"Amane, wake up please."
There was a gentle voice calling his name.
In the midst of a comfortable slumber, he answered the
soft whispering voice with a short "Mm," raised his heavy
eyelids, and slowly opened his eyes.
The blurry figure of a lovely girl appeared before him,
faintly illuminated by the sunlight streaming in through the
window.
She seemed to have put one knee up on the bed to shake
him awake and was leaning forward, her hemp-colored hair
cascading around her like wisteria vines that swayed with
her every movement.
"…Mahiru?"
"Yes. Good morning."
When he called out her name to confirm it was her, she
nodded and answered in a familiar voice.
Amane didn't think he'd overslept, so he was having a
little trouble figuring out why Mahiru was in his bedroom.
She was there as if it was the most natural thing in the
world, further deepening his confusion. "…Morning. Why are you here?"
"Don't you remember what we talked about yesterday?"
Mahiru frowned slightly.
"Yesterday?" he replied, then recalled their exchange from
the previous evening.
"Beginning this Monday, could we start walking to school
together?"
Mahiru had brought up the question as they were parting
on Sunday night.
She'd looked up at him uneasily, fidgeting as if she
couldn't settle down, which made him a little nervous, too.
Mahiru had probably spoken cautiously in order to see
whether Amane was planning to conceal their relationship.
They had already talked it over and decided to go public, but
she still seemed worried about it.
As far as Amane was concerned, they had basically
confessed their love to the world already, so he hadn't even
considered keeping it a secret. Rather, he fully intended to
tell people they were dating now.
"Yeah, sure."
"R-really?"
"What would I get out of lying?"
When she had heard Amane's answer, the tinge of anxiety
in Mahiru's eyes disappeared, replaced by shades of delight. Amane's heart fluttered when he'd heard her whisper
bashfully, "I've always wanted to walk to school together,"
but she hadn't seemed to notice his agitation.
"All right, then, I'll come over to your place in the
morning," she'd said brightly. "While we're at it, we may as
well eat breakfast together."
"Oh, sweet. I get to eat Mahiru's cooking first thing in the
morning."
"It's just going to be leftovers… Is it all right if I make you
a lunch box, too?"
"I would like nothing better."
Amane would have been perfectly content with the
breakfasts that Mahiru made, so he couldn't help but feel
delighted for a chance to eat her cooking at lunch, too.
The thought that she wouldn't have to restrain herself in
front of other people anymore had Mahiru beaming with
happiness, and Amane was glad to see that whenever she'd
looked at him. At the same time, it made him feel a bit
embarrassed.
We'll start going together tomorrow, huh?
Up to that point, he had been staggering his commutes in
order to avoid giving anyone clues about his relationship
with Mahiru.
But going forward, that would no longer be necessary.
Being open about their relationship at school was sure to
make others jealous of him, which was worrying, but the most important thing was that it would make Mahiru happy.
Being by her side was enough for him.
Amane gazed at Mahiru, who was smiling happily, and
mumbled quietly, "I guess I've got my work cut out for me."
"…Ah—"
As his brain fog started to clear, Amane groaned a little
when he remembered their conversation from the previous
night.
He wasn't opposed to the idea, but seeing Mahiru first
thing in the morning surprised him and made him forget.
Mahiru watched Amane's reaction with an exasperated
look.
But she didn't seem that irritated, rather she looked
amused to be chiding Amane for his hopelessness, so Amane
pouted his lips in apology.
"Good grief, you're so forgetful… Well, go on—get dressed
and wash your face."
"Okay."
Mahiru was probably going to prepare their meals while
he did that.
Suppressing a yawn, Amane got up out of bed and took off
the shirt he was wearing. He heard a sudden shriek from
right beside him. "Hyah!"
He tossed his shirt on the bed, then looked at Mahiru,
who had her eyes firmly closed and was trembling. Her cheeks were red.
"L-listen, I told you this before, but please don't change in
front of me," she said, clearly agitated from seeing him take
off his shirt.
Amane couldn't help but smile wryly.
"I'm a guy, so I don't really mind if you see me."
"Well, I do…"
"Look, I'm not trying to show off or anything, and I'm not
going to tell you that you have to get used to it or whatever,
but we won't be able to go to a lot of summer staples like the
pool if you let this bother you."
Amane wondered how Mahiru had gotten by up until
now, since she was apparently not accustomed to seeing
boys' bodies… But since she didn't know how to swim, she
had probably always come up with some reason or another
to sit out of swim classes at school.
Amane couldn't imagine Mahiru, who was so serious by
nature, skipping a class, but since she really didn't know
how to swim, and had purposely chosen a high school where
swimming wasn't a required subject, she must have
managed somehow.
They had talked about possibly visiting the pool over the
summer, which would be difficult if she was overly
conscious. Actually, at the pool, all the boys would be half
naked. Amane was starting to worry if she would be able to
take it.
"Uh… I—I can handle it…," Mahiru responded, almost groaning, in a feeble voice. She must have also been selfconscious about her reaction. Then she timidly opened her
eyes and looked at Amane's body.
Almost on the verge of tears and shaking, with a brightred face, Mahiru groaned after peering at his upper half.
Frankly, Amane didn't think he made for a particularly
salacious tableau. He'd been exercising more and adding to
his training regimen in an effort to become a better match
for Mahiru. Compared to when they'd first met, his figure
was much more robust. Faint bulges of muscle were just
starting to show on his body. But it wasn't something so
impressive as to force Mahiru to avert her eyes.
…If she can't get used to this, it's going to mean trouble
when we go all the way.
Amane figured that was probably a long way off, but it
would still pose some difficulty if their relationship was
going to develop past a certain point.
But Amane was positive that he would also freeze in his
tracks if he ever saw Mahiru similarly exposed, so it was
probably going to be an issue for both of them.
Amane's own face was now red, as he imagined
impossible scenarios, so he spoke to Mahiru, whose face was
just as flushed. "…Uh, so, um… Would you please go make
food?"
"Yeah, I think I'll do that," she replied, scampering out of
the room as fast as she could.
After Mahiru was gone, Amane banged his head on the
nearest wall and let out a small groan. "What was she thinking, so early in the morning?"
Amane stared into the mirror. The person staring back
seemed unfamiliar somehow.
Even though he was dressed in his school uniform as
usual, Amane looked like a different person from the neck
up. Or rather, he looked like a version of himself that he only
ever showed Mahiru—a version that seemed out of place in
his uniform.
Sweeping back his black bangs, Amane teased and
adjusted his hair with his fingertips. He knew he had it easy
compared to girls his age, since he didn't have to apply
makeup or anything, but even so, he wasn't used to carefully
arranging his hair like this.
"…Amane?"
A voice called out to him from behind.
Reflected in the mirror was Mahiru, who had finished
getting ready to leave for school and had come to summon
Amane from the sink.
When he turned around and looked straight at her, he saw
that she had a slightly clouded expression.
"What's the matter?" he asked.
"…Don't you hate that?"
"Hate what?"
"…That hairstyle?" "Oh, that."
She broached the topic with some hesitation, and her
words made Amane worry.
Mahiru seemed anxious about Amane admitting to being
her "mystery man." He'd always rejected the idea of styling
his hair this way before going to school.
As far as Amane was concerned, however, he'd taken the
time to dress himself up because he'd wanted to. It would
have been a lie to say he didn't feel at least a little nervous,
but since he had resolved to stand confidently by Mahiru's
side, he wanted to go with a look that wouldn't make her
embarrassed to be seen with him.
He wasn't necessarily going to stand out as some hunk,
but this look had gotten the seal of approval from Itsuki and
Yuuta. For now, Amane was just hoping nobody would
question Mahiru's tastes in men.
"Not really; I don't hate it. Do you?" he asked.
"…I don't hate it, but…I'm just feeling a bit conflicted."
"Conflicted?"
"…I might have a hard time keeping you all to myself."
Mahiru looked undeniably sweet as she bashfully
mumbled those charming words. Amane gave a little smile
and gently stroked her head, being careful not to muss her
hair.
"Well, why not enjoy having me to yourself while you still
can?" "…I think I will."
Honestly, he had meant it as a joke, but Mahiru nodded
obediently and pressed herself against Amane's chest.
He had never expected her to agree, and he cringed a little
when he realized he had said something that sounded
presumptuous, but his lips curled naturally into a smile as
he felt her forehead against his body.
There was nothing strange about his hand moving on its
own to stroke her hair, in response to her overwhelming
cuteness.
Mahiru was about one head shorter than him and had her
face buried in his chest, clutching the fabric of his shirt so he
couldn't pull away.
But when she glanced up at him, she looked somehow
lonely.
"…You're really cool, so I feel like lots of other girls are
going to talk to you. I'm happy they'll see you for what you
really are, but…"
"Leaving aside whether I'm actually cool or not, do you
think I have eyes for anyone other than you?"
"No, I don't, but it's an emotional issue."
"Jealousy?"
When Amane asked this without thinking, Mahiru's
cheeks instantly flushed, but she affirmed his guess with a
meek yes before rubbing her forehead into his chest again. She must have been really embarrassed. Even her ears,
peeking out from her flaxen hair, were a deep red.
"It's all right. Even if another girl does talk to me, I'm not
interested in anyone but you, Mahiru."
He knew that probably wasn't enough to quell her anxiety,
but Amane really didn't think about other girls in a romantic
way. His attention would not be diverted so long as he had
this beloved girlfriend who was burning with adorable
jealousy.
Amane was naturally apathetic toward unfamiliar people
anyway, so he was confident he wouldn't even take notice of
any other girls. And the type of girl who would suddenly
show interest in him because of his new appearance was the
kind he didn't want to get to know in the first place.
"…I know that. That's why I'm reminding you of my
feelings, so there's no opening for someone to take
advantage of."
"Just don't get carried away… I don't want to let other
people see too many of your cute faces."
"…You're so quick to say things like that!"
Flustered by Mahiru's sudden burst of inexplicable anger,
Amane tried to soothe her by stroking her hair, but she beat
playfully at his chest.
"When you say things like that so casually, I just can't take
it," she exclaimed.
"What does that mean?" "It's bad for my heart."
"Hey, that's my line… And anyway, you're one to talk.
Sometimes I feel like I might die, because you fawn all over
me so naturally."
It was actually Mahiru who, along with her propensity for
touching him, had the highest destructive power.
The feeling of her soft body, the way her scent hung in the
air, and how she always gently smiled at him meant that
Amane's heart was always beating fast, like he was
constantly sprinting.
He could feel his heart thumping loudly from Mahiru's
loveliness. She must have noticed it, too, with her face
buried in his chest.
"…I always suspected that a surprise attack would be
more effective," Mahiru mumbled quietly as she pressed her
cheek tightly against his chest. "…But your heart is really
pounding hard, so as of today, I'm convinced of it," she
whispered, seeming very satisfied to know she had made his
heart race, and brushed her cheek against him.
The action was so sweet that Amane nearly groaned again.
He told himself to get a grip and stroked Mahiru's hair as a
way of redirecting the urges that arose inside of him.
After about five minutes, Mahiru seemed to be energized.
Seeing her flushed cheeks and watery eyes made Amane's
heart ache, but Mahiru appeared content, so he sequestered
his impatient feelings down deep in his chest.
"Well, should we get going?" Despite the morning distractions, they would be on time
for school, as they had given themselves plenty of time to
prepare. Even so, Amane wanted to leave soon, and when he
said so, Mahiru put on a smile and answered, "Yes." Her
skin was glowing.
It's only morning, and I'm already exhausted…
Amane didn't dislike the show of affection—actually, it
was just the opposite; he was so pleased by it that he was
wearing himself out by exercising all his self-restraint. If it
had been the weekend, he would have indulged Mahiru
further, but they had school, so he was unable to do as he
wished.
Mahiru didn't appear to have noticed Amane's
exhaustion. She seemed to be bursting with energy.
Even though he was a little tired from the morning's
various tribulations, it wasn't a bad sort of tiredness. Amane
smiled wryly, picked up his school bag, and he and Mahiru
stepped out the door together.
Feeling some strangely deep emotions about leaving the
house in school uniforms together for the first time, Amane
locked the door and looked over at Mahiru. She was
fidgeting nervously.
Her hand was still gripping the hem of his shirt.
"…Want to hold hands?"
"Yeah."
He had apparently guessed correctly. Looking at the
bashful Mahiru, he grumbled quietly, "You're so cute, damn," then casually took her backpack and slung it over his
own shoulder. With the opposite hand, he intertwined his
own fingers with Mahiru's.
She immediately looked up at him with eyes that said she
hadn't meant to make him carry her bag, but he whispered,
"I'm your boyfriend now, so you should let me do things like
this for you."
Mahiru pressed her lips tightly together in an adorable
expression of acceptance.
"You know, it feels kind of embarrassing to hold hands
like this again," Amane said.
They were leaving the apartment building and walking
their normal route to school, but they hadn't held hands like
this since their Golden Week outing, so there was a slight
awkwardness to it.
Rather than simply being her escort, Amane entwined his
fingers with Mahiru's, holding her hand in a gesture of
loving intimacy. They had held hands many times before,
but never like this, so he was naturally quite nervous.
He was worried about whether he was squeezing her hand
too tightly, or if his sweaty palms were making her
uncomfortable, but when he glanced over at Mahiru, she was
smiling cheerfully.
"It feels a little embarrassing, but I'm happy," she said.
"…Yeah."
"I've been wanting to go to school like this for a long time.
And finally being able to do that… I'm just…so happy." Walking to school side by side was such a trivial thing. But
apparently it was something Mahiru had been eagerly
anticipating, and her expression looked brighter than usual.
"And does that have much to do with me?"
Mahiru relaxed into a smile and mumbled timidly, "S-sure
it does… Because being with you is the reason why I'm
happy."
"…I see."
Amane felt his chest growing gradually hot as he realized
just how much she liked him.
He had been trying his best not to let his timidness show
on his face, but Mahiru seemed to notice, and her happy
smile broadened.
"So from now on, I'm going to be happy every day… I'm a
lucky girl."
"I feel like I should be the one saying that sort of thing."
"Well then, we're both happy, and that's cause for
celebration, don't you agree? We can finally enjoy it."
Mahiru giggled and leaned in close.
Taking care not to disturb Mahiru, Amane subtly shifted
so that there was still some room between them. With his
free hand, he gave her a pat on the head.
Although he had gotten used to walking while holding
hands, Amane was still uncomfortable getting too close in
public. Of course, he was glad to be near his girlfriend, but
he was worried about how it must look to other people if the two of them were too affectionate so early in the morning.
Trying not to let his uncertainty show on his face, Amane
squeezed Mahiru's dainty hand tightly, and they walked to
school with their arms pressed against each other.
It was the time of day where people would be commuting
to work or school, so there were a lot of students and people
in suits around. Amane was bothered by the thought that
they were all looking at them.
The closer they got to school, the more he felt like people
were staring.
"I can feel their eyes on us," Amane grumbled exhaustedly
in spite of himself.
They received a lot of different looks. Some people must
have been wondering who the boy walking hand in hand
with Mahiru was. Others were looking at the couple with
jealousy or envy in their eyes.
And while Amane had expected as much, actually
experiencing it was more uncomfortable than he had
imagined. At least not everybody who looked their way
seemed to disapprove, but as someone who had been
perfectly happy living a quiet, inconspicuous life, he was
certainly feeling unsettled.
"There's no helping it," Mahiru said. "At a glance, you
look like a changed man."
He and Mahiru, pressed close, were walking alongside
each other holding hands. Of course, calling attention to the
fact that they really were a couple was going to earn them
some stares from the other students on their way to school.But it was obvious that something had changed with Amane
since Sports Day, and although no one was asking who he
was out loud, they were watching with curious eyes.
"Do I really look that different?"
"Yes. How can I put it? You changed your hair, obviously,
but you're also standing up nice and straight, and you have a
confident expression, so the impression you make is
completely different."
"Sorry, I've always been a loser."
"Please don't put yourself down… You've always been
different. I like both versions of you, but I hate the Amane
who belittles himself."
"I'll be careful from now on; I don't like hearing that you
hate me."
"Very good."
Mahiru gave Amane a satisfied smile, and even more
stares came their way.
This time, some of them gave more menacing looks,
which made Amane's cheek twitch slightly, but they
disappeared as soon as Mahiru flashed a first-rate angelic
smile at the onlookers.
In some senses, the angel, unfazed by the attention of the
crowds, was the stronger of the two of them.
Amane adjusted his grip on Mahiru's hand and looked
straight ahead. He could still feel the prickle of staring eyes.
They would arrive at school very soon, which meant even more people would be looking. Amane's shoulders began to
ache a little.
"If this is how people are staring now, it's gonna be really
annoying once we're in the classroom."
"Better come to terms with it… Or are you saying you hate
it?"
"I don't hate it. After all, I decided to change."
When Mahiru had confessed her feelings, Amane had
known he was going to have to change his life for the better.
He'd already made up his mind to improve himself so he
could be the kind of guy who was good enough to be
Mahiru's boyfriend—and a version of himself that he
wouldn't be ashamed of.
Amane readied himself, feeling a slight stomachache
coming on. He couldn't let himself slack off; he had to
become someone worthy of her.
"…Is that so?" Mahiru murmured, squeezing his fingers
tightly.
"Huh? Mahiru?"
Amane noticed Mahiru's ears had gone slightly red, and
he was about to point that out when a familiar, cutesy voice
called out from behind. They turned around and saw
Chitose, blinking dramatically in surprise.
Wearing an expression that could best be described as
dazed, Chitose looked Mahiru over, then shifted her gaze to
examine Amane. Chitose noticed their interlocked hands and smiled in
satisfaction, "Aha!" She trotted up to them and slapped
Amane on the back enthusiastically. "Good morning! So you
finally decided to make an appearance, mystery man?"
"Shut up."
"Morning, Mahiru! I see everything went well!"
Chitose looked like she was in a great mood as she
slapped him again, fairly hard, with a wide smile.
So far they had only gotten looks of curiosity and jealousy,
so Amane's chest warmed just a little at this expression of
pure goodwill.
"Congratulations, Mahiru! I guess there was some use in
me always looking out for you!"
"I used your advice for all sorts of things."
"Sure did! Like what to do when Amane was being so
obtuse, and so on."
"…Mahiru?"
"W-well, you were really slow to realize…"
He wasn't able to make much of a counterargument.
It was his own fault for stubbornly failing to pick up on
the signals she had been sending out the whole time, so it
was no wonder she had consulted with Chitose.
"Well, it is Amane we're talking about, after all," Chitose
said as she looked him over again. He wasn't too happy about that appraisal. Chitose examined him closely,
probably because it was the first time she had ever seen him
style his hair properly."Wow, even so, I think this is the first time I've ever seen
Amane all dressed up like Mahiru's mystery man!"
"…What did you call me?"
"That's what Itsuki and Yuuta called it. Mm-hmm, you
know, you're not at Itsuki's level, but you still look pretty
good!"
Chitose smiled again and whacked him on the back. It was
her way of showing that she cared. Amane took this as
encouragement—and reassurance that he was the same as
always even if his outward appearance had changed—and his
lips curled slightly upward.
"So as far as you're concerned, Itsuki's number one,
right?"
"Of course he is! And you're Mahiru's number one, so no
complaints, right?"
"All right, as long as I'm in that position, I'm happy."
Amane had no interest in becoming Chitose's number
one. He was perfectly satisfied so long as Mahiru said he was
the most important person to her.
He glanced over at Mahiru, who was still holding his
hand. She put her face close to his arm and whispered
quietly, "…Amane is my number one." Maybe she was
slightly embarrassed to announce it in front of Chitose—her
cheeks flushed a bit.
"The blushing maiden! You're so cute, Mahiru. If Amane
wasn't here, I'd give you a big hug and shower you with love."
"Yeah, yeah. That's not something to do on the way to
school; you can hug her all you want once we get to the
classroom."
"Huh? Yay! Mahiru, I got permission from your
boyfriend! I'm gonna squeeze you tight later!"
"Ah, o-okay, sure, just—be gentle…?"
Mahiru nodded with bewilderment once it was somehow
decided that she was going to get hugged, and Chitose
started walking along beside her, grinning from ear to ear.
She was probably eager to congratulate Mahiru.
Satisfied that the two of them were getting along
harmoniously, Amane turned away and started to look
around.
There were more eyes on them than ever before.
…Bet we're going to be hit with a barrage of questions
when we get to the classroom.
Amane smiled bitterly but made sure the two girls
wouldn't see it, as he imagined what would be coming soon
in several minutes under a deluge of stares.
Once they made it to the school building, they were met
with even more looks, and even though Chitose was by their
side, the sight of Amane and Mahiru holding hands and
walking down the hall naturally attracted a lot of attention.
Chitose reacted nonchalantly, "Whoa, you're really the
center of attention." But Amane wasn't accustomed to all the staring.
Mahiru strolled along confidently, accustomed to drawing
people's gazes. Their tightly clasped hands were in full view
—and the walk to the classroom was something like a public
debut.
As they proceeded down the hallway, Amane could hear
voices.
"The angel is with a guy…"
"Shiina looks different than usual…"
"Was there always a guy like that here?! That's a different
guy from the one at Sports Day, isn't it…?"
Of course, Amane was actually the same boy who Mahiru
had pointed out as her important person on Sports Day.
Mahiru didn't respond to any of their comments, but she
did show her sweet, angelic smile to everyone around them.
"Amane?"
"Hmm?"
"We'll arrive soon. Are you doing all right?"
Mahiru posed the question as they approached their
classroom.
"We're already showing off that we're dating, and I've
prepared myself. I'll be fine."
"…Is that so?" "Everyone's gonna be so surprised!" Chitose interrupted.
"Imagine, Amane showing up all handsome the Monday
after Mahiru made that huge declaration. I was surprised,
too!" Chitose gave an easygoing smile.
Amane realized that he probably should have contacted
her and told her, as well as Itsuki and Yuuta, and felt slightly
regretful.
He had put it off because he'd felt awkward about
announcing that he and Mahiru had started dating, but
looking back, he was sure he ought to have informed the
friends who had been looking out for them first.
"…Chitose?"
"Hmm?"
"Sorry, um, for not letting you know."
"Nah, you got together after Sports Day was over, right? I
figured the two of you were busy making out, plus you're the
type who would rather tell us face-to-face and not over text
messages, so don't worry about it!"
Amane had mixed feelings about Chitose's certainty that
they had been "busy making out," but it was true that the
two of them had spent the previous day snuggled up
together, thinking of nothing else.
Besides, as Chitose had said, Amane had wanted to
personally share the news with his friends who had looked
out for them in various ways rather than over the phone.
And Chitose had figured it out before he'd said anything and
run up to tease them, so it was less of an announcement and
more like she was just confirming it was real. "…Thank you."
"My pleasure! Heh-heh, you should have a little more
respect for me; it wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that I
was a central figure in hooking you two up!"
"Ha-ha. Allow me to repay the great Chitose with a crepe
from that place you like in front of the station sometime."
"I accept your offer!"
As Amane engaged in some banter with Chitose, he and
Mahiru arrived at the door to their classroom.
"Ah, good morning, Shii…na?"
The first to notice them were some girls who were
hanging out nearby.
They were sitting on their desks, talking excitedly about
something, but they looked up when they realized Mahiru
had entered the room…then noticed Amane holding her
hand.
Their eyes traveled from the clasped hands to Amane's
face.
The looks on the girls' faces showed that they were
wondering who he was.
That wasn't surprising, Amane had never dressed up in
front of his classmates before. Some of the girls in class had
probably seen him around town, but the Amane Fujimiya
they knew from school had never looked like that, so in their
eyes, he must have seemed like a stranger. However, the incident at Sports Day the week before,
where Mahiru made it public that Amane was her
"important person," was still fresh in everybody's minds.
And Amane had also admitted to being the guy they'd seen
with Mahiru during Golden Week.
If they put a little thought into it, they should have been
able to make the connection that the young man currently
holding hands with Mahiru was indeed Amane.
Before they had completed the mental calculus needed to
reach that conclusion, Amane let go of Mahiru's hand and
put his bag down on his desk.
He did it to show everyone very clearly who he was.
Once they realized, the classroom became quieter than
usual. Even the classmates who were usually bursting with
conversation had their eyes trained on Amane.
"Good morning, Fujimiya."
Just as the silence was starting to feel awkward, Yuuta
and Itsuki approached Amane, wearing their usual smiles.
He was suddenly extremely grateful for his two friends,
who not only recognized him but greeted him like they
always did.
"Mornin', guys."
"What's going on, Amane? Did you finally accept your
fate?"
"Come on, Yuuta, that's no way to put it… It's more like,
he caught her, but he got caught as well." Amane had consulted with the two of them many times.
And Itsuki had been the first one to recognize that he had
feelings for Mahiru. The two boys had been able to tell what
was going on the instant Amane and Mahiru had walked into
the classroom holding hands, especially with Amane having
styled his hair in what they had named his "mystery man"
look.
"Congratulations, Fujimiya. We've only become friends
recently, so I can't say it's actually been that long, but I was
starting to get impatient. I'm excited that it's finally
happening."
"You don't know the half of it, Yuuta! I've been looking
out for him for like half a year. There's a limit to how much a
guy can take, waitin' on this coward!"
"Oh, well, I'm sooo sorry to make you two wait," Amane
answered sarcastically.
Itsuki nodded seriously and mumbled, "It took you long
enough." It seemed like his friend might have actually gotten
rather emotional after watching Amane and Mahiru dance
around each other for the past six months.
For better or worse, Itsuki had helped Amane and pushed
him along—more accurately, kicked him forward—so Amane
was grateful. Itsuki had been a little too meddlesome
sometimes, but even so, he had always been there to
encourage Amane whenever he was at a standstill. Among
all their friends, Itsuki was probably the one who was most
invested in their new relationship.
"So you made up your mind to go with that look, huh?"
"Yeah." "Man, it seems weird; I'm not used to seeing you done up
like that."
"You're right. I only got to see it the other day."
Yuuta had seen Amane dressed up for Golden Week
almost a month ago. But that had been the only time, so
Amane wasn't surprised that his friends weren't used to it
yet. The only one who was used to it was Mahiru.
Speaking of Mahiru, Chitose was hanging all over her,
rubbing her head teasingly as their other classmates shuffled
over to swarm around them. Amane was some distance
away, but the classroom was so quiet that he could hear
what they were asking her. Even if he hadn't, though, he
could have guessed what they were discussing.
"Hey, Fujimiya!"
As Amane was staring sympathetically in Mahiru's
direction, someone else called his name.
When he turned toward the voice, several girls had
surrounded him. They were looking him over, not even
attempting to hide the immense curiosity in their eyes.
Amane wasn't very good at dealing with the opposite sex,
so situations like this had always been bad for his stomach.
However, he had been steeling himself for something like
this to happen, so he answered without letting his inner
thoughts show.
"…What is it?"
"Wow, it really is Fujimiya! You look a bit different, so we
were surprised!" "Yeah, this is a totally new look!"
"It really is! Before, you were pretty plain!"
"Whoa, it's rude to call him plain."
"Ah, sorry, Fujimiya."
"It's fine; you're not wrong," Amane said with a wry smile.
He was almost overwhelmed by the energy of the girls but
tried his best not to get swept away.
What they were saying was the truth, so he didn't argue
back or get angry about it. He was the one who chose to be
plain, and personality-wise, he had never wanted to stand
out, so in class, he had remained the quiet person who was
always just kind of there.
Anyone in this class would have viewed him as reserved
and unremarkable.
That had suddenly changed, so it was understandable
there was some confusion.
"You really committed to a new style, huh?" one of the
girls asked.
"Guess so," he answered. "Is it weird?"
"Not at all! I think you look much better."
"Actually, you're hot now; I was surprised!"
"Well, if you think so, then it must have been worth the
effort."
All their compliments made Amane feel pretty embarrassed, but it wouldn't do him any good to disagree—
he had learned that being too humble could become a toxic
habit over time, so he gratefully accepted the compliments.
He nodded, trying his best to maintain a gentle
expression, and the girls laughed like they were enjoying
themselves.
"Hey, hey, can I ask you one thing?"
"As long as it's something I can answer, go ahead," he
replied.
Finally, here it comes.
It was a question someone was bound to ask sooner or
later, so he planned to answer now, to make the situation
clear.
The rest of their classmates seemed to be straining their
ears to hear, so if he made the announcement here, it was
sure to circulate throughout the school.
"Are you and Mahiru dating? I heard you came to school
holding hands today…"
"Yes, we started dating last week. Thanks for asking."
When he clearly affirmed their suspicions, a chorus of
shrill shrieks filled the room. He thought he could also hear
the boys behind him making noises of despair and
resentment, but he ignored them.
At any rate, he was sure the boys would have their own
questions later, so Amane decided he would deal with them
then."Wha—? How did you get with Shiina…?"
"We've shared a connection since last year. We just
naturally became close. Right, Mahiru?"
"Yes."
Mahiru approached with a smile. That didn't mean that
the barrage of questions was over, but maybe she had
concluded that it would speed things along if the girls saw
her conversing with Amane.
She moved over next to him and stood close enough that
it was hard to tell if they were touching, then flashed a lovely
smile at the girls who had been interrogating him.
"It's difficult to explain, but all sorts of things happened
between us, and we became a couple. My feelings had been
unrequited for a long time, so I'm very, very happy… So I
was sort of bragging. That's why we came in holding hands."
Just like when they were walking to school, Mahiru placed
her hand on Amane's, and he smiled slightly and squeezed
her hand.
"Actually, I think I was the one who fell for you first,"
Amane said.
"Oh, I'm sure I was first," Mahiru teased. "Well, in either
case, you took forever to confess."
"I do regret that; I feel sorry about it. But I've made my
intentions clear, so please forgive me."
"…I believe I was the one who took the first step, though." "Next time, I'll be sure to do it right."
"Do what, exactly?"
"…I…uh…guess we'll see."
If Mahiru was thinking about what the next step in their
relationship might be, she didn't show it… She just acted like
it was a mystery.
Amane had something in mind, but it wasn't the kind of
thing he was going to say out loud. He didn't even feel like
he was old enough for something so serious just yet, so he
tucked the thought away in a far corner of his mind. Amane
was certain his feelings for Mahiru would never fade or
change, no matter how many years went by. He intended to
be the one to ask her, when the time was right, so he decided
that the whole matter could wait.
Mahiru gave Amane a dissatisfied look when he dodged
her question, but he stroked her hair, and she seemed to be
mollified.
"…You're avoiding the issue again."
"I'll say it someday; be patient."
"Always making me wait."
She sounded disappointed, but her expression was one of
pure delight.
But then she seemed to realize something, and she quickly
covered her face with her hands as she flushed bright red.
Amane wondered what had caused her to do that, but when
he looked around the room, he saw their classmates staring,
speechless.
They were all staring at Amane and Mahiru.
—Oops.
Sure, he had been meaning to show off his relationship
with Mahiru and cement his standing as her boyfriend, but
he hadn't meant for them to have the kind of conversation
they usually had at home in front of everybody.
Out of habit, he patted her head without thinking, and it
was easy to see what their classmates thought of him
touching her like that.
"…Watch out, Amane—you're flirting, and you don't even
realize it."
Even Itsuki was telling him to dial it back—and he was
one half of the original "cringe couple."
Flustered, Amane removed his hand from Mahiru's head
and bit down on his lip in an attempt to keep his cheeks
from heating up.
In the blink of an eye, news that Amane and Mahiru had
started dating spread throughout the school. For better or
worse, thanks to some gossipy classmates and their display
of affection on the way to school, the rumors were
confirmed.
Whenever Amane walked down the hall, he would hear
people whispering, so he felt extremely uncomfortable.
"Well, I'm sure it'll die down in a few days," Makoto said,
gazing at the uproar, one step back from the crowd. "I'm sure it will." Kazuya nodded. "Ultimately, people get
bored of talking about the same thing over and over. And
something else will come along, and everyone will forget all
about it."
"I sure hope you're right," Amane groaned. "It's gonna be
awful if every day is like this."
Even during break times, people were whispering things
at a distance, and it really bothered him.
"Well, I'm sure the questions will stop eventually, but you
might find yourself getting swarmed for another reason soon
enough," Makoto said.
"Another reason?" Amane asked.
"I think you might be considered a hot commodity now."
"But I'm already taken."
He was already thinking about his future with Mahiru, so
even if another girl tried to catch his eye, he was sure
nothing would happen. Nobody could compete with Mahiru
for his attention. He couldn't imagine choosing anyone over
her.
What Amane didn't want was for people to think he might
be insincere. The thought really bothered him.
"Well, there are times when love isn't logical."
"Hmm, it's rare to hear you say something like that,
Makoto," Kazuya remarked.
"How rude. You know, I bet it's impossible to ignore your feelings, if you really, really like someone, even if you know
they're already taken. Love is like a reflex, or something. Of
course, sometimes you can't act on that impulsiveness,
though," Makoto continued as he looked over at a group of
girls who were huddled together chatting, then sighed.
"Well, I don't think the two of you have anything to worry
about," he added.
"I agree," said Kazuya. "Flaunting it in front of everybody
the way that you two did will probably discourage anyone
else from trying. But you know, Amane, I never would have
thought you'd act like that in public."
"Please forget about that…!"
Amane was struck with embarrassment thinking about his
exchange with Mahiru that morning. They had been trying
to make it clear that they were together, but Amane had
certainly not meant to pat Mahiru's head or come as close as
he had to letting on that he was already thinking about
marriage.
Mahiru had done her best to deflect the attention, but
Itsuki and Makoto had apparently noticed anyway. They'd
made some astonished remarks about how in love the couple
must be.
"Well, Amane, now everyone knows you're the only one
who gets to see that side of Shiina. That counts as a win, at
least?"
"…You're probably right, but even so, it's still pretty
embarrassing."
"Says the guy who came to school holding her hand." "That's different," Amane insisted. That kind of thing was
a lot more mortifying when it was unintentional.
"Aw, you shouldn't feel down. Actually, I bet there are
some people who are grateful you made such a scene."
"Grateful?"
"Sure, the rest of the girls will be happy that all the boys
who had their eyes on Shiina will finally start looking
elsewhere."
The thought had actually crossed Amane's mind already.
Not every girl in their class looked up to Mahiru. Amane
knew some of them had complicated feelings toward her, at
least in part because she monopolized the attention of the
boys in their class. Mahiru had always been single,
unattainable, and had shown no one any affection, but now
that she told everyone she had a special relationship with
Amane and made it clear that she didn't have eyes for
anyone else, some of the animosity the girls held toward her
seemed to have subsided.
"It must be hard for girls to deal with all that stuff,"
Amane remarked. "Well, now that that's settled, I hope
Mahiru can be just one of the girls. She felt so embarrassed
being called an angel; she honestly hated it."
"She really did hate that, huh?"
"Yeah, no surprise there. Even Yuuta makes a face when
you call him a prince."
In his heart, Amane said a little prayer for Yuuta, who
probably had the same problems as Mahiru. "…What are you guys talking about?" Mahiru was headed
their way. She must have finished her conversation with
Chitose.
Although it seemed like she hadn't heard what the boys
had been discussing, Mahiru saw that Amane was blushing
and realized someone must have reminded him of their
interaction that morning. She gave the three of them, Amane
included, a suspicious look.
"Oh, Shiina? We weren't discussing anything particularly
important. We were talking about how you're just one of the
girls now."
"And how on earth did you arrive at that topic…?" Mahiru
asked.
"Ah, well, um…," Amane stammered, "…we were just
talking about how everyone seems to have finally realized
that you're not some angel; you're just an ordinary girl."
Amane and the other boys explained their conversation to
Mahiru, putting aside what had happened that morning.
Mahiru nodded. "I see. You know, I was always aware that
some people…idolized me. So I'm sure what you said is
probably true," she said, keeping her voice down.
Makoto and Kazuya both made faces that said they
understood perfectly.
They had been friends with Yuuta for a long time, so they
most likely had seen all sorts of things along the way. They
probably had been concerned about Mahiru as well, who had
been going through almost the same sort of problems. "But I'm not really worried about what other people say
about me anymore," Mahiru added.
"Oh, really?"
"Nope… As long as I'm the only girl for Amane, nothing
else matters," she replied quietly.
Only Amane, Makoto, and Kazuya were close enough to
hear her.
But her words had been imbued with a great deal of
destructive power.
Amane wasn't the only one who was enchanted by
Mahiru's wide and bashful smile, with her slightly flushed
cheeks.
Makoto and Kazuya made noises of surprise, and the
other students who had been glancing at them occasionally
also stared at Mahiru with their mouths hanging open.
"Fujimiya, do something about your girlfriend…," his
friends groaned.
Amane knew they were right, but even so, he couldn't do
anything about the collateral damage, and anyway, he was
the one suffering the worst of it, so he was busy desperately
trying to calm down his pounding heart.
"…You're really in deep, huh?" Makoto murmured in
exasperation.
Her cheeks still bright red, Mahiru smiled even wider and
nodded.