecilia: "...?"

Not knowing why Sirin's body on the bed suddenly convulsed, and screamed in a muffled voice. Cecilia who didn't know the mentality of today's youth, slowly backed away from Sirin's room with a bit of fear.

"Then... Mama's gone?"

"No wait a minute, don't go!!!"

Immediately ran towards Cecilia, and closed her bedroom door tightly. Sirin, who was still blushing, held Cecilia's hands tightly.

"That... That... No... No! I mean...."

"Sirin... Mama is not good at speaking in code language. Calm down, and talk to mama slowly. Don't be in a hurry, okay?"

Breathing slowly, and exhale continuously. Sirin who calmed down a bit, could finally able to look into Cecilia's eyes with her eyes filled with tears.

"Mama! Other than mama, who else knows!?!"

"About what?"

"About... That... I mean...."

Seeing the shorted Sirin once again. Cecilia was trying to hold back her laughter, and she finally decided to stop playing around.

"No, no one knows. You can trust mama."

"R-Really?"

"Yes, I promise, even Thea doesn't know about this."

"Fyuh... Then thank goodness..." Sirin wiped the cold sweat that appeared on her forehead at this time.

Cecilia smiled: "Are you going to continue your drawing again? Then mama won't bother you, and mama will leave here."

Sirin shook her head.

"It's okay... The computer has also been turned off... I don't want to paint anymore for today." Sirin sighed tiredly.

Clapping their hands at Sirin's words. Cecilia's eyes immediately lit up.

"Then want to go with mom for a walk outside? Sometimes inspiration has to be sought from reality. So sirin, let's go for a walk together!"

Cecilia smiled happily.

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When they left, it was already noon. But when they were about to go home, it was already afternoon.

It shows how quickly time flies.

The golden sun hanging above the sky began to descend from the horizon, and slowly changed its color to a softer one.

The air around them grew colder and colder.

Cecilia and Sirin rubbed their cold palms together until they warmed up again.

"Woah~ look Sirin! The lights are starting to turn on! No matter how much I look at it, the glint of all the lights here is really very beautiful~!"

Standing next to Cecilia, and saw many shop lights, and building lights inside the house, and apartment, starting to turn on one after another. Sirin who saw the beautiful side of the world through a different perspective, could only stare at the light of the lights in a daze.

"Yeah... They are very beautiful..."

"Right isn't it? If we change our point of view, this world can become more interesting! Like the movement of clouds above the sky, seeing the crowd of people from high places, enjoying the cold through a warm coat, or walking together like this. Mama won't get bored!"

Seeing Cecilia who was so optimistic was like having a youthful spirit. Sirin lowered her head, and she rubbed her cold hands once again.

"Mama didn't ask about that?"

"About what?"

"That..."

Feeling her entire body go limp, but somehow still had courage coming from somewhere. Sirin said in a very small voice.

"...That... Why did I become a logistics valkyrie..."

Hearing this, Cecilia clapped her hands: "Is there a problem with that?"

Sirin looked at Cecilia helplessly: "Don't you think I'm quite embarrassing? Both the Kaslana family and the Schariac family have always chosen to fight against Honkai. But as for me, a person with such qualifications, chose to retreat like a coward..."

"That's why I asked..."

"Did I... let you down?"

Looking at the indecisive Sirin. Cecilia shook her head, and she smiled.

"Who said that we have to fight the honkai on the front line? Every part is important Sirin. They always complement each other."

"Besides, I'm sure you can shine wherever you are. Proving what you've been fighting for all this time is worthwhile isn't it also a satisfaction in itself?"

When someone has an important decision to make in their life, they usually consider their current state.

What exactly does Sirin want?

If there were no honkai, then she would want to live peacefully like other girls, together with her family.

Live a normal life.

That was the hope she had been harboring for so long.

But...

She knew that wish would never come true in this world full of tragedy.

Sirin lowered her head: "But... You don't even listen to my reasons. Maybe my reasons are quite trivial... To be honest, I'm also not sure..."

"Ssstttt, shut up. Mama doesn't want to hear your reason."

Cecilia immediately covered Sirin's mouth.

"Indecision is a good thing, which means you weigh all the risks. But, if we don't move forward, then all that worry will be for naught."

"Mama remembers that there was a foolish man who tried to become an A-rank knight just to chase a woman. Even though they had only known each other for a few days, that stupid old man still fought for his beliefs for years."

"So Sirin, what mama wants to tell you is no matter what choice you make, do it earnestly without leaving any regrets."

"At least when you give up one day, when you look back, you'll find that everything you've ever done was never entirely for nothing."

"Everything has a meaning, like the thousands of light bulbs that form the background of the buildings they occupy. They all shine beautifully, leaving an imprint in our memories."

"So Sirin, do you now understand what mama means?"

Holding hands, letting their palms get warm. Sirin gripped her hand slightly, and the worry nestled in her heart instantly disappeared.

"I understand."

Sirin smiled sweetly.

"Mama, do you want to see the comic I made?"

"Really, really!?"

"Yeah, I'll give mama the link right now. But for a physical book, it'll take a bit of time."

"It's okay! Even though mama not a Homu fan like Theresa-chan, I'm still very interested in comic storylines! I'll read all the works you made!"

"Ehh... There's no need to be like that... but, thank you."

Back walking home hand in hand with each other. The cold temperature indeed made their bodies cold, but for the hands that were joined together, the warmth between them never dispersed.

"Mama, can you keep this a secret from the others for a while? I-I'm really not ready."

"Okay! If that's the case, then this will be our secret! Mama will definitely keep this secret carefully and won't let anyone know!"

"Hehehe~ mama, thank you~"

"You're welcome my dear~"

The two of them smiled sweetly, and made a girl's secret promise between the two of them.