Chapter 43: Perfect In His Eyes

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"Hyung, I-" Jungkook took a step forward with a worried gaze. His newborn son inherited the mutaged gene, there was no going back. And he was shocked. He was not expecting something like this to happen, even more with his complicated relationship with Jimin.

"Jungkook, I can barely talk... My stomach hurts like a fucking bitch. Don't force me to call a nurse to force you to leave. So please... leave me alone right now." The burning pain of his lower andomen was also adding to his stress. The stitches moved along his stomach whenever he spoke and it forced him to deal with the surging pain. He didn't want to force his voice and right at that moment, he didn't want to see the male; the pain was frustrating him.

"No. I will stay here. This is the only time I get this month, I want to see him. I don't care if he has a hearing disability, we'll get through this. It's an obstacle we'll face, but we will get through it." Trying to sound firm in his words to console him and himself, the actor felt sorrow behind them. He ignored how the writer wanted him to leave and walked over to the bed where Jimin's mind began to trail endless thoughts of how his life was going to change in many ways.

"He couldn't hear me..." Jimin mumbled after sensing the actor's steps approach him. His strength was weakening when his eyes watered. "I'm so sorry hyung. I'm so sorry." Jungkook hung his head feeling utterly guilty of the emotions the writer was feeling; it was his gene. He lifted his hand and hovered it above the writer's that laid on the bed.

In the moment of weakness, Jimin's eyes closed and he leaned his head towards the actor. He didn't want to see anyone, but he needed to be held, only by him. "Kook... He couldn't hear me." He repeated and Jungkook took the sign of his leaned head towards him as the approval that he could touch him.

"I told him I loved him and he couldn't..." Jungkook tried sitting on the edge of the bed without falling and wrapped his arms around Jimin. His left arm gently brushed past the writer's back until his hand held his left bicep and his right hand gently began to caress his soft blonde locks. Jimin leaned his head against the actor's lowered neck and silently let out his emotions out.

"But he saw you. He knows you're there for him and although he might not hear you, he loves you back. He feels it." There he was saying the words of comfort he knew well from when he was a child. It reminded him of how his mother suffered because now he would understand how much pain she could've or did went through. Jungkook closed his eyes and held him, to comfort him from what giant obstacle life threw their way. And if their son had a hearing disability, Jungkook's changed heart had just increased the protectiveness it held for them both.

Jimin was crying from fear. It was a punch in the heart if his newborn son did not have the ability to hear, but that wasn't going to stop him from loving him. It will be hard, but right now, he was letting out all the tears of sadness and frustration before his newborn returned to his arms.

There was a knock on the door after a few minutes of Jimin leaning on the actor for comfort, he opened his eyes and leaned away while attempting to clean his eyes with his hands. "Come in." He spoke, his voice was forced. Jungkook felt his heart begin to race as if he was running a marathon and the shot was just fired. The adrenaline coursed through his veins just as the fragile body of the writer separated from his while his own eyes watched the door open.

There was a sudden whimper of a sound that filled the private hospital room when a doctor and a nurse opened the door. Jungkook and Jimin's eyes focused on the bed on wheels the nurse was carefully pushing inside. There was a small newborn baby boy crying in a soft high pitch tone. Both parents felt their hearts skip a beat and the hold of Jungkook's hand on Jimin's tightened.

Their eyes trailed to the newborn's small hands lying beside his head while the nurse brought the small bed on wheels closer. Through the transparent glass at each side of the bed (for the baby's protection) on wheels, they could see a small white bracelet (tag) wrapped around their newborn's left hand.

"Mr. Park." The doctor spoke but Jimin's lips trembled as he observed his newborn. He needed to hold him in his arms, right now. "Please, first give us moment." Jungkook answered for him and suddenly a look of protectiveness unveiled in his eyes the moment the nurse reached her hands out for to pick the newborn up.

"Who would like to hold him first?" She asked assuming both were the parents, and Jimin was about to speak what his heart wanted. The doctor waited for them to have their moment and silently stood beside the entrance with a small smile.

"Jungkook." Jimin's voice gave no hint of hesitation. He wanted to hold the newborn so bad, but he first gave in. Jungkook's eyes instantly shifted to his with parted lips. "H-Hyung." He stuttered and his heartbeat was about to take a leap.

The nurse gently picked up the crying newborn between her arms and walked over to the man wearing a soldier's uniform. "Gently but firmly." The weight felt so light. "Be careful with his head." The nurse guided Jungkook's trembling right hand under the newborn's soft head and his left arm balanced the body. She left to stand beside the doctor after making sure the baby was safely carried.

His own body heat radiated warmth against him. This was it. Jungkook felt his world begin to rock when his newborn son's cries diminished the moment he began to hold him in his arms. "H-He's so tiny." The stutter in his voice forced Jimin's eyes to look at him instead. He could see the teary eyes, threatening to release any time just like his own. His own hand reached out to softly and gently caress the newborn's head.

The cries stopped when the newborn's eyes opened to stare at Jungkook's. "Hyung, he's looking at me. He's looking at me." The actor felt his voice crack when he analyzed the newborn's features.

The crack of his voice was the last drop of water on the full cup. The baby's double eyelid was beautiful, the cute round eyes were his own. The baby inherited his eyes like a pure copy of them. The nose wasn't his own, but Jimin's small one, the cheeks weren't as full as Jimin's but a little round like his own and his lips weren't so plump but they weren't thin; it was a mixture of both.

"I love you." Jungkook's lips instinctively whispered. It didn't matter if the baby had hearing loss, he said it with his heart, it was in his eyes. The baby did not need to hear the words to feel loved. This was his love, the love came naturally. The proof was there. This is what his love was, and it may not be perfect in other's eyes, but to him it was.

In the writer's emotional state, he knew those words were meant for their newborn, but a part of his heart felt the words were meant for both of them even if forgiveness was still miles away. Jungkook shifted his eyes to him in a matter of seconds and he could see what the actor was doing. With so much gentleness, soon the newborn was in Jimin's hold and Jungkook's arms felt empty.

Jungkook gently leaned down and softly pressed his lips against the newborn's rosy forehead before doing the same to Jimin; and the writer did not flinch nor did he resist. He was too focused falling in love with the angel in his arms.

"Talk with me outside. Let them have their moment." Jungkook stood up from the edge of the bed while cleaning the corner of his eyes, the woozy face tattooed on his right middle finger came upon the corner of his view while he walked towards the doctor and nurse.

"All right." The doctor and nurse left with Jungkook following behind while Jimin was left to giggle with silent tears holding the newborn in his arms. He agreed with Jungkook. It didn't matter if the baby couldn't hear him, he felt it, that was all that mattered.

It seemed like Taehyung went to the bathroom or somewhere else because he wasn't present in the hallway when Jungkook, the nurse and the doctor exited the room. "You may leave Nurse Song." The nurse nodded and bowed her head before leaving to do check on the other patients that needed assistance.

"I'm Jeon Jungkook, the other father." The actor bowed his head while offering his right hand to the doctor. "Doctor Seo. Nice to meet you." The doctor introduced himself by returning the handshake and bow. After a few seconds of their introductions, Doctor Seo began to read the records on his hands before delivering the already known news.

"The results of the screening are not well. For now, the results of the hearing screen came back with positive hearing loss. We performed both the Otoacustic Emissions (OAE) Test and the Auditory Brain Stem Response (ABR) Test. Your newborn did not respond to any of them. I'm diagnosing him with auditive hearing loss for now until an expert in the field examines him." It was diagnosed. It hurt but he couldn't let it interfere. As he had said, they would get through it.

"The Pulse Oximetry Test came back negative and the Blood Test results will be completed in a week. I can you give my recommendations on Audiologists, your newborn will need to see one after Mr. Park gets discharged from the hospital for the newborn's benefit and yours." Jungkook's legs wanted to give up. He wasn't going to be there. He couldn't be there for Jimin and his newborn whose warmth he already missed. It frustrated him like hell.

"Yes, thank you doctor. Would you be able to give um... Jimin about the audiologists? I... can't be..." The doctor immediately apologized when he realized Jungkook was refering to his military duties and absence. He pitied him, but there was nothing he could do. "Oh, of course. I shall make a list and send it to Mr. Park. And remember that although the baby may not hear you, he can feel vibrations, he can eat, sleep, he's just not able to hear sounds. Other than that, he's like every other baby, one adorable little one. Congratulations. I would recommend contact of skin to skin for the baby's health, it helps them." With that last sentence, the doctor left.

Jungkook sighed frustratedly with his right hand covering his face. He knew this would happen. He knew that time right now was not something he possessed, and he needed to make use of it however he could. He neeed to help Jimin.

When he entered the hospital room again, his sight only focused on the man he loves carrying their newborn. Jimin's eyes sparkled like stars and formed crescent moons just like his curled lips revealed his teeth and formed a smile.

"He has your eyes." Jimin said outloud after a few minutes of Jungkook admiring the view. "But when he looks at you, he has your gaze." Jungkook replied, slowly he walked towards them hoping Jimin wouldn't force him out now that he was better.

"Is Taehyung still outside?" Jimin felt a little guilty for snapping at his best friend before Jungkook had arrived and now he wanted to apologize. "He's not. Maybe bathroom?" Jungkook cautiously took another step closed before the writer raised his head to look at him after nodding.

"Did Doctor Seo confirm it?" Jungkook silently nodded with a heavy face. "He'll give you a list names of audiologists you'll need to make appointments after you're released." Trying not to overstep his boundaries again, the actor grabbed a chair and pulled it beside the bed while the writer hummed and noticed how the newborn began squirming.

"He's beautiful." Jungkook said while leaning a bit closer after sitting down on the chair beside the bed. "He's wiggling." Jimin noticed the discomfort the newborn felt when he suddenly began to cry and his paternal instinct kicked in. He observed how the baby's small tongue kept poking out whenever he wailed.

"Jungkook, Can you... leave the room?" Jimin asked while beginning to gently rock his arms so the newborn could stop squirming and crying but the actor made an offended and hurt expression. "You're kicking me out?" He felt hurt.

"I'm going to breastfeed him. I don't want you looking." A hint of roses bloomed on the writer's cheeks while the actor visibly gulped in a very audible sound. "What if I close my eyes?" He tried to reason not wanting to be apart but there was a sudden glare sent his way.

"I still... don't trust you." As much as that sentence hurt him, Jungkook slowly nodded and stood up. "I'll be outside, call me when you're done." He hung his head and walked away with a heavy heart.

Baby steps. He still had a long way to go, but at least Jimin let him hold comfort him, let him hold their newborn first and never throw him out; minus the feeding part.

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The music was loud. The loud speakers could be heard throughout the whole house, maybe a few neighbors heard it but they did not dare complain because the owner of the house was well respected and loved by them; and because this was one of the few days of the year where they'd hear happy shouts.

"BABY YOU'RE A FIREWORK~ COME ON LET YOUR COLORS BURST~ MAKE 'EM GO~ OH OH OH~ YOU'RE GONNA LEAVE 'EM FALLING DOWN DOWN DOWN~ BOOM BOOM BOOM~ EVEN BRIGHTER THAN THE MOON~ MOON MOON~ BOOM BOOM BOOM~ EVEN BRIGHTER THAN THE MOON MOON MOON~"

Han Me-Ji stood up inside her house wearing a simple black hoodie just below her round ass covered by pink lace underwear and a pair of white socks. She slid across the floor while singing her heart out strangely hitting every note while her daughter danced along with her following her lead. Although her daughter did not understand the lyrics, she tried singing along. The next song came up and both of them began dancing all sassy.

"First things first, I'm the realest~" Me-Ji was clearly not acting like a professional lawyer right at the moment, but did she care? Not a single fuck. "Drop this and let the whole world feel it~" She dropped down while making her back curve and her daughter imitated her. "I'M SO FANCY~" Damn did they enjoy dancing like there was no tomorrow. And when the intro to the next song started playing, Me-Ji jumped in joy.

"I might never a knight in shining armor~" She began singing while her daughter paused to take a breather and observed her wonderful mother sing her heart out. "I might never be the one you take home to mother~" Those lyrics were kind of true for her. That was how she met a college boy and fell in love with him after getting so many broken hearts.

"But if YOU LIKE CAUSING TROUBLE UP IN HOTEL ROOMS~ AND IF YOU LIKE HAVING SECRET LITTLE RENDEZVOUS~ IF YOU LIKE TO DO THE THINGS YOU KNOW THAT WE SHOULDN'T DO~ THEN BABY I'm perfect~ Baby I'm perfect for YOU~" Just as she finished singing the verse and preprared to sing the chorus, her phone began to ring interrupting the music and her joyful mood.

"Who the he-" She searched for her phone while her daughter suspected the call might be important as it always was and with a sad frown, she walked over to the kitchen to search for her cup of water. When Me-Ji checked the Caller ID, she scoffed and clicked on the button ignore. A few seconds after she clicked the button, another call surged in. This time, it took her by surprise.

"Jungkook-ah! It's been a while." She chimmed in looking forward to hearing her dongsaeng's voice. "Yeobuseyo? Hello Noona, are you free?" The actor's voice spoke at the other end.

"I've been jamming to a few old songs on my day off why- Are you out today?!" She was excited, first she gets the news that Jonghyun was returning in a few weeks and now this. "Would you be able to come to Severance's Hospital and bring me a pair of my clothes?" She didn't ask him why he was in the hospital, and with a simple nod and yes, she was off to change with her daughter a little disappointed that the fun had to end earlier than expected.

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