34 One Day I Won't Be There To Help You - 1d Medical

Trigger warning. If you don't feel like reading it, you're free. Just know that you're not alone...

"Hey sis," Liam said as he leaned against his twin sisters locker. "Oke Li what do you need," Emily said turning around. She adjusted her glasses and was met by Liam and his 'friends'. Liam was the complete opposite from his twin Emily.  There were Liam was one of the popular blokes in the school, Emily was the nerdy one. Liam was good at sports while Emily loved math and history. If you didn't knew they were twins there was no telling they were or even were related.

"Ehh yeah you know that history assignment?" Liam asked scratching the back of his head.

"You mean the one we were supposed to hand in two weeks ago? Yeah I remember that one," Emily exclaimed as she put her books into her backpack.

"Yeah can you do it for me please," Liam asked smiling knowing his twin couldn't say no to him.

"and what's in it for me?" Emily wondered this time.

"I'll sit by you at lunch," Liam smiley said while crossing his fingers at his back.

Emily looked sceptical towards her brother. "You know one day I won't be there to help you anymore but alright I'll do it for you," Emily gave in.

"Thanks you're the best," Liam said, "oww and side note it needs to be done before midnight."

Liam high-fived his friends and walked away. Emily wiped away a tear furiously and thought by herself what the reason was she was still here. Liam knew about Emily her weakness, that she just wanted to be loved by everyone and would do anything in her power to let that happen.

Liam thought he did a great job, but little did he know was that his eldest brother Niall was watching him as well and overheard the whole conversation.

Niall was currently talking to his mates and waited for Liam to walk into the hallway where the lockers of the seniors were.

"Excuse me a second," Niall said to his mates as he spotted his 15 year old brother, "Liam could you get here please."

Liam saw who called him over and sighed. He didn't know what Niall want but nine of the ten times Niall called him over at school that wasn't a good sign.

"Yeah what is it?" Liam said annoyed as he reached his 17 year old brother. He had to leave his friends to get to Niall who shot him nasty looks. Niall caught this as well and knew that Liam was in more trouble than he thought.

"Alright we need to talk," Niall said. "Why?" Liam wondered.

"Just come with me."

Niall let Liam towards the bicycles where it was quiet enough for Niall to have a serious chat with his younger brother.

"What are you doing tonight?" Niall wondered as he sat down next to a bike.

"Ehh nothing probably just gaming," Liam responded thinking the question of Niall was a bit weird, "why do you ask?"

"Than why on this earth are you asking Em to clean up your shit!" Niall spat out.

"Where are you aiming for?" Liam asked innocent not knowing Niall overheard the conversation of him and Emily.

"Oww don't play stupid Stalik," Niall sighed, "I heard you. You think you're the man because you don't have to do your homework and use your sister for it. You are just making advantage of Emily her insecurities. And why? Because he think this whole mother fucking world is turning around you? Boy you're so so wrong."

"Its not that Niall," Liam softly spoke up.

"Li listen," Niall sighed, "I thought I had everything. I was popular, captain of the football. The girls were laying at my feet. But than I torn my acl and couldn't play anymore. Only 1% of my friends stayed and I knew all the others weren't my real friends."

Niall used to be the school's captain of the football team. He torn his acl a few months ago so he was out for the rest of the season. Niall took it for the worst when all his friends turned his back on him, not wanting to deal with him anymore.

" And than something else," Niall spoke, "I don't know if you even care to notice but Emily is depressed. She is even so depressed I won't be surprised if she is taking her life sooner or later. I tried talking to her but she keeps shutting me out. I'm away too much from home and Louis is too fucking young to understand what depression means. The only one she can fall back to is you. And what are you doing? You're making fucking advantage of her instabilities."

Niall was furious at Liam for using his sister.

"Alright," Liam spoke wiping his tears away, "I haven't been the best but belive me Niall I don't want to be in the position I'm in."

"I have a deal," Niall said, "you're doing the assignment today on your own. I'll drive you both home after school and you're making it up to Emily yeah."

"Okay," Liam spoke. Niall sighed and left his brother alone with stuff to think about.

**

"Hop in," Niall said as Emily walked towards her brothers parking spot. Liam wasn't far away and said goodbye to his friends. Niall shook his head and Liam adjusted his blazer.

"Why are you sitting in the back Em?" Niall wondered as Emily waited for Niall to scuff away so she could open the backdoor.

"Oww because Liam likes to sit in front," Emily sweetly spoke. Niall had to swallow his tears away. He had to talk to his papa who should be home. His dad was probably still working a shift at the hospital.

"Yoo," Liam said as he threw his bag in the SUV and sat down. Niall looked at his brother and nudged to him to speak up to Emily.

"Em," Liam started, "you won't have to do my history."

Niall watched his back mirror and saw that Emily was quite shocked.

"Oww oke," Emily started, "so you do your history while I do your maths and English essays than right?"

Niall immediately pulled over.

"You got to be kidding Em," Niall said in disbelief.

"Oww I don't mind. I have nothing better to do right? I'm only useful for making assignments and making sure Liam passes the year right?" Emily asked.

Liam just started in the distance knowing that Niall was kicking his ass when Emily wasn't in their sight.

" You're in trouble Stalik," Niall softly spoke when he turned onto the highway, "really in trouble."

The tension in the car was real. Emily was staring outside the window organizing in her head how she could fit her own homework into that one of Liam. It would probably be an all nighter but she would do that for her brother.

Sometimes Emily just wondered how people were coping if she wasn't there anymore. Liam would only miss her because she wasn't cleaning up his shit. Niall would genially miss Emily because he was the only one Emily could talk to. Louis was too young to understand what loneliness and depression meant. Emily just wanted to be loved by people and at this moment Niall was the only one holding her up.

Liam on the other hand tried to avoid eye contact with Niall because he knew he was getting his ass kicked by his papa and Niall. He wasn't looking forward to it but it had to be done.

Niall was burning from anger on the inside. He just couldn't get his head around Liam his behavior. Niall nedded to be there for Emily especially now because he saw that she was slipping through his fingers. Tonight his papa needed to bring Louis to swimming lesson while Niall had to be at the physical therapy for his acl. He didn't want to leave Emily behind but he knew he had to, but maybe his dad could get home earlier or Niall could do half a session.

Niall was just turning into the driveway of their house. Louis already jumped up and down as he saw Niall his SUV being parked into their driveway.

Emily hopped out immediately while Liam tried to stretch it for a long time but Niall wasn't buying it.

"get your ass out of this car before I'm making you," Niall spat. Liam sighed and slung his bag over his shoulder.

"Ni," Louis yelled as Niall entered the house. Emily walked behind Niall with her head hung low and immediately ran towards her room to do her and Liam his homework.

"Hello hello," Harry greated the boys as they entered the kitchen. He immediately sensed something was wrong.

"Lou," Harry said as he crunched down to get to the level of the 5 year old, "why don't you go upstairs to your room and watch some paw patrol. Maybe Emily can put it on for you."

Louis happenly nodded and ran upstairs towards the room of Emily.

"Alright what happened," Harry said crossing his arms. He hoped that Zayn was here since he could deal with these situations much more than Harry could since he was too soft for this.

"It's nothing," Liam spoke. Niall sighed furiously and had to calm his shit down otherwise Liam was getting Niall his hand in full force to his face.

"Liam you're going to tell right now what you did to Em because I swear to God you'll fucking regret it if you don't," Niall screamed into Liam his face.

"Niall one we don't swear in this house and two Liam what on earth is Niall talking about," Harry spoke.

"You have the balls to tell it yourself or?" Niall spat spying his brothers movement.

Liam didn't give a budge which was enough for Niall.

"Liam has been using Emily," Niall said watching Liam and his papa at the same time.

"What do you mean," Harry spoke now getting a bit frustrated with both of the boys.

"I mean Liam is using Emily her instabilities," Niall spat, "she's upstairs right now making his homework for math and making three English essays he had to hand in a long time ago. Not to mention that he tried to give her his history task as well meanwhile he was doing planning on doing nothing for tonight."

Harry got frustrated now as well with Liam.

"Go to your room," Harry said, "wait there till your dad comes home in a hour. You better have started your work."

Liam said words that weren't used to repeat before storming off towards his room.

"Papa can I just talk," Niall asked in a much calmer tone now, "it's about Emily."

"Ofcourse Ni."

Niall sat down and laid his head in his hands.

"I think," Niall started crying, "I think Emily will kill herself sometime. She's been so depressed lately and I don't know what to do anymore with it."

Harry was taken aback. Yes he and Zayn had talked about it. Zayn had talked to Emily and took her quite often towards a psychologist without the other ones knowing.

"Listen Ni," Harry said as he sat down next to his eldest, "I know and so does dad. Dad takes her quite often to a psychologist so please Niall don't worry to much about it alright."

"I just don't want to loose her," Niall cried into his papa's chest. Harry cuddled his son and tried to calm him down.

"You know what she said papa," Niall hiccupped, "that she was only useful for his assignments and nothing else."

Harry sighed and got his hand through his hair.

"I'll go up to her and talk yeah," Harry said, "you can do something for yourself or watch Louis for a bit because I think things will be turning nasty when your dad will be home within a minute."

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"WE ARE GOING TO SCHOOL IF YOU LIKE IT OR NOT," Zayn yelled to Liam. Once Zayn heard what had been going on he immediately stormed off towards Liam his room. Harry and Louis had left for swimming lesson just a few minutes ago so Louis couldn't hair the fight upstairs escalating. They were having a fight for 10 minutes already and Emily hided herself in the corner of her room.

Niall heard the commotion as well and wondered how Emily was doing. Niall needed to leave in a second for his physical therapy so he decided to pop by Emily for a second.

"Em you there?" Niall said as he knocked on the door. Niall found it odd that he didn't get an answer.

"Em you alright?"

Niall still didn't get an answer and marched into the room.

There found Emily. Funerable, ducked away into the corner. Niall immediately raced towards Emily.

Emily looked straight forward and didn't even budge when Niall embraced her in a hug.

" Hey Em what's wrong girl," Niall said. Emily still sat there and didn't answer Niall. Suddenly she began to hyperventilate and that scared the shit out of Niall.

"Emily," Niall asked, eyes full of fear, "Emily answer me."

She didn't and it looked to Niall that she would be passing out into his arms.

"DAD!" Niall yelled knowing his dad was just a room away. He kept his eyes on Emily while he heard his dad shutting the door of Liam and opening the one of Emily.

"What is it," Zayn asked as he crunched down next to Niall and Emily.

"She just started to hyperventilate," Niall said crying because he got scared. "I see," Zayn said, "Niall go down and to your therapy, I'll handle it from here."

Niall nodded and hugged Emily farewell before he left off.

"Hey Em," Zayn calmly said as he placed a bag he found on the floor over her mouth, "breathe okay. Just breathe my love."

Zayn got up and rushed to his room to get his medical bag. He knew he had left a shot of paroxentine in his bag. It would reduce the amount of stress and lower her breathing problems.

Once Zayn returned he didn't find Emily into a sitting position anymore but passed out on the floor. Zayn sighed and knew he had to administer the shot because he wasn't looking forward taking his daughter into the ER especially not after the fall out with Liam.

Zayn crunched down and set up a shot of paroxentine for Emily. He disinfected the arm and put the needle in. Once he emptied the syringe into his daughter's arm, he pulled Emily into the recovery position.

"Hey girl open your eyes for me love," Zayn said as he rubbed her sternum. Emily slowly came around and looked right into the distressed eyes of her dad.

"Dad," Emily croaked out looking odd. "Hey Em," Zayn said as he slowly pulled her back into a sitting position, "you fainted because you hyperventilated. I'm going to lay you down on your bed because you need to rest."

Zayn carried Emily in bridal style into her bed. Emily snuggled into her pillow and wanted to get up.

"Ho ho ho," Zayn said as he softly pushed Emily back by her shoulder, "just rest a bit."

"I need to speek to your tutor with Liam tonight," Zayn softly spoke, "we'll be back in a hour alright. I'll miss you girl but I need to go now." Zayn placed a kiss on Emily her forehead and walked out of her room.

"Dad wait," Emily spoke, "I love you." Zayn smiled and closed the door.

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Emily pulled a string of hair behind her ear. She shakily looked into the mirror and let her eyes drift off to her hand. In her hand there laid a dozen of pills she was about to swallow. It were the sleeping pills Niall recently got subscribed. She was ready for this and she knew it. Her dad was away for 40 minutes and she knew he was the only one who was medically able to bring her back to live, so she had to do it now if she really wanted to die. The only one who kept her from committing suicide was Niall. He was always there when she felt down, but this time he wasn't around.

Emily looked into the mirror and put all the pills into her mouth. She took two glasses of water before she felt off.

Emily quickly fell down the floor with her eyes wide open. She felt the pills doing their effect. On the back of her head there was a huge gash. She whispered 'I'm sorry' before she drifted off to a happier place.

**

"I'm home," Niall yelled through the house. He didn't see his dad's SUV and thought they were still in school talking to Liam his tutor.

His papa should be pulling up in a few seconds depending how long Louis would take to dress up again.

Niall remembered leaving Emily in not the best state possible. He quickly ran up the stairs towards his sisters room.

"Em you there," Niall knocked on the door. Niall waited a few seconds before he slowly opened the door. Niall hoped it revealed a room with Emily in it but there was just nothing. It was empty and Emily was no where to be found in that room.

Niall had a rare feeling in his stomach. A feeling that told him something wasn't right.

He wanted to go downstairs but than he got stopped by a noise coming from the bathroom. Afraid of what he would be faced with he had to gather all his faith to step towards their bathroom door.

He tried to open it but found that it was locked. "Fuck," Niall yelled out going with his hand through his hair furiously.

He decided to call his dad just in case already so he didn't have to do that once he reached Emily.

He dialed Zayn his number meanwhile trying to break open the bathroom door.

"Niall what's wrong?" Zayn asked getting worried that his son called since Niall would be home for a few minutes.

"It's Emily," he said while trying to break open the door, "I don't know what's wrong but she's in the bathroom and th-"

Niall couldn't finish his sentence because the door flung open.

"OMG EMILY," Niall yelled.

"Niall what's going on," Zayn said as Niall heard him leaving with Liam and his doctor mode kicking in.

"NOO NOO NOO!" Niall repeatedly yelled through the phone.

"Ni calm down," Zayn sighed, "I know you're scared but listen to me. What's wrong?"

"Sh-she is seizing and her mouth is covered with foam," Niall managed to choke out.

"Niall did she take something?" Zayn tried to be sensible to his boy.

"How the fuck should I know," Niall cried out, "she stopped seizing."

"Thats great Niall. You're doing great," Zayn said as he drove away to his house, "listen put her into the recovery position like you've seen me do before when she faints. If you've done that go through the medical supplies and look for something that stands out to you."

Niall did as his dad told him and pulled Emily into a recovery position.

"Stay on the line with me Ni, you're doing amazing. Your papa will be there soon because he texted me when he left 15 minutes ago."

Niall continued to cry as he searched through the medical cabinet. He didn't find something odd until his eye fell on a container where the lid wasn't fully on anymore. Niall read the corn tof the container out loud temazepine.

"Niall what's up with the temazepine?" Zayn wondered knowing it was the sleep medication of Niall.

"She took it dad. She fucking took my sleeping pills," Niall screamed.

Zayn knew it was serious. Niall his sleeping medication was quite strong and with Emily not being the heaviest out there 4 pills could be already fatal.

"Alright Niall I need you to act quickly while Liam will call the ambulance for her," Zayn explained as he pulled up for a traffic light, "go sit behind her and hold her halfway upright. I know this will sound awful but you need to do it. You need to stick your finger in her throat so that she will throw up and get some out of her system already. Can you do that for me?"

"Yes dad," Niall cried as he did what his dad said, "come one Em I don't want to lose you."

Niall opened Emily her mouth as he positioned himself right behind her.

"I'm sorry," he spoke as he forcefully went with his finger into her throat.

"Dad it doesn't work," Niall cried out, "She's not th-."

Just when Niall was about to lose it he heard his papa coming home.

"PAPA PLEASE HELP!" Niall screamed on the top of his lungs towards his papa. Harry, who had no idea Emily was taking her own life, sprinted up the stairs hearing the amount of fear and distress Niall screamed his name for.

"Ni wh. OMG NO EMILY," Harry yelled as he saw Niall desperately trying to get Emily to throw up.

"Harry calm down I'll be there within two," Zayn now mengled into the discussion.

"I'll do it Ni," Harry said as he shove his finger into his daughter's mouth, "come on Em." Harry cried.

Niall pushed on Emily her stomach in the hope that would speed up the process of her throwing up.

"Harry did you leave the door open?" Zayn asked as he turned into their street.

"Yeah I had no change to close it because Niall yelled," Harry said not having luck on getting Emily to throw up.

"I'm there in a sec," Zayn yelled. Niall could hear his dad's car door being  slammed shut and him running up the stairs.

"I got it," Zayn said as Harry moved out of the way, "both of you down now and wait for the ambulance to arrive. I'll be driving with them and you'll come when I call because now of you is in a state to drive at this moment."

Zayn got himself positioned behind Emily and tried to let her throw up. He did what he usually did by his patients and it seemed to have effect because once he released his finger she immediately began to throw up.

" I've got you Em," Zayn soflty cried as he held his daughter close in his arms.

**

"Alright 15 year old Emily Stalik. Suicide attempt with temazepine. 50cc intravenous of adraline. Not breathing on her own so intibated on scene. Set up a charcoal line and pump her stomach," Zayn ordered the people in the cubicle once he ran with Emily into it.

Everyone started working on Emily and Zayn just stood there watching how his daughter was being hooked up to all the machines. So this is how a parent felt when their children were really sick.

"Dr Stalik her throat is numbed. You can start the gastric suction," one of Zayn his interns told him.

Zayn nodded and stepped closer towards Emily.

"Alright tube and saline please," Zayn ordered. He got the tube and via the intubation Zayn already sat up while they were at home.

Once Zayn knew that he secured the line, he poured the saline solution through it to make sure that Emily her electrolyte imbalances stayed the same when he was preforming the gastric suction.

"alright this seems fine," Zayn said as he adjusted his working glasses to his head, "suction please."

The intern did what Zayn asked and passed him the suction material. Zayn suctioned the overdose of temazepine out of Emily her system.

The procedure didn't take longer than 15 minutes but for Zayn it felt hours.

"Alright people listen up," Zayn said as he shove his chair away, "hook her up the ventilation. Bring her to the ICU after you've given her 100cc of activated charcoal and an saline of 50cc."

All the interns nodded.

"If you need me I'm in the waiting room calling my husband," Zayn said golfing his phone up.

Zayn walked outside of the ER into the family waiting room where he had picked up many distressed parents. He noticed a couple who where still waiting for answers after their son was brought in. The boy was under Zayn his treatment and needed to go up for emergency surgery three hours ago

"Dr Stalik what are you doing here?" the man asked.

Zayn broke down at looked at the two.

"It's my daughter," Zayn quietly said, "I brought her in due to a suicide attempt."

"Did she make it?" the woman asks. Zayn nodded and let the tears flow freely.

"Yeah she did," he smiled as he texted Harry to come pick him up.