A Paranoid Clown

[This was just a sudden idea, tell me your thoughts if you all want I can continue this, well piece out I'm going to finish writing the next chapter of my original work, you like Yandere go a check it out, it's called Gifted: The boy loved by systems]

Day 122

11:36 P.M

Somewhere Inside the Mathers mansion

Dear Jornal my Name is Roswal L. Mathers, I know this might sound crazy, I know this might sound atrocious, but I must release my fears and frustrations upon these blank page that does not know the fear of man that lurks in the dark and the lingering abyss, it's been over six months since my teacher spoke to me, and send news of the boy of prophecy that will change the world in his dark image within the book of wisdom, in it were a vile description of a monster that takes everything in return for a wish most desired.

I saw use in the boy's existence, I saw use in the boy's very being, people, as I know it, are nothing but pawns, that was the way I have lived my life for a dream yet unrecognized for the past 400 years, I gave up my humanity for the sake of one person I wish to see so dearly, but I'm afraid that I myself have become nothing but a pawn for that monster misdeed.

What is It? where did it come from? why is it so evil? the answer is simple it doesn't need a reason, it is clear it feeds off the pain, suffering, fear, and sanity of others.

But even so, many opportunities present themselves to know what it was, but I do not dare to comprehend much less understand its existence, if I had to choose what to do, I would erase my memory of its existence entirely, no I might just burn my entire brain to ashes, as that thing is the very embodiment of mankind's folly and wickedness.

Why did it come to this world? why did I anger it? and why is it after us, well it is simple it just wants to see us burn, and once we do burn it will rewind the process all over again, and try new and even more creative ways to finish us off again?

The cycle of never-ending madness, and the horrifying and nauseating fear grows thicker by the day, I am afraid that I don't have much longer to live, hell I wouldn't even mind dying right now, because during these past four months since I had shared a roof with it, I have learned there are far worse things than death.

If anything the monster hiding behind the skin of a weak-looking boy that refers to itself as Natsuki Subaru has already marked the world, ironically enough only I can see it because I am nothing more than a food source for its incomprehensible self.

He, no it, is like a dangerous and contagious Virus once expose to it there is no turning back, I don't want to die, but if I can free myself from the torment that it is putting me through, then, by all means, my dream and my life till now truly meant nothing at all, but at least I will be free maybe, hopefully.

I have been hiding, in this room for a total of four months, my food supply has long run out, so I feast on my flesh to prolong my life, if only a little, or is it proof that I am still scared of death despite my twisted enlightenment, I am a shame to say this but it brought back the humanity I once possess while at the same time completely destroyed it, my blood quenches my thirst if only a little.

I'm thirsty.

I'm scared.

I'm lonely

Teacher, help me, free me, I can't take it anymore.

Rammm, Rammm, Rammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

Death burns Gore Vile's destruction oversees the destruction.

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Day 139

Dear journal this might be my last... day... I can't take it anymore, I need to run, the window... the window... I have to escape...

But before I go let me give you one last word of advice to whoever reads this foolish clown's last words.

Never call its name, because it will find you.

If you start seeing things, acknowledge it exists because everything you see is real at least that way you can find reason in your own insanity

Never look it in its eyes or you will be bewitched by the madness, and obsess with something you can't escape from.

Never anger it for you shall end up mad like me.

And don't give in to the voices in your head.

Ha what was that knocking on the door oh God, oh sweet merciful divine dragon, it has found me, oh lord, oh Echidna, it's here to finish me off Stay away from me.

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My apologies I'm tired I'm running, eyes of many nightmares untold are following me, I have run out of ink so I'm using my blood as a pen, I have already eaten my arms, so I'm using magic to make my thoughts manifest on paper.

It's right behind me, it's after my soul, I can't escape it, I can't avoid it, there is no point in running yet I still run.

Agh no no no nonononononono onono ono nononono, helpmescaredidontwanttodieHelp!!!

Aggggg my legs it got my legs, it got me, it got me.

What was that sound, oh no, come out just come out already, that laughter Fuck... Al goa, Al goa, Al goa, Al goa, Al goa, Al goa, Al goa.

The ember of my most powerful fireball spell went off but to no avail, I can't kill it much less see it, the forest darkness wasn't making it anymore easier as well.

But then I heard, something coming from the bushes.

Subaru please just stop this madness... ha no who are you, your not Subaru.

What the hell, why are you of all people here?

Why are you looking at me like that?

No way, I see, no are you a servant of that man yes it would make sense, no way, so I wasn't even worth his time to make him finish me off personally.

The sound of chains.

Awww!

Shit did he corrupt your mind as well?

What do you mean you're doing this on your own accord, dammit, your watching this aren't you Subaru is this some game to you.

No like hell, am dying to the person I took in and manipulated to do my bid...

Awww, shit... my eye hurts, You crazy bitch, why I don't deserve this I only want to see my teacher my vision, is bleak I'm dying I'm losing blood.

Ha... why are you here as well, oh no don't tell me he got you too.

No....no... stay away from me.

Blaghhnn.... damn drill loli.

Why are you doing this to me, ahhhh this hurts stop crushing my bones.

Wait don't push that in my ass.

Awww Awwwwww!!!!

But as I scream yet another person merges, oh god my rear hurts.

Ha, come on don't tell me he got you too no nonononononono... what are planning to do with that washcloth...

You monsters, all of you got like this because of that man, shit.... don't come near me you washcloth devil ohaaghh... I can't breathe I'm losing my sight.... the taste of dirty water entering my throat.... no I don't want to die like this.

I Hate y...

[??? Pov]

"What a tragic way to go."

Said a certain red hair man who had a disturbed look on his face as he watch onwards at the deceased family head of the Mathers family, which was Roswal L Matter.

"My God, do really think Subaru did this nya?"

"No way, Subaru is a hero who aids us in taking down the white whale, and seeing the journal that the Clown use to write his experience at the mansion before his death, it would seem that some washcloth devil killed him.

"Washcloth devil is that some type of Mabeast nya."

"No, I think someone tortured the guy, then finish him off with a washcloth, talk about cruel and creative."

"Well, who is the washcloth devil then nya?"

"I don't know, but Ram is devasted that for sure."

"Can't you use one of your divine protection to instantly find the murder nya, you are the sword saint after all nya?"

"It's not as easy as you think Felix, I have already tried it."

"What... isn't your divine protection supposed to tell you the answers to everything."

"Yes... it was kind of weird because the way things went down here, was as if the murder, well according to the Mathers Journal was done in by three people so the murders were well prepared and destroyed any evidence that would have led back to them."

"This washcloth devil sounds kind of scary if he or she can even plot to make the sword saint divine protection not to work against them."

"They're a lot of ways to make sure a divine protection doesn't work the way they do, but one thing is for sure though."

"And what might that be Nya?"

"Whoever did this is a monster with little regard for human life, look at the face of horror that is plastered on the Mathers's face, the pure shock of the way he died scars his soul even after death, well that's what I think when I look at it."

"But then and again, the journal is evident that he was, falling into the pit of insanity."

"Do you think so, do really not believe, that nothing in that journal My BELOVED MASTER WROTE WAS TRUE, AND YOU CALL YOURSELF A SWORD SAINT, THAT MONSTER DID THIS, HE DID THIS IM TELLING YOU, EVER SINCE THAT THING CAME INTO OUR LIVES NOTHING HAS BEEN THE SAME SINCE...sob...sob... Roswal sama I was a fool I should have never left your side... I'm a failure, I had one job and I fail you."

Shouted a certain red hair Oni, who broke down in tears, as she watches her master's corpse laid out in the middle of the forest, all his limbs were missing his right eye was crushed, and a lot of sharp things were up his ass, and it looks like his face was beaten in with chain or something.

His spine was brutally crushed as well, his face had a horrified expression on it that could give anyone nightmares, it was evident that he was eaten partially by Mabeast as well.

"Ms. Ram I know you are hurting right now, but it was clear that the Mather was going insane, some of the things that are in this journal are hard to believe we really can't apprehend Subaru, I can't bring myself to believe that Subaru is capable of warping reality as if it was a game, the guy gate is broke he is a cripple magic-user."

(A/N): No offense to the Ram fans but I hate Ram as a character the bitch is dumb and beyond saving, I wish it was her that got her name eaten instead, but anyway this is just a fanfic, so let's have a vote, kill Ram, or remodel Ram, I can at least tolerate purge king Ram.

"Bull fucking Shit! that's what he wants you to believe Reinhard you have to believe me, you have to destroy that monster right now, I have seen it with my own eyes, the things that go on in this mansion, are only things people of the witch-cult would do."

"I will look into it ok Ms. Ram, but we don't have sufficient evidence, I have also Interrogated both Subaru, your sister, and even lady Beatrice, of course, I also use multiple divine protection, and Subaru and Beatrice are innocent."

"No, they are not, you have to believe me, my master wasn't going crazy he did something to make him that way, every night before he isolates himself in the safe room, he is plagued by incomprehensible nightmares, you can't even phantom much less comprehend, the journal alone is proof that Subaru the culprit."

Stated Ram in both a furious and pleading tone, her eyes were swollen from crying so much while her hair was in a mess because she was chasing Subaru down the village, but the bastard escaped because she soon run out of stamina.

"Sigh ok then let me read a random page using the divine protection of the Narrator to prove how far Roswal was gone."

With that said Reinhard began to read like a professional Narrator.

[Day 12: In times like these I recall looking back to the past as I recalled my teacher's most famous quote "Why must love fade?" the quote itself has many meanings, in the form of a puzzling question, some of which mean that no matter how hard she tries she is never satisfied with the result of the outcome, always wanting more, even if she most traverse deeper into the unknown, and when I think about the unknown I instantly think about Natsuki Subaru I must know what he is, and where the hell he came from, he is without a doubt the key to the truth I desire.]

[But for now, I shall take a step back, reason be he has send fort a warning, because right now I'm been chased by a giant monster, that over 25 meters tall, it looks like a giant tree that has taken humanoid form, but the weirdest thing is, it had two Siren media for heads, it imitates the voice of those closest to you, thankfully I destroyed it using my most powerful spell, but the craziness doesn't end there, no it has just begun.]

"Now Ms. Ram I have never heard of a monster with two Siren for heads do you see where I am coming from, your plea is understandable but most of these things that Roswal is saying are just a delusion, it has to be, there no way Subaru is a reality warper that can bring fort a monster of this level and can cause a vivid and horrendous mess that the Mathers has vividly explain in his journal."

"So you are saying I'm crazy?"

"No, I'm saying you're just confused, you should take it easy, I know this hard time for you...

"Yo."

But just as Reinhard, was about to finish the talk, a certain raven-colored black hair boy came, wearing a tracksuit, he had a sad face, and behind him was a certain blue hair maid, she had an emotionless face while looking at her sister as if wanting to kill her.

Meanwhile, Ram rushed at Subaru as she fired a wind blade in his direction Reinhard instantly save Subaru, While Rem kick Ram in the face while sitting on her back to make sure she can't move much less hurt Subaru.

But that didn't stop her from slandering Subaru.

"You fucking bastard, I swear I'm going to expose you, I swear I'm going to kill you, you might fool them but you can't fool me, I don't care if you are some evil God, I will kill you, I will kill you and save Rem while I'm at it, you hear me I will kill y...

Bap!!

But before she finishes, Rem knocks Ram out by chopping her neck with her hand, as she grabs her by the hair and drags her away, but not before saying.

"Let me apologize on my sister's behalf for showing you something so unsightly, she is just confused about the whole situation, as you all might have figured out by now thanks to her weird behavior, both her and the margrave were actually in a sexual relationship that why she is so hurt by it, but apart from that I shall take her to rest now."

With that said Rem dragged Ram by the hair as if she was nothing to her, and when they were out of sight Subaru said.

"Damn she hates me."

"Well like her sister said her man just died in such an embarrassing way nya, and he was covered with the delusion that you did it as well, it's only natural nya."

"I wasn't even aware of the Margrave death till this morning, it's kind of terrifying who would do such a horrible thing to such a great, kind, and honest man like him."

"The washcloth devil nya."

Felix stated

"The washcloth devil what the hell is that?"

"We don't know but whoever this washcloth devil is, must be a really dangerous person, to think he or she can kill the Margrave with nothing but a washcloth."

"Sigh a petty maybe I should leave Lungunica, find a different place to live far away from the people who I call friends, I feel as if my presence is just making everyone unhappy, thanks to these curse eyes of mine."

"No Subaru you don't have to do that, it wasn't your fault you were born with eyes that can charm anyone, you don't have to isolate yourself anymore, just leave this to me I will definitely find the murderer if it is the last thing I do."

Stated Reinhard as he clench his fist tight in anger and determination.

"You really are a nice person Reinhard, but I bring too much destruction were ever I go with this eye, of mine that's why I decide I shall leave this place maybe go somewhere far away from civilization at least that way I won't hurt anyone anymore, it for the better anyways."

"You don't need to do that nya, what will the other candidates say, if you leave it akin to you hurting them as well nya my lady will be devastated nya."

"Yea like what Felix Said my lady Felt would also be devastated as well, that's why just lay low I will figure something out."

"Thanks, guys, you all are the best friends a man can ask for in these sad times."

"But anyway Subaru, you should check Rem, she looks really mad at Ram for some reason."

"Yea we got this Nya."

Stated Felix as he gave me a thumbs up.

With that said Subaru walk away from Reinhard and Felix as they continue their investigation, and when he was far away from them, his face made a menacing and evil smile as he laugh to himself.

"Hahahahahahahahahaha ahahahaha... serve you, right clown, with this I can have Echidna all to myself, that and I finally avenge my fallen brothers who went through multiple hell because of you, don't workry my children, there shall come a day when I the God of all Subarus shall bring you all Justice, this Roswal is just the first step, to universal domination, I can kill him even more in the other universes as well."

"Although I'm having a lot of fun right now, hmmm..... if I want my eldritch power to grow, I need to invoke more chaos and fear in the world, the witch-cult hmmm, maybe I should rewrite the religion while I'm at it, I'm sure my boo won't mind if another God joins the ranks."

"Although I need more Yanderes, as my power increases the more Yandere I have in my harem.... to think I actually hated Yandere at first, I'm such a fool these bitches be wilding but they loyal as hell, yes let's create a bigger army of Yandere, I wonder should I get Kurumi from date alive as my next Yandere target or maybe Capella from this world, well whatever in time all yandere shall be mine, the more the merrier."

"Hahahahah.... agh I love being a Mythos like Satella."

"Although I need a good Mythos name."

"Well, whatever."

You must be wondering how I got my powers well it all started one fateful rainy night on Discord.