9 I Can't Lose You- 1d medical
Trigger warning: if you're not into reading self harm or in any type of this than you might want to skip this prompt.
"AHHHHHH." Louis shot up and got out of bed quickly. He stormed into his sisters bedroom where he found Summer covered in sweat. It was just another nightmare that had been going on for three years straight now. The nightmares always contain their parents, well at least the car accident they were in with Summer in which his parents died.
"I'm here girl. I'm right here," Louis said while he stroked her bring curly hair. It broke Louis every night when he saw his baby sis just so scared. She's been diagnosed with PTSD after the car crash and that isn't something a 11 year old should be worrying about. A 11 year old should be hanging out with friends and just grow up in a normal household and that wasn't something Louis could give her at the moment.
He was so proud of Summer since she was so smart which lead that she was doing already the first class of secundaria education because she skipped a full year in primary education
Summer took it now for the worst which frightens Louis. She was moving her arms around uncontrollably which made her hit Louis a few times.
Louis putted his weight on her arms and kept those down.
"Listen to my voice Sum," Louis tried, "I want you to know I'm here and I won't be leaving you alright."
Summer slowly began waking up to those words. When she was fully awake she shot up and looked into the face of her older brother. Summer immediately began crying while Louis embraces her into a hug.
"I'll keep you close girl. I'm not leaving alright," Louis softly spoke while he rocked his sis in his arms. Summer seemed to calm down after a few minutes into Louis warm arms.
She softly touched his tattoos on his arms. "I miss them Louis," she said while stroking over the tattoo Louis got after their parents died.
"I do too babe. I do too." Louis kissed her forehead. "You feel fine to sleep?" Louis asked her while getting up from her bed. "Yeah I'll be fine," Summer said while snuggling back in her covers.
"Alright if there's something wrong just get me right?" Summer nodded and Louis closed the door. Summer carefully watched the door and when there was no beam of light creeping from under her door she quickly ran into her bathroom which was connected to her bedroom.
She looked at herself in the mirror. "Why am I like this," she thought to herself, "maybe they were right. Maybe I should've died in that crash instead of my parents."
Who Summer meant with 'they' were Felix and Quin, two of her worst nightmares. Louis still thinks that her nightmares are about her parents but damn if he knew. Only 1% is still about the crash but 99% of all her nightmares that occurred since two years involved Felix and Quin as well.
Summer threw some water in her face and looked back into the mirror. She slowly lifted up her shirt which revealed her skinny body, where her ribs were sticking out. But no matter how much weight she was loosing, Felix and Quin still called her fat.
Not only was now her skinny stomach visible but also the landmarks Felix and Quin had left behind.
Summer silently cried and grabbed the yellow box that she stored under the sink. In this box she kept her biggest. Nobody knew, especially not Louis.
"I'm sorry Lou," she whispered to herself while looking at her reflection in the mirror. She tied her pyjama shirt at her back so that the blood wouldn't get to there.
She carefully grabbed the razor and let it tough her skin. Without hesitation her hand made a fast movement. She repeated this over and over again till the only thing she saw was her bloody stomach. She sighed to herself. Most of the time she instantly regretted it but she kept doing it time by time.
She was cleaning up her cuts and made sure she cleaned every single piece of evidence that something had happened here tonight.
"Fuck," she cursed under her breath when she noticed that one cut she made was too deep. It didn't stop bleeding so she had to improvise.
When she looked at her alarm it stated that it was 6.30 a.m. 'Well that shouldn't hurt if I go down now,' she thought to herself.
With her pyjama still tied at her back she knew she had to go past Louis bedroom if she wanted to make it downstairs and clean up the cut.
She also knew that if Louis would hear her and walk out of bedroom she would be screwed for life and her secret would be exposed.
She tip-toed past Louis bedroom door and came to a halt when she stood at the top of the stairs. Summer turned around and was delighted to see that there was no beam of light coming down from Louis's bedroom door.
She slowly made her way downstairs and hit her hand on the light switch. Summer perfectly knew where Louis kept his medical supplies, because yeah you know Louis is a doctor in his spare time. He actually became one after the crash three years ago. He's still a resident but he's getting there.Together with his mates he worked in the local hospital. Niall and Liam on the kids ward while Harry was trauma doctor and Louis was a third year resident.
"It should be somewhere about here," Summer whispered to herself in order to kill the silence that covered the house. She looked in the cabinet where she thought Louis kept the first aid kit, and indeed, hidden behind the cereal was the first aid kit. When Summer looked back up she saw something laying on the table which quite looked like a roll of bandage. "Yeah thanks mate," Summer laughed in herself. She put the first aid kit back in the cabinet and grabbed the packet of bandage that laid on the table instead.
Summer got the gauze she did find in the first aid kit and placed it on her stomach. When she applied the gauze correctly she unwrapped the bandage. She pulled it thought around her waist and secured it with some tape that laid next to it.
When she looked at her outcome she was pretty proud of herself. She got a board from the counter and got a cracker out of the box. She already got a knife which she sliced through the butter but wiped it of the edge one the butter made contact with the knife. Summer crumbled the cracker above her board leaving some thing behind and throwing 80% of the cracker away.
Summer wasn't eating anything but maybe now Louis would believe that she actually had eaten since he now had physical proof.
Summer decided to lay on the couch and wait till it was time to go to school, meanwhile she put on Greys anatomy
Alex Karev was about to hit Deluca when Louis walked in.
"Hey munchkin," he said ruffling through Summers hair, "watching Greys again." He said laughing while walking towards the kitchen.
"Mhmm," Summer responded to her brother completely into Greys anatomy.
"Sum two things. One I don't do non verbal and second did you eat already?" Louis said while coming back from the kitchen with a cup of tea.
"Yeah I ate already," Summer responded while hanging her neck over the sofa. Louis nodded and decided to leave it like this.
"Alright," Summer said while the end credits came rolling in, "I'll be brushing my teeth and than I'm leaving for school." She walked passed Louis who was eating his yogurt with some weird fruit.
Summer kissed her brother on his forehead when leaving for school.
"Summer wait," Louis said looking to his baby sister, "I won't be home till eight so I'll be cooking for tonight so you can microwave it alright?" Summer nodded, threw her backpack in her cycle basket and drove of to hell
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"Look we've got here," Felix said while walking up to her locker, "fat piggy ass Summer." He laughed and Quin did as well but then Summer heard a peculiar laugh. When she looked passed Quin and Felix she saw her best friend. "Noah?" Summer asked not believing it. "Oww believe me girl," Noah said hissing, "you won't know." His smile grew wider and wider.
Summer had trusted Noah with her whole heart. She told him about her nightmares, her cutting and her eating disorder. He was the only one who knew everything but now most likely the whole school knew.
"I'll come after you," he whispered softly into her ear, "and I'll make your life a true living hell." He pinches into her stomach which made Summer bend over in pain.
"Fuck you Noah," Summer yelled when Noah and his mates went out of her sight.
She had let herself slide down her locker and silently cried with her hands in her hair. Summer stood up when the bell was to be heard.
She had geography, and since her tutor had made up who sat next to who Summer couldn't escape Noah since she was placed from first period foreword next to him.
"So," he remarked when Summer walked into the classroom, "did our pig take the stairs or did she take her elevator and since I don't think that one will be able to keep up with so many weight she had to take the stairs and that's why she's late." This comment made Felix and Quin laugh. "Alright boys," their teacher started, "if you're done laughing I would like to continue my lesson."
Throughout the lesson Noah had been picking on Summer. At some point he shove his scissors towards her.
"What am I suppose to do with this?" she whispered back to Noah. "You know," he reminded her, "just cut deeper next time so nobody will be hurt with your presence again."
Those words cut very deep into Summers heart. Noah, who was her best mate, turned into the devil just like that.
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Summer threw her bike against the shed and ran into the house crying her heart out.
"What if they're right," she spoke to no one in specific since she was home alone. She had been dealing with suicidal thoughts the past few months but always could push them away because of Louis and the boys or Noah. But since what happened today this wasn't helping at all.
So she made a decision at school, today was the day she would be doing it. Today at seven p.m she would take her own life. Why seven p.m, why not right now? Well because both of her parents died at seven p.m just a few seconds apart from each other.
She decided to first write a letter to the other boys and put those in the yellow box. When Summer finishes those she would be writing the one to her brother.
After two hours of writing she came to the difficult part, writing a letter to her brother.
Dear Lou,
Please remember that I've tried soo hard. I kept things from you since the crash. While you're thinking that I still dream about the crash I know something else. I'm bullied and even soo badly that that's one of the reasons why you're finding this letter.
I fully thrusted Noah but he broke it. My suicidal thoughts weren't to be pushed away anymore. Neither was my eating disorder which progressively had gotten worse over the amount of time.
Once you find me don't think about calling the ambulance because it will be too late. And when you can handle it, in the yellow box under my sink there are letters for the boys and my biggest secret will be revealed.
Please don't take the blame on you because you're one of the only ones who isn't to blame.
Please be strong and keep going on with your life. It would be better when I leave it.
I'm sorry.
Summer cried and laid the letter at the counter. She looked at the clock which indicated 5.45 p.m which meant she could do her last episode of Greys anatomy. Summer decided to choose the episode in which Derek dies during a car crash.
Once the episode was done she slowly got up knowing this would be it. She turned the tv off and walked to the medicine cabinet where Louis kept all sort of pills. She grabbed the first bottle she found.
It already was 6.50 p.m which meant she still had 10 minutes (well if she wanted to reach the goal she had set for herself) to end her life.
Summer went to her bathroom and locked the door.
"I'm sorry Lou," she whispered while she swallowed the full box with pills. She heard the clock bang seven times before she drifted off.
Louis parked his car and walked out. He got home a hour earlier since they were done recording and giving interviews.
All the others went to Nando's but Louis declines since he wanted to be home with Summer.
When Louis walked into the house he felt something odd. He heard no noise coming from the tv and there were no lights on. When he threw his car keys on the table and hung up his coat he realised that there was no light coming from upstairs as well.
"SUMMER!" Louis yelled through the house but didn't get a response. This made Louis grew more concerned. When he walked into the living room he saw a letter laying on the counter. He grabbed it while his eyes scanned the paper. Within seconds he ran upstairs.
"Summer please open that door," he screamed bagging on his sisters bathroom door. He listened if he could hear some movement going at the other side which wasn't the case.
"I'm kicking in that door," Louis warned Summer in case she could hear him. Louis succeeded within three tries. He saw Summer laying on the ground which made him fall to his knees and crying his heart out. "Why? Baby girl why?" He cried into his sisters body.
With shaky hands he decided to call the boys. Liam would be his person to handle this. After a few rings Liam picked up. "Yooo mate what's wrong?" Liam asked not thrusting Louis calling him first. "It's Summer," Louis chokes out, "she took her life." Louis clearly heard the gasp and money being thrown on the table. "We're coming mate, don't do anything stupid to yourself or to her when I'm not there alright? Oww and call an ambulance for me would you?" Liam asked while his doctor mode began kicking in.
"Alright," Louis said while hanging up.
He looked at his sister and then looked back at the bottle of pills she took. It were the pills Louis recently got prescribed and got only ten of them himself. Since the bottle of completely empty and there were about twenty spread on the floor, Louis made an indication hat she would've taken around thirty pills.
"Please wake up," Louis silently said to her when calling the ambulance.
"Lou were are you!" Liam yelled through the house when he, Niall and Harry rushed inside. "Probably upstairs," Niall mentioned. All three of them went running upstairs and ran straight to where the hearable sobs were.
They entered Summers bathroom where they saw her laying unconscious on the tiled floor.
Liam quickly took action and sat down next to Summer.
"Niall I need you here and you better take Louis to his room Harry," Liam instructed the boys. Both did what Liam said while Louis wasn't having it.
He kept screaming when Harry dragged him away from his sis.
When Louis was eventually done fighting he let himself slip against his bedroom door and broke out in sobs.
"Paramedics," someone yelled from downstairs. Niall was instructed by Liam to bring the paramedics up here when they arrived.
"Yeah follow me," Niall spoke softly. He led the two paramedics to the bathroom where Liam was working on Summer.
"Alright," Liam states once they entered, "11 year old girl, drug overdose due to suicide attempt, all pills are in there still since she was out and couldn't get to either wake or throw up, faint heartbeat, breathing slow but regular." Both of the paramedics nodded and worked further on Summer which made Liam step out of the scene.
"Alright," the first paramedic said, "warn the hospital that they set up a good amount of charcoal." The other one nodded and left off. Now it was just Liam, Niall and the paramedic woman. All of the sudden Summer began convulsing her muscles. "Fuck," Lola, the paramedic, yelled out, "could you help sir?" She looked at Liam. Liam nodded and sat down next to Summer.
"What do I need to do," Liam asked Lola. "You're a medic right?" She asked him which made Liam nod. "Alright put in 2cc of Lorazepam," she instructed Liam. Liam got the things that Lola asked for and put in an IV. Once the IV was in Liam put in the 2cc of Lorazepam. Summer stopped convulsing almost immediately.
"You'll be fine Sum," Liam cries into her ear. Lola passed intubation material to Liam. Liam did as he was asked for and intubated Summer.
"Alright," Lola recommended, "if you pick her up and take her downstairs I'll make sure there's a gurney. I'll hook up an IV and you can drive with us." Lola kept her focus on Liam who nodded while finishing the intubation.
"Alright then. Let's move," Liam spoke while picking up Summer in bridal style.
Once Liam and Lola left the bathroom with Summer, Niall's eyes spotted this odd looking yellow box. He opened it and saw three letters laying in there including some razors.
Niall silently closed the box and put it back where he found it.
Niall walked across the hallway and directly in Louis bedroom. Harry was sitting there silently staring at the wall, Louis on the other hand was a total mess. "She will be fine," Niall said while sitting down next to Louis. He laid his arm around Louis shoulder which made Louis cry harder.
"How couldn't I see Ni," Louis said blaming himself for what happened today. "You couldn't Lou. Believe me you couldn't," Niall tried to ease Louis. "Ni," Harry suddenly spoke up, "should we just go to her?" Niall looked to Louis who cried himself to sleep. "Yeah I'll wake him and we should go." Niall gently Louis his shoulder to wake him. "Lou," Niall spoke while tapping his cheek, "come we're going to meet Summer." Louis slowly came around and nodded sadly at Niall.
Liam already drove towards the hospital. He sat in the back of the ambulance silently bagging Summer.
"You think she'll make it?" Liam questioned Lola. Of course Liam was a medic himself but this case was way too close for him.
"Might be," Lola answered while looking at Summers chart.
The ambulance came to a halt and the doors were swung open.
The driver got the bag from Liam and with that Lola and the man left running with Summer on a gurney.
A receptionist came outside and silently tapped Liam's shoulder. "Sir," she said, "come with me to the waiting room please."
Liam nodded and followed the lady back to the waiting room.
When Liam sat down he heard screams at the end of the hallway, not much later he saw a crash cart rolling by. Liam sprinted back to the reception. "Summer Tomlinson. Please do you have an update about Summer Tomlinson," Liam frantically asked the receptionist. She looked up with sad eyes which gave Liam enough information. A mix of feelings and emotions came up in Liam's mind. He was about to go on a mental breakdown when all of the sudden he felt a familiar hand being laid on his shoulder. When Liam looked behind him Niall stood there with the same sad eyes. Liam slowly nodded which became clear for Niall that this wasn't going great at all.
Louis and Harry has already taken place in the waiting room. "Let's sit by them," Niall suggested. Liam slowly nodded and walked behind his bandmate.
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"Summer Tomlinson," a doctor yelled after five hours through the waiting area. All boys shot up and walked towards him.
"Alright, we had to pump her stomach and resuscitate her two times. She's stable now and you can meet her in room 437." The boys thanked the doctor and left of to Summers room.
"Hey beauty," Niall spoke when he enters the room. Louis followed closely from behind and saw how his sister was hooked up to some machines.
"I love you Sum," he whispered and hugged her fragile body....
