Healing 196

I stopped getting out from my room. I don't know why? May be I'm depressed I don't know. My friends try to come and see me. But I sent them back. I don't have anything to say to them. I had promised to give me and Lucien another chance but I couldn't get myself up in the morning. The self doubt and lowness is killing me. I don't think a relationship is going to work for me. I don't think anything is going to work. With Mildred gone I felt so much empty. I thought I could bear everything life throws at me. But I don't think I can anymore.