[~17~]

Have you ever wished you weren't a perfectionist? Sometimes it really hurts. You have to dwell on things that are easy to get past, but you think too long for that. However, sometimes if something is broken you will think "just break it, it's already broken, just try again from the beginning." But what if it can't be repeated? What should I do? How am I going to raise my face to keep laughing when I'm hurt inside? How am I going to get through all this? Should they know what hurts inside of me? Honestly, I don't want to open myself up to anyone. I don't want them to laugh at me for my weakness. maybe if suicide was not sinful, many would do it. But I'm still being selfish not to do that. Why? Because I have the Lord Jesus .. Yes I have a strong grip ..