Fears within Part 2. (No Gods, No Masters, No Chains)

After that day my life started to become darker. My relationship with family members started to transform from cooperation and family bonds to fear and obedience. I have turned into bloodhound of our family since gramps made clear to everyone whom he sees as inheritor of his position.

Since then I started spending more time with gramps discussing business, politics and future plans of our family. And not always they were bright ones, mostly it was grey with quite a lot of dark moments. Espionage, counter espionage, bribery, corruption. You named and I have seen it all. Family and friends? Hahah, only tools to be used for the greater good of our family and clan. And if tool stops working or "misbehaves" it must be replaced. It was rough school of "real life" which I hated. On top of golden pyramid there is only bloody altar and corpses of unlucky bastards.

The worst thing about such upbringing is that a lot of things that used to make me shiver or feel shame started to be viewed by me as normal. Just another moment of daily routine of elites. The only thing that helped me to keep at least some sanity was my "student life" in university. Only there I started to notice difference in relationship within family and ordinary people's lives. No need to analyse every word, seek for hidden meaning or etc. Simple chat and laughter. I started to get jealous. I also wanted such simple and peaceful life.

One day I have got recording of gramps negotiating with some of his business partners and colleagues. In the beginning it seemed normal, greedy people being greedy and so on. But once I heard my name and word marriage things got nasty. Old shit sold me like some sort of a cattle and laughed saying that I will follow his orders obediently.

"You crossed the line, gramps." - I muttered and started to plan my payback and escape. All my fears of having to face grandfather disappeared. I just had enough, I am not a cattle to be sold at market like my parents. I am predator that will make you old fucks bleed for thinking of putting me on leash forever.

Where to aim if you want to make rich person cry? Wealth. Where to aim if you want to make really rich and powerful cry like a little bitch? Reputation. So I started to collecting all dirty laundry on my gramps activities. Everything, from lobbying to outright bribery. But I wanted to make him really bleed so I started aiming for his buddy to whom he sold me. Provocative photos, documents with shady deals, hidden life of my future to be wife. Every piece of dirt and shirt to make white dress go dark. I have spend all my secret reserves on my coup de grace. But finally everything is ready. Today is the day of my freedom. Fuck reputation and collateral damage. I just want to be finally free of fear and leash on my neck. Burning bridges behind my back will illuminate my path.

"Today we will celebrate union of our great families. Let's...." - grandfather started speaking when I interrupted him.

"Apologies but this is not possible. I have some evidence that bride is not such a wonderful as we think. Let me show you some of the least disgusting evidence."

Hahaha, gramps got so angry and shocked that his face turned red in an instant. Even redder it got after I turned some hardcore adult movie with bride as a main character. Yeah, girl had quite an imagination and now everyone can check it out and wide screen.

It may seem not a big deal since everyone knows that there are no saints amongst elites. Prostitutes, alcohol, drugs, cheating and sexual deviations. But it becomes a problem when it goes public. Moreover thanks for some celebrities and press reps it becomes one nasty reputational dirt bomb.

I got closer to gramps and started whispering.

"I hope you enjoy the show, old fossil. Now your dear partner to whom you wanted to sell me like a breeding bull and your loyal dog will not be able to clear his name for eternity."

"Listen here, you little shit....."

"Shhhssh, this is just a beginning. Just keep watching." - I turned on a mic and started speaking to guests.

"Dear guests, I have to say that this is only part of unpleasant surprises." - I pressed a button and adult movie changed to camera recording on which my almost father in law discussed how he is going to strip my family of every penny through marriage and manipulations.

And as cherry on top just to surprise guests a bit more I turned on recording of some weird orgy involving girls, boys and few fat pigs. Yeah, real pigs. I hope they enjoy it as this costed me 1.5 million dollars to get this recording.

I turned back to grandfather and started whispering.

"Listen here you old fuck. I am leaving you and this condemned family. I have so much dirt on you and your ass lickers that today's show is nothing more than fight between rugrats. It will fucking ruin everything you created. So don't you even fucking think about trying to get me back on your leash or cause any problems. For you I am gone. Now enjoy the show." - after finishing my liberation speech I just left the ceremony palace.

Outside of building I looked at sunset and roared like a wild beast. All my fears and anxiety I have accumulated over past years left me with this one roar. Finally I am free. I can live my own life. No Gods, No Masters, No Chains. Only me.

Suddenly my mind went dark and then I saw myself back at Fort Grim. I am back at psychological facility.

"Congratulations on fighting your fears. You had one hell of a rollercoaster according to readings. Once you were close to clinical death, your heart just stopped beating for few seconds but then you got back to normal."

Yeah, what can I say, it was one deadly trip to my past. But now I actually feel better and lighter? As if anvil placed on my heart got removed. No hidden fear or supressed panic attacks. I am totally free just like that day.

"I am free. Totally free." - I whispered. Now I can truly live my own life without fear of going back to personal hell created by my family.

"Welcome to Elites." - one of instructors raised his hand for handshake and I accepted it.

"It was one long path." - I replied with a large smile.